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I used to give her a hug all the time before the pandemic started. Cases are increasing here in my town. She came up to me and just gave me a hug. I am freaking out and feel like I need to get tested.
I usually don't care if people don't want to take this serious. Well, not always true. I wish everyone would wear a mask, but they don't. I will recognize that we don't have the right to tell people to wear a mask, even though I wish they would. So, I just leave it alone. But I am scared. Therefore I usually wear protection. I wear two air filter masks. I wear a face shield and eye protection mask. I tuck my face shield into my hoodie, which makes me look like an astronaut. I would take it off when I leave my apartment and just stay from my neighbors. I also take it off when I get off the bus. But one of my neighbors just came up to me and gave me a hug when I had my protective gear off. She came up to me out of nowhere.
I get it. Some people don't believe in it or they don't think it's not that serious. But some of these people are affecting my life. And this is making me mad. My mom doesn't wear masks, and she keeps wanting me to come over, which I did for Thanksgiving. She had guests over. She talked me into coming over. In fact, she begged me.
I am doing everything I can to keep myself safe. But there were times when people are not respecting me. If they don't want to take it serious, I respect their right, even though I wish they would. My mom would not let me wear a mask. I chose to come there to make her happy. So, if I get the virus, I guess you can say that it would be my fault. I could have also resisted my neighbor, but I did not want her offended. But I am still angry at them for not respecting me, and the fact that I am trying to take this serious.
I am isolating myself for 14 days making sure that I am okay. If I get sick, I am not going to the hospital. I will just suffocate at home.
My anger is starting to get more intense. I am starting to feel hatred towards people. I used to hug people all the time, and yes, they loved it when I did. They would get offended if I walked pass them and not hug them. But now, I can't hug them. I am actually okay with not hugging them because my love for people is getting thin. I am starting to feel hatred.
Please pray for me.
Update: I know that hatred is wrong. Please pray for God to increase my love for other people.
I usually don't care if people don't want to take this serious. Well, not always true. I wish everyone would wear a mask, but they don't. I will recognize that we don't have the right to tell people to wear a mask, even though I wish they would. So, I just leave it alone. But I am scared. Therefore I usually wear protection. I wear two air filter masks. I wear a face shield and eye protection mask. I tuck my face shield into my hoodie, which makes me look like an astronaut. I would take it off when I leave my apartment and just stay from my neighbors. I also take it off when I get off the bus. But one of my neighbors just came up to me and gave me a hug when I had my protective gear off. She came up to me out of nowhere.
I get it. Some people don't believe in it or they don't think it's not that serious. But some of these people are affecting my life. And this is making me mad. My mom doesn't wear masks, and she keeps wanting me to come over, which I did for Thanksgiving. She had guests over. She talked me into coming over. In fact, she begged me.
I am doing everything I can to keep myself safe. But there were times when people are not respecting me. If they don't want to take it serious, I respect their right, even though I wish they would. My mom would not let me wear a mask. I chose to come there to make her happy. So, if I get the virus, I guess you can say that it would be my fault. I could have also resisted my neighbor, but I did not want her offended. But I am still angry at them for not respecting me, and the fact that I am trying to take this serious.
I am isolating myself for 14 days making sure that I am okay. If I get sick, I am not going to the hospital. I will just suffocate at home.
My anger is starting to get more intense. I am starting to feel hatred towards people. I used to hug people all the time, and yes, they loved it when I did. They would get offended if I walked pass them and not hug them. But now, I can't hug them. I am actually okay with not hugging them because my love for people is getting thin. I am starting to feel hatred.
Please pray for me.
Update: I know that hatred is wrong. Please pray for God to increase my love for other people.
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