- Jul 18, 2004
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I slept through the Divine Liturgy today. By the time I finally got out of bed it was too late to make it, and now I'm feeling really bad about myself. I could've gotten out of bed. I have no excuse for my absence.
Alot of things have been troubling me this past week. First of all, I've started hearing voices, bad ones. They try to encourage me to just take the "easy" way out by worshipping and trusting the evil one. Again and again I've resisted them by immediately praying to God, but the struggle is constant and extremely taxing. I can just sense the opposition forming around me, trying to stop me from finding the Truth of our Lord Jesus Christ. All of a sudden, I'm encountering heavy spiritual resistance everywhere, even inside of me. Everyone that I know seems to be trying to stop or delay my conversion. When I pray, almost immediately some distraction pops up and stops me dead in my tracks.
Also, old Protestant doctrines are coming back to haunt me. I've found that a part of me is still holding on to them, and it's refusing to let go.
How many spiritual battles can I fight? I feel that I'm losing ground and starting to backslide.
Please pray for me.
God bless you all in the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, for being more faithful than I have been. Amen.
Alot of things have been troubling me this past week. First of all, I've started hearing voices, bad ones. They try to encourage me to just take the "easy" way out by worshipping and trusting the evil one. Again and again I've resisted them by immediately praying to God, but the struggle is constant and extremely taxing. I can just sense the opposition forming around me, trying to stop me from finding the Truth of our Lord Jesus Christ. All of a sudden, I'm encountering heavy spiritual resistance everywhere, even inside of me. Everyone that I know seems to be trying to stop or delay my conversion. When I pray, almost immediately some distraction pops up and stops me dead in my tracks.
Also, old Protestant doctrines are coming back to haunt me. I've found that a part of me is still holding on to them, and it's refusing to let go.
How many spiritual battles can I fight? I feel that I'm losing ground and starting to backslide.
Please pray for me.
God bless you all in the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, for being more faithful than I have been. Amen.