What is psychoses?

[IWalkAlone]

My doctor asked me if i had any psychoses lately, but i don't really know what it is. I know when im mistreated by people online it triggers something in me, it triggers depression and anxiety and great emotional pain. Is this psychoses? I know psychoses can lead to delusions, i don't hallucinate but I'm not sure about delusions. Sometimes i feel like people are purposely trying to mess with me online and thus the roller coaster of emotions come into play, later after a while it subsides and i wonder if i was right in my thinking or not. Was i delusional? I don't know.

I know im right at least part of the time but not sure about all of the time. I seem to get banned from online forums all the time. The last Christian forum i was banned from i wasn't given a reason, they just banned me. A secular site i was moderated for posting a scripture in the off topic thread. The owner of the site is Christian but wont talk to me about it. I dont understand why. It was just scripture. They could of just asked me not to post scripture instead of moderating me posts and refusing to talk to me about it.

These things causes me so much pain. Is that normal? What if i don't have delusions but just great emotional distress? Can i still have psychoses? Sometimes think i hear God but i don't think its really him, i think its just what i want to hear. Sometimes i hear him say he loves me, but i know its not really him. Is this normal or is it voices in my hear? Is that psychoses? Please dont tell me its God because i know its not him. The same voice says other things too and i know its not correct. Dont ask me what other things because i cant remember, i just remember a voice in my head saying things i know to be false. Is my mind just overactive? I think i have PTSD. Is psychoses related to that? Ive been traumatized by people who have laughed at me and said bad things about me, and other things i wont mention. My mind is such a mess.

 

[IWalkAlone]

114 views and no replies. The internet makes me crazy because of how people treat me on it. It triggers this thing i ask about. But i have social anxiety and the internet is my only means of communication besides a couple neighbors that i talk to. What a vicious circle.

 

[Mark Quayle]

114 views and no replies. The internet makes me crazy because of how people treat me on it. It triggers this thing i ask about. But i have social anxiety and the internet is my only means of communication besides a couple neighbors that i talk to. What a vicious circle.

I don't know how to answer, or I would. I am no expert in the field. I say what I do out of personal experience, and from what I see the Bible as saying.

What you describe to me doesn't sound like psychosis, as I read the definition online, but rather like a simple lack of self-control turned into a habit, but you may not be happy to hear that. But like I said, I am familiar with that aspect to it, at least. There is a lot more I could say, but I will refrain for now.

 

[IWalkAlone]

I don't know how to answer, or I would. I am no expert in the field. I say what I do out of personal experience, and from what I see the Bible as saying.

What you describe to me doesn't sound like psychosis, as I read the definition online, but rather like a simple lack of self-control turned into a habit, but you may not be happy to hear that. But like I said, I am familiar with that aspect to it, at least. There is a lot more I could say, but I will refrain for now.

If its a lack of self control its one i cant control. I've tried. I have self control in other areas so why not this? I have PTSD, maybe its a symptom of that. From what Ive read PTSD and psychosis can go hand in hand. All i know is I'm convinced people are trying to hurt me. Maybe its not a delusion but is real. Its the feeling of deep pain that causes me to lose control. I end up saying things i normally would keep to myself. Things that just cause contention or offends someone. Its severe anxiety and depression followed by this lack of control i mentioned. Stress overload is a symptom of psychosis and thats how i would describe how i feel during these moments of distress.

Here is a copy paste i found-

Trauma in any form can lead to post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) or other mental health conditions. PTSD may include psychotic symptoms like hallucinations and delusions.

Psychosis can also be triggered by traumatic experiences, stress, or physical conditions,

during an episode of psychosis, the brain is basically in a state of stress overload. Stress can be caused by anything, including poor physical health, loss, trauma or other major life changes. When stress becomes frequent, it can affect your body, both physically and mentally.

 

[IWalkAlone]

It says delusions may be a symptom of psychosis. That sound like delusions are not always a symptom. But that stress overload thing sure sounds like what i experience.

 

[Mark Quayle]

It says delusions may be a symptom of psychosis. That sound like delusions are not always a symptom. But that stress overload thing sure sounds like what i experience.

I hear ya, man. I just don't know what to say about it.

But I do know that it remains incumbent upon you to pursue and obey Christ. I also know (from personal experience) that what God takes a person through (including even their own sin) is according to his purposes concerning that person. There is much to be gained by putting your trust in him to complete what he has begun in you.

God be with you man, and I will pray for you.

 

[IWalkAlone]

I hear ya, man. I just don't know what to say about it.

