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I wrote this in prayer section but I am writing it here for advice
Please Read Until the End Because My Question Is at the End
My mom died around 5:30 pm. I am so devastated. My mom was my best friend. She did not always agree with my choices, but there was still love there. I will admit, there were only two people that I loved, my mom and my twin brother, David. But my love for my twin brother dwindled when he started treating mom like dirt. My mom was far from perfect, but she loved us all.
My mom had children that did not like her because she would point out wrongdoing. My mom would do that to me as well. I did not always like it, but I still loved her.
I don't know how to live without her. Don't take this the wrong way. I am not an adult who is living in my parent's basement. I took care of myself. But I called my mother every time I needed comfort. I am so heartbroken right now.
My sister is asking me to not shut her out. I have a tendency to do that when I am sad. I don't want to go to her funeral. All her kids, even the ones that treated her poorly, would be there. I want to tell them how I feel the way they treated her; and it would not be nice.
My mom loved the Lord. She has an amazing testimony on how she got saved. She was saved in 1969 during the Jesus movement, and she never wavered in her faith. She spoke in tongues the moment she got saved, and she didn't even know what tongues were. Nobody coached her or tried to get her to speak in tongues, she just did it. She also believed in the Torah. She believed in observing the sabbath. She also believed in observing the Jewish holidays. She also believed in the diets that written in the old testament. She knew that Christ was her salvation, and not in observing those things. But she wanted to honor God in observing the Torah.
Even though she was treated like dirt by some people, she was loved by her other kids and friends. People constantly told her that she was deceived. But she continue to live by her convictions. My mom had an anger issue, and sometimes swore, but she was praying and asking God's forgiveness for her anger issues. Thank God that he is merciful.
I do not want to attend the funeral. Her kids will be there, and I want to yell at them and tell them how angry I am for the way they treated her. I am so emotional that if I saw them, I would have lost control of what comes out of my mouth.
How do I approach my brothers and sisters who treated my mom like dirt? I feel nothing but hatred towards them.
Please Read Until the End Because My Question Is at the End
My mom died around 5:30 pm. I am so devastated. My mom was my best friend. She did not always agree with my choices, but there was still love there. I will admit, there were only two people that I loved, my mom and my twin brother, David. But my love for my twin brother dwindled when he started treating mom like dirt. My mom was far from perfect, but she loved us all.
My mom had children that did not like her because she would point out wrongdoing. My mom would do that to me as well. I did not always like it, but I still loved her.
I don't know how to live without her. Don't take this the wrong way. I am not an adult who is living in my parent's basement. I took care of myself. But I called my mother every time I needed comfort. I am so heartbroken right now.
My sister is asking me to not shut her out. I have a tendency to do that when I am sad. I don't want to go to her funeral. All her kids, even the ones that treated her poorly, would be there. I want to tell them how I feel the way they treated her; and it would not be nice.
My mom loved the Lord. She has an amazing testimony on how she got saved. She was saved in 1969 during the Jesus movement, and she never wavered in her faith. She spoke in tongues the moment she got saved, and she didn't even know what tongues were. Nobody coached her or tried to get her to speak in tongues, she just did it. She also believed in the Torah. She believed in observing the sabbath. She also believed in observing the Jewish holidays. She also believed in the diets that written in the old testament. She knew that Christ was her salvation, and not in observing those things. But she wanted to honor God in observing the Torah.
Even though she was treated like dirt by some people, she was loved by her other kids and friends. People constantly told her that she was deceived. But she continue to live by her convictions. My mom had an anger issue, and sometimes swore, but she was praying and asking God's forgiveness for her anger issues. Thank God that he is merciful.
I do not want to attend the funeral. Her kids will be there, and I want to yell at them and tell them how angry I am for the way they treated her. I am so emotional that if I saw them, I would have lost control of what comes out of my mouth.
How do I approach my brothers and sisters who treated my mom like dirt? I feel nothing but hatred towards them.