I have believed in God ever since I was little. I wasn’t baptized until 2012. (Even though that doesn’t save) but I took my walk with God more serious…
BUT chronic pain and bouts of depression have put my relationship with God on the back burner, unfortunately.
I was reading through Matthew, and came across the parables of the kingdom of heaven. The angels with separate the righteous with the wicked. Now, I am really judging myself. I do not go out and seek to find people in need. I do not visit jails. I do not feed people, other than my family, and when my children struggled after they moved out.
I do give clothes to the veterans, when I
can. I do not work due to my chronic pain, so money is extremely tight.
I really wonder if I am saved. I know works does not save us, but we are have good works and bear fruit. Jesus said, you did not clothe me, you did not feed me etc, so does that mean I am not one of his?
This scares me.
So to me, a Christian life is, dying to myself and not doing what I want to do? I want to take care of my family and my grandkids, I want to paint and do art, etc. I hardly go anywhere because of money/chronic illness. I take care of our home the best I can, and keep my husband fed,and a meal on the table when he gets home from work.
But it seems to me, unless I go out and seek and help others in need then am I not showing fruit or good works?
Because Jesus said even wicked people help their own family.
BUT chronic pain and bouts of depression have put my relationship with God on the back burner, unfortunately.
I was reading through Matthew, and came across the parables of the kingdom of heaven. The angels with separate the righteous with the wicked. Now, I am really judging myself. I do not go out and seek to find people in need. I do not visit jails. I do not feed people, other than my family, and when my children struggled after they moved out.
I do give clothes to the veterans, when I
can. I do not work due to my chronic pain, so money is extremely tight.
I really wonder if I am saved. I know works does not save us, but we are have good works and bear fruit. Jesus said, you did not clothe me, you did not feed me etc, so does that mean I am not one of his?
This scares me.
So to me, a Christian life is, dying to myself and not doing what I want to do? I want to take care of my family and my grandkids, I want to paint and do art, etc. I hardly go anywhere because of money/chronic illness. I take care of our home the best I can, and keep my husband fed,and a meal on the table when he gets home from work.
But it seems to me, unless I go out and seek and help others in need then am I not showing fruit or good works?
Because Jesus said even wicked people help their own family.