But I do know that it remains incumbent upon you to pursue and obey Christ. I also know (from personal experience) that what God takes a person through (including even their own sin) is according to his purposes concerning that person. There is much to be gained by putting your trust in him to complete what he has begun in you.

God be with you man, and I will pray for you.

Thank you. It is up to me but we are suppose to be the Lords body, each part helping the other. The Lord does His work in us that way too.

 

[IWalkAlone]

I hear ya, man. I just don't know what to say about it.

But I do know that it remains incumbent upon you to pursue and obey Christ. I also know (from personal experience) that what God takes a person through (including even their own sin) is according to his purposes concerning that person. There is much to be gained by putting your trust in him to complete what he has begun in you.

God be with you man, and I will pray for you.

I edited my last post, sorry i should have just posted another. Please read it again if you will, thank you.

 

[Mark Quayle]

I edited my last post, sorry i should have just posted another. Please read it again if you will, thank you.

I would suggest beginning another thread to get some views of others, maybe referencing this thread with a link. If that 114 that viewed it didn't click on Watch Thread, like I did, they won't even know there is an ongoing conversation.

Also, I suggest giving others a break. I don't know their reasons not to answer, but I bet many had my reason —just not knowing what to say. Others are simply afraid of antagonism, and want no part of it, and you sound in your OP like you might do so on them. Others have tried to become involved in helping someone who turned on them, or who revert to their habits regardless of advice and prayers, and so avoid being involved with it happening again. Others might be afraid of being instrumental in causing you another episode.

Kind of reminds me of a couple I know, who, mostly out of pity, I think, for several months were the only ones who would invite a member of their church over to their house, who had MS or some other cause for lack of ability to move and speak normally. They eventually quit asking him over. They no doubt felt terrible doing so, but didn't know what else to do. He was worse than inconvenient. He wasn't enjoyable company, he took a toll on their strength and peace. And he didn't really seem to enjoy their companionship, either.

 

[IWalkAlone]

I would suggest beginning another thread to get some views of others, maybe referencing this thread with a link. If that 114 that viewed it didn't click on Watch Thread, like I did, they won't even know there is an ongoing conversation.

Also, I suggest giving others a break. I don't know their reasons not to answer, but I bet many had my reason —just not knowing what to say. Others are simply afraid of antagonism, and want no part of it, and you sound in your OP like you might do so on them. Others have tried to become involved in helping someone who turned on them, or who revert to their habits regardless of advice and prayers, and so avoid being involved with it happening again. Others might be afraid of being instrumental in causing you another episode.

Kind of reminds me of a couple I know, who, mostly out of pity, I think, for several months were the only ones who would invite a member of their church over to their house, who had MS or some other cause for lack of ability to move and speak normally. They eventually quit asking him over. They no doubt felt terrible doing so, but didn't know what else to do. He was worse than inconvenient. He wasn't enjoyable company, he took a toll on their strength and peace. And he didn't really seem to enjoy their companionship, either.

I was hoping for a doctor or others who have psychosis to ring in. They would be understanding and be use to that. They would have empathy as well knowing they suffer the same things. I've shown self control in this thread although you might not see it. Its not pleasant when people who have no idea what its like to say you lack self control or are bad company. Thanks for your time, i do appreciate the reply, it was helpful having at least someone say something. And you are right, maybe they just didnt know what to say.

 

[IWalkAlone]

Sorry for saying that but i was feeling like a doormat. Having self control doesn't necessarily mean being a doormat. I'm sorry if i took you wrong.

 

[Mark Quayle]

Sorry for saying that but i was feeling like a doormat. Having self control doesn't necessarily mean being a doormat. I'm sorry if i took you wrong.

No offense taken, and none meant. I was speaking from my own personal experience. I don't know you, nor your situation, which is why I wasn't in a hurry to speak.

 

[Mark Quayle]

I've shown self control in this thread although you might not see it. Its not pleasant when people who have no idea what its like to say you lack self control or are bad company.

That, I can believe. And I meant you no insult. God is the one to judge anyway, and he doesn't do so by the mere behavior, but looks on the heart to judge the deeds. I am not my own judge, nor you yours, in the end. But we certainly are not each other's judge.

 

[IWalkAlone]

No offense taken, and none meant. I was speaking from my own personal experience. I don't know you, nor your situation, which is why I wasn't in a hurry to speak.

That, I can believe. And I meant you no insult. God is the one to judge anyway, and he doesn't do so by the mere behavior, but looks on the heart to judge the deeds. I am not my own judge, nor you yours, in the end. But we certainly are not each other's judge.

Thank you for saying so. Its very helpful.

