Hi all, I would like to have advise and prayer about my marriage. And thank you for reading this. I have been married for 7 years now and my husband is 12 years older than me. And the age gap thing is the thing I need prayer for. I constantly feel down about the age difference. At first when I got married and even before that I didn't think the age difference would matter so much. Even I asked my mom's opinion and she was totally for it as long as he is a christian. So yea he and I are both christians. Would say he is way more mature than I am. And he does extremely his best for our marriage. After maybe 5 or 6 years into marriage I struggled more with the age difference.
I just feel not comfortable with it. Because I don't really felt respected as his equal and he has a lot more experience in life than I do. So I feel more like a kid around him than his equal partner. And now I struggle with this reality. I know that actually it's my own fault. I went with my heart and chose to marry him. And there is like no way out... because God hates divorce and we have no ground to get divorced. And no matter how hard I try to get my mind off this issue, I keep coming back to this issue. I worry that we will never have children, because I have pcos. And even if we would I worry he might feel more tired. And me too since I already feel fatigue with hormone issues. Im 34 and he is 46. He is sweet and he does a lot for me, so I constantly wonder why then I can't accept our age difference. I feel like I miss out on life and other couples within their own age seem so happy. It constantly gets to me and I feel like I have to live miserably the rest of my life. Sometimes I feel cursed by God...
And yet it's my own fault, because I made that choice. But I don't want to constantly feel miserable, trying to obey God. Maybe I will never have children, because we don't actively pursue it and he is more like trust God's timing. Should I accept this and live miserable? Sigh...
Please pray for me. Thank you in advance.
I just feel not comfortable with it. Because I don't really felt respected as his equal and he has a lot more experience in life than I do. So I feel more like a kid around him than his equal partner. And now I struggle with this reality. I know that actually it's my own fault. I went with my heart and chose to marry him. And there is like no way out... because God hates divorce and we have no ground to get divorced. And no matter how hard I try to get my mind off this issue, I keep coming back to this issue. I worry that we will never have children, because I have pcos. And even if we would I worry he might feel more tired. And me too since I already feel fatigue with hormone issues. Im 34 and he is 46. He is sweet and he does a lot for me, so I constantly wonder why then I can't accept our age difference. I feel like I miss out on life and other couples within their own age seem so happy. It constantly gets to me and I feel like I have to live miserably the rest of my life. Sometimes I feel cursed by God...
And yet it's my own fault, because I made that choice. But I don't want to constantly feel miserable, trying to obey God. Maybe I will never have children, because we don't actively pursue it and he is more like trust God's timing. Should I accept this and live miserable? Sigh...
Please pray for me. Thank you in advance.