My doctor asked me if i had any psychoses lately, but i don't really know what it is. I know when im mistreated by people online it triggers something in me, it triggers depression and anxiety and great emotional pain. Is this psychoses? I know psychoses can lead to delusions, i don't hallucinate but I'm not sure about delusions. Sometimes i feel like people are purposely trying to mess with me online and thus the roller coaster of emotions come into play, later after a while it subsides and i wonder if i was right in my thinking or not. Was i delusional? I don't know.
I know im right at least part of the time but not sure about all of the time. I seem to get banned from online forums all the time. The last Christian forum i was banned from i wasn't given a reason, they just banned me. A secular site i was moderated for posting a scripture in the off topic thread. The owner of the site is Christian but wont talk to me about it. I dont understand why. It was just scripture. They could of just asked me not to post scripture instead of moderating me posts and refusing to talk to me about it.
These things causes me so much pain. Is that normal? What if i don't have delusions but just great emotional distress? Can i still have psychoses? Sometimes think i hear God but i don't think its really him, i think its just what i want to hear. Sometimes i hear him say he loves me, but i know its not really him. Is this normal or is it voices in my hear? Is that psychoses? Please dont tell me its God because i know its not him. The same voice says other things too and i know its not correct. Dont ask me what other things because i cant remember, i just remember a voice in my head saying things i know to be false. Is my mind just overactive? I think i have PTSD. Is psychoses related to that? Ive been traumatized by people who have laughed at me and said bad things about me, and other things i wont mention. My mind is such a mess.
I know im right at least part of the time but not sure about all of the time. I seem to get banned from online forums all the time. The last Christian forum i was banned from i wasn't given a reason, they just banned me. A secular site i was moderated for posting a scripture in the off topic thread. The owner of the site is Christian but wont talk to me about it. I dont understand why. It was just scripture. They could of just asked me not to post scripture instead of moderating me posts and refusing to talk to me about it.
These things causes me so much pain. Is that normal? What if i don't have delusions but just great emotional distress? Can i still have psychoses? Sometimes think i hear God but i don't think its really him, i think its just what i want to hear. Sometimes i hear him say he loves me, but i know its not really him. Is this normal or is it voices in my hear? Is that psychoses? Please dont tell me its God because i know its not him. The same voice says other things too and i know its not correct. Dont ask me what other things because i cant remember, i just remember a voice in my head saying things i know to be false. Is my mind just overactive? I think i have PTSD. Is psychoses related to that? Ive been traumatized by people who have laughed at me and said bad things about me, and other things i wont mention. My mind is such a mess.