 

[Unqualified]

You should talk to your doctor about it.
Some of your post sounds like reality- the way people have treated you in the past. Your reaction and hurt feelings and recovery sound real and not like psychosis. Your doctor was just checking since you have ptsd.

you are learning about the world and how harsh it can be. One or two have treated you well on here. I find myself to be so suggestible that even the mere suggestion of something can make me feel it or be depressed sometimes. I think you are not sure and looking for solid ground about some things, like all of us.
So in time God will give you an answer. But for the immediate stuff talk to your doctor.

 

[IWalkAlone]

You should talk to your doctor about it.
Some of your post sounds like reality- the way people have treated you in the past. Your reaction and hurt feelings and recovery sound real and not like psychosis. Your doctor was just checking since you have ptsd.

you are learning about the world and how harsh it can be. One or two have treated you well on here. I find myself to be so suggestible that even the mere suggestion of something can make me feel it or be depressed sometimes. I think you are not sure and looking for solid ground about some things, like all of us.
So in time God will give you an answer. But for the immediate stuff talk to your doctor.

I plan on it, thank you.

 

[Jaxxi]

My doctor asked me if i had any psychoses lately, but i don't really know what it is. I know when im mistreated by people online it triggers something in me, it triggers depression and anxiety and great emotional pain. Is this psychoses? I know psychoses can lead to delusions, i don't hallucinate but I'm not sure about delusions. Sometimes i feel like people are purposely trying to mess with me online and thus the roller coaster of emotions come into play, later after a while it subsides and i wonder if i was right in my thinking or not. Was i delusional? I don't know.

I know im right at least part of the time but not sure about all of the time. I seem to get banned from online forums all the time. The last Christian forum i was banned from i wasn't given a reason, they just banned me. A secular site i was moderated for posting a scripture in the off topic thread. The owner of the site is Christian but wont talk to me about it. I dont understand why. It was just scripture. They could of just asked me not to post scripture instead of moderating me posts and refusing to talk to me about it.

These things causes me so much pain. Is that normal? What if i don't have delusions but just great emotional distress? Can i still have psychoses? Sometimes think i hear God but i don't think its really him, i think its just what i want to hear. Sometimes i hear him say he loves me, but i know its not really him. Is this normal or is it voices in my hear? Is that psychoses? Please dont tell me its God because i know its not him. The same voice says other things too and i know its not correct. Dont ask me what other things because i cant remember, i just remember a voice in my head saying things i know to be false. Is my mind just overactive? I think i have PTSD. Is psychoses related to that? Ive been traumatized by people who have laughed at me and said bad things about me, and other things i wont mention. My mind is such a mess.

I would definitely seek professional counseling about that as I personally have never ever heard voices and no it is not God. God speaks to our soul in a different way. It is not through an audible voice. Is the voice like yours? Try not to let people online get under your skin. People hide behind the screen and feel empowered to say things online that they wouldnt dare say to your face. They take their daily struggles and frustrations out on innocent people online to try to make themselves feel better not knowing or caring that you have feelings that are sensitive to their cruelty.

 

[IWalkAlone]

I would definitely seek professional counseling about that as I personally have never ever heard voices and no it is not God. God speaks to our soul in a different way. It is not through an audible voice. Is the voice like yours? Try not to let people online get under your skin. People hide behind the screen and feel empowered to say things online that they wouldn't dare say to your face. They take their daily struggles and frustrations out on innocent people online to try to make themselves feel better not knowing or caring that you have feelings that are sensitive to their cruelty.

The voice is in my mind not my ear. Sometimes the voice says, "you are my son." Sometimes the voice says things that don't make sense or are wrong and i know the voice is just me. Its my mind thinking.

Its not something i hear all the time, just once in a while.

 

[The Walker]

IWalkAlone,

Speak to your doctor and tell him everything....and I mean everything. Even if it is embarrassing...tell him. That's the only way he can help you. It is not God or a demon. I'm schizoaffective and I know how convincing they can sound. Please talk to your doctor about all this. Good luck.

 

[Jaxxi]

The voice is in my mind not my ear. Sometimes the voice says, "you are my son." Sometimes the voice says things that don't make sense or are wrong and i know the voice is just me. Its my mind thinking.

Its not something i hear all the time, just once in a while.

Oh I see. So you have like a thought override? I do not believe that our minds are completely responsible for everything we deal with mentally as outside " influences" are mentioned in the Bible and I think they whisper things into our minds to make us think they are our own thoughts and act on them. This has been the case for many Atheists who could not recognize what they were and now sit in jail cells for having committed crimes that they honestly do not remember committing.