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A user here wrote about her way to become orthodox, especially church history, the arguments, the prayers of orthodox church amon other arguments. Then I dicided to join to tell my story. But then I remembered that I also would like to know more orthodox people or priests even who can help me to lead me and accept me as I am 
. So here is my story. If you still want to do with me please write me. I am 37 years old. Same age or older would be nice
So here is my story.
I have an maybe very usual but maybe unusual way to join the orthodox church. The whole thing of my life happened as I was an adult. I was bapticized orthodox as a child but there was absolutely no education towards church. As a child I found it fascinating like the people join together, spend their precious time to pray together in the church, honoring the perfect HUMAN being Jesus.....
When I grew up I still believed in God but all my contacts told me God does not exist. Once I was not really convinced but was told to say God does not exist. I did. Since then problems occured. I felt like dying, although my faith was not strong and whole of my soul was functioning like the soul of an atheist. I was studying philosophy with the jesuits university, where freemasons told me they will kill me and attacked me in the subway. It was God's grace that a "small" wonder happened and God protected me. But since then years passed they still search conctact with me and attack me with black magic. Nobody would ever believe what I could tell.
I started during my university trip studying scripture but also Quran. My father told me to compare islam, buddhism and christianity what it makes with the soul just for learning writing philosophically. I found out that it seemed that Islam is more peaceful for the soul than christianity. I forgot how I found it out. But I started to pray 5 Times a day to test if God exists. Like the muslims do. I also promised to God the muslim promise "baptization" from muslims but in my own way! I just promised to God I will live as if He would exist. During this prayers soon a vision of Jesus appeared to me. Jesus was calling me. When the freemasons attacked me I ran to confession to our monk in our monastery because I thought I will dy soon!!! Not that I was really believing. A source of light came through my body during confession and God protected my PHYSICALLY from the attack in the subway next day, from a man that was tall and fat and extremely more big than me. He ran into my legs with his legs, my legs standing there freely, not concentrated, but the thing happened, my legs were not moving one milimeter!!! HE FELL TO EARTH and was afraid to attack me again. I felt like a metallic rock, protected and standing there!!!
Than still I was not christian enough. I knew now God exists but then something strange happened. God started sending me rememberings of my past lifes, especially my sins from past lifes! And the rememberings also concerned Jesus, GOD Jesus, how I met him in earlier lifes! God personally told me that He is God, not a human being. With an alternate explanation, that will maybe be considered heretic I started to understand Jesus is God. Still I could not get rid of my sins and did not listen to the church! From this point in my life now(!) I know I should better be guided by the orthodox church. Everytime I did not listen I had to regret this. So I really still do not know nothing about this holy spirit thing that really lives in the orthodox church. I am attached to it and God leads me there again and again. I fell into depression because of my sins and I thought I will never receive communion. But from time to time God allows me this and then I am so happy.
God saved me also from suicide when I wanted to jump from 15th floor several times. He started talking to me and revealed me a present he gave me already several times, it is a wonderful thing but it has teachings in it about reincarnation(not the main message) and so the church would judge me maybe not to believe this. I still sometimes confess my sins from former lifes in the confession and my confession priest knows about the present. I wrote everything down in plain text. I have now 2 priests and one bishop who accept my believes in reincarnation. In the middle of the orthodox church I found my home. And yes the above arguments about the orthodox church I already knew since ever. But really people the Holy Spirit is present there that even esoteric people like me are attached to the church. Try it out yourself.
) If somebdy wants to read the revelation God told me to stop me from suicide or a priest you can write me personally. I am about to write a fantasy book about it. But I think I will tell it only people who are already really grounded in strong faith in Jesus being God and so on, so that nobody will be led away from the chruch by reading my revealing!
. So here is my story. If you still want to do with me please write me. I am 37 years old. Same age or older would be nice So here is my story.
I have an maybe very usual but maybe unusual way to join the orthodox church. The whole thing of my life happened as I was an adult. I was bapticized orthodox as a child but there was absolutely no education towards church. As a child I found it fascinating like the people join together, spend their precious time to pray together in the church, honoring the perfect HUMAN being Jesus.....
When I grew up I still believed in God but all my contacts told me God does not exist. Once I was not really convinced but was told to say God does not exist. I did. Since then problems occured. I felt like dying, although my faith was not strong and whole of my soul was functioning like the soul of an atheist. I was studying philosophy with the jesuits university, where freemasons told me they will kill me and attacked me in the subway. It was God's grace that a "small" wonder happened and God protected me. But since then years passed they still search conctact with me and attack me with black magic. Nobody would ever believe what I could tell.
I started during my university trip studying scripture but also Quran. My father told me to compare islam, buddhism and christianity what it makes with the soul just for learning writing philosophically. I found out that it seemed that Islam is more peaceful for the soul than christianity. I forgot how I found it out. But I started to pray 5 Times a day to test if God exists. Like the muslims do. I also promised to God the muslim promise "baptization" from muslims but in my own way! I just promised to God I will live as if He would exist. During this prayers soon a vision of Jesus appeared to me. Jesus was calling me. When the freemasons attacked me I ran to confession to our monk in our monastery because I thought I will dy soon!!! Not that I was really believing. A source of light came through my body during confession and God protected my PHYSICALLