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All, we are blessed to be on this site.

I wish I wouldn’t have to talk about myself because a Christian should focus on helping others. But it is hard to help others if you yourself have issues, right?

The reason i looked up this forum is that I have been struggling a very long time, decades. The more I try to get near God, the worse things usually get for me. i honestly think I need deliverance but my pastor is not willing, and he in fact stopped answering my emails after I asked.

I feel a bit stuck, like God is helping everybody else but me.. I don’t know what demon is on me but clearly I have issues getting my message through. People have prayed and prayed over me in the past, I have stopped drinking, stopped sinning as much as I can manage, tried a lot of things , and reading scriptures daily but somehow I am still struggling
 

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Welcome!

I would encourage you to keep trusting the Lord. Sometimes we don't seem to recognise His blessings but God blesses all. Start counting every small blessing and keep praising God. Ask in faith and present your needs without complaining. And be patient. Soon your blessings will multiply. He also prepares us before He blesses us. Could you expand on what you are struggling with?
 
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Welcome to CF Mark!

Ya know what negative spirits hate? Positive attitudes.

I’ve felt the same as you many times and I’ve found that when life seems to be picking on me then it’s time to praise the Lord that much more. I let His Spirit rise up within me and look to bless others. This method helps all the time.
 
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Hello Mark,
welcome to CF

I hope you'll enjoy your stay here.


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Hey Mark. Welcome to CF. I honestly think you need to get connected here with us and continue fellowship with so many of us that are going through similar issues and situations.
Don’t get discouraged please.
There’s a chatbox available in CF Incase you ever need to chat.
Bless,
L4H
 
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Thanks for your reply. It is true that I am a complainer. But I have been struggling so much with myself since decades that some days it feels impossible to continue. I have anger issues, anxiety disorder which was diagnosed years ago due to childhood trauma and recently I have had a lot of physical symptoms like weak knees, knee pain, joint pains getting worse, shoulder and elbow issues since a year ago, stiffness, numbness. I am close to bankrupt, people tell me I am really good at what I do in my business but somehow the deals don’t close and I am running into debt. So things are not going well at all and that makes me just more depressed that I am failing on all fronts. This financial hardship is also straining my marriage. I have a very strong belief but I just don’t see the results in my own life. I just don’t feel God is much interested in hearing from me. I know I need patience but I have really tried hard for years even decades now. Things have in the past got momentarily better but somehow it never lasts. It really feels like there is a negative spirit on me because i have felt this this negative spirit going into hiding when I have asked people to pray over me. It is like in that instant everything feels ok but then a few hours later again same old pains.
I would like to do more for others, but I feel it is hard to be of service if I’m struggling like this...
 
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Thanks for your reply. It is true that I am a complainer. But I have been struggling so much with myself since decades that some days it feels impossible to continue. I have anger issues, anxiety disorder which was diagnosed years ago due to childhood trauma and recently I have had a lot of physical symptoms like weak knees, knee pain, joint pains getting worse, shoulder and elbow issues since a year ago, stiffness, numbness. I am close to bankrupt, people tell me I am really good at what I do in my business but somehow the deals don’t close and I am running into debt. So things are not going well at all and that makes me just more depressed that I am failing on all fronts. This financial hardship is also straining my marriage. I have a very strong belief but I just don’t see the results in my own life. I just don’t feel God is much interested in hearing from me. I know I need patience but I have really tried hard for years even decades now. Things have in the past got momentarily better but somehow it never lasts. It really feels like there is a negative spirit on me because i have felt this this negative spirit going into hiding when I have asked people to pray over me. It is like in that instant everything feels ok but then a few hours later again same old pains.
I would like to do more for others, but I feel it is hard to be of service if I’m struggling like this...

God is with you and and He will not fail you. Jesus told us that there will be difficulties in this world. Put on the armor of God and fight the good fight of faith. I'm sure you will be blessed. All crucifixion follows with resurrection for those that are in Christ. We are here to encourage you.
 
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All, we are blessed to be on this site.

I wish I wouldn’t have to talk about myself because a Christian should focus on helping others. But it is hard to help others if you yourself have issues, right?

The reason i looked up this forum is that I have been struggling a very long time, decades. The more I try to get near God, the worse things usually get for me. i honestly think I need deliverance but my pastor is not willing, and he in fact stopped answering my emails after I asked.

I feel a bit stuck, like God is helping everybody else but me.. I don’t know what demon is on me but clearly I have issues getting my message through. People have prayed and prayed over me in the past, I have stopped drinking, stopped sinning as much as I can manage, tried a lot of things , and reading scriptures daily but somehow I am still struggling
Hello Mark - it is good to have you join us.
Wherever you are on your journey of faith, and whatever struggle you are going through at this time, allow yourself to be embraced by God, His love, tenderness and mercy. Cast all your burdens on Him because He cares for you.
 
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