Recent content by cerulean

i’m a female Christian in Bible college, and i’ve been feeling very distant from God lately, like God isn’t even there in the first place. i’ve been questioning a lot of my fundamental spiritual beliefs and feeling empty, apathetic toward the things of God, and angry at the Church. i’ve also...

i didn’t say i don’t desire Him at all, just that i don’t think i have a “deep, abiding desire” for Him. it’s more of a weak, faltering desire. there are some times when i barely desire a relationship with God at all, when i don’t want to pray or read the Bible or anything like that. maybe it’s...

I guess I would have to say no, I don’t have a deep abiding desire to know God. I wish I did. I’m willing to do what it takes to get close to God because I know that’s what I’m supposed to do, but I don’t do it because I just genuinely want to know God better. My desires are in the wrong places...

I have no idea if you’re saved, or even if I’m saved, but I just wanna let you know you’re not alone. I feel compassion for you because I’ve been there, though maybe not to the same extent. I too have a besetting sin that is hard to quit because my mind rationalizes it as a “victimless crime.” I...

I don’t know. I doubt my salvation very often. I do see fruits of the Spirit in my life but for all I know they may be false fruits. I, much like @Lifelong_sinner, haven’t really experienced the emotion of love for God, or at least not much of it. But I definitely wouldn’t say that the threat of...

This is very encouraging. However, I’m not sure I understand what you mean by our works being a “proactive approach?”

I’m in the same position. That exact quote from John Piper is what has been making me doubt my salvation lately. The only reason I became a Christian in the first place was to avoid Hell, and I honestly think the fear of Hell is the main thing keeping me in the faith. Does that mean I’m not saved?

I've been a Christian for 3 and a half years, and for the first time, I'm starting to really wrestle with the idea of a loving God sending people to Hell. Throughout my life as a Christian, I've never questioned it. I've always thought, "Of course it's fair that God sends non-Christians to Hell...

My best friend and roommate in Bible college has recently been really physical with her boyfriend who she’s only been with for a month, and I’m worried about her. For example, I once saw them “cuddling” on a couch and they were practically on top of each other, and she told me that the other day...

That's what I'm trying to do. The issue is, I feel guilty for not telling my friend about this. I don't like keeping secrets.

I have a really bad relationship problem: I really like this guy, but my best friend likes the same guy, and I haven't told her this yet. I don't want to lose my friendship with her, but I can't stand to keep it a secret from her any longer. We're best friends and we tell each other everything...

What if I cry out to Him to give me true repentance, and it never comes? Then is there any hope left for me?

I've been a "Christian" for over a year now, but in the past few hours, I've just been convicted that I'm not truly saved. I listened to a sermon called Repentance unto Life by Charles Spurgeon, and in it, he said this about false repentance: "You are afraid of damnation, but you are not afraid...

That's really good advice, but I wonder if it would help me if I'm not saved. If I'm unregenerate, then I won't be conformed to His likeness no matter how much I dwell on Him. I suppose I don't know, but I can make a pretty good guess based on the fact that I lack a desire to spend time with...

I know, it's ridiculous that I want to die despite how fortunate I am. But it feels so pointless to live in a constant cycle of apathy, guilt, legalism, leniency, apathy, guilt, legalism, leniency, apathy, guilt, legalism, leniency, apathy, guilt, legalism, leniency, over and over and over again...