Hi friends,
Please read what you see here below meticulously, because it does happen I get answers that are tangents and not what I was seeking for!
It all began just over a year ago with a search for an answer from God. I wanted to know if it was His will or not for me to walk a certain path in life. Important to note here is that only by divine intervention would this "certain" path be feasible, hence my search for His will. I would not be able to drop my initial plans in life until God made it clear to me that this alternative pathway would work.
It didn't take that long for me to receive a very clear answer from Him that it actually was His will. He subsequently some time later confirmed the authenticity of the answer that was presented in various ways, so at this point I am very convinced that what I'm doing in life is God's will for me. Some of the answers He has given me were presented in such a way I can't deny their origin from God. So the possibility of it all being a big misunderstanding is out of the question at this point.
The clear answer I wrote about above was presented in a dream. I was in a big open field and it was dusk. I remember at one point in this dream, God had me look up towards the sky which was laden with stars! But then, for some reason I didn't understand for a long time until a few months ago, God had me look down on the ground. He then made me look up towards the sky again, and this time the stars were all gone! The sky was clear, and it was at this time I was able to see God Himself appear in a way I don't want to describe right now (I want to save all my revelations for my testimony here, once God does what He has promised me to do) and give me what I was asking Him for.
Lately, my circumstances have been getting progressively worse, and it is getting worse day by day. Life is really a big struggle for me right now because I'm basically stuck in life until God does His part in the plan He promised would work. What I'm going through right now is arguably the worst period in my life - the long periods of not hearing anything further from God, the circumstances getting worse, the time running away without me being able to advance in life etc. Thoughts like: "Did God fool me? Have I been tricked by God? Has God forgotten me? Has God abandoned me? Is the enemy right and I - trusting in God - wrong?" fill my head, but I am able to by God's grace to keep on carrying my cross instead of giving up. It's really difficult when your feelings and circumstances are not congruent with what God has promised you.
For a while I asked God what the purpose of this was. "Why is everything getting worse? Why haven't you done your part in our plan yet?" I got an answer not that long ago, and I believe it was a vision God gave me. I basically saw a text in front of me. It read: "One sinks to the bottom first before exaltation and understanding". This explained to me why I had to look down in the dream He gave me, before I was able to look up again and see God show up. This was about 2 months ago, and God has been silent ever since.
I have no reason to doubt that it was God who gave me that answer. It seems like God will let me know why I've had to go through this very toilsome period after the fact, but it would be interesting to hear from you guys over here what those reasons possibly could be. It's really hard for me to find any reason to why God still hasn't done His part yet. Maybe God wants certain events to take place first. Maybe there's still something in me He wants to cleanse. I've been waiting for about 16 months by now in total!
I'm just afraid that the temptations - which have been getting extremely difficult to handle at this point - ultimately will cause me to fall and sin. Alternatively, I may develop something nasty such as bitterness and I don't want that to happen either. It's really, really tough for me guys. I've never felt this low in life before.
Please read what you see here below meticulously, because it does happen I get answers that are tangents and not what I was seeking for!
It all began just over a year ago with a search for an answer from God. I wanted to know if it was His will or not for me to walk a certain path in life. Important to note here is that only by divine intervention would this "certain" path be feasible, hence my search for His will. I would not be able to drop my initial plans in life until God made it clear to me that this alternative pathway would work.
It didn't take that long for me to receive a very clear answer from Him that it actually was His will. He subsequently some time later confirmed the authenticity of the answer that was presented in various ways, so at this point I am very convinced that what I'm doing in life is God's will for me. Some of the answers He has given me were presented in such a way I can't deny their origin from God. So the possibility of it all being a big misunderstanding is out of the question at this point.
The clear answer I wrote about above was presented in a dream. I was in a big open field and it was dusk. I remember at one point in this dream, God had me look up towards the sky which was laden with stars! But then, for some reason I didn't understand for a long time until a few months ago, God had me look down on the ground. He then made me look up towards the sky again, and this time the stars were all gone! The sky was clear, and it was at this time I was able to see God Himself appear in a way I don't want to describe right now (I want to save all my revelations for my testimony here, once God does what He has promised me to do) and give me what I was asking Him for.
Lately, my circumstances have been getting progressively worse, and it is getting worse day by day. Life is really a big struggle for me right now because I'm basically stuck in life until God does His part in the plan He promised would work. What I'm going through right now is arguably the worst period in my life - the long periods of not hearing anything further from God, the circumstances getting worse, the time running away without me being able to advance in life etc. Thoughts like: "Did God fool me? Have I been tricked by God? Has God forgotten me? Has God abandoned me? Is the enemy right and I - trusting in God - wrong?" fill my head, but I am able to by God's grace to keep on carrying my cross instead of giving up. It's really difficult when your feelings and circumstances are not congruent with what God has promised you.
For a while I asked God what the purpose of this was. "Why is everything getting worse? Why haven't you done your part in our plan yet?" I got an answer not that long ago, and I believe it was a vision God gave me. I basically saw a text in front of me. It read: "One sinks to the bottom first before exaltation and understanding". This explained to me why I had to look down in the dream He gave me, before I was able to look up again and see God show up. This was about 2 months ago, and God has been silent ever since.
I have no reason to doubt that it was God who gave me that answer. It seems like God will let me know why I've had to go through this very toilsome period after the fact, but it would be interesting to hear from you guys over here what those reasons possibly could be. It's really hard for me to find any reason to why God still hasn't done His part yet. Maybe God wants certain events to take place first. Maybe there's still something in me He wants to cleanse. I've been waiting for about 16 months by now in total!
I'm just afraid that the temptations - which have been getting extremely difficult to handle at this point - ultimately will cause me to fall and sin. Alternatively, I may develop something nasty such as bitterness and I don't want that to happen either. It's really, really tough for me guys. I've never felt this low in life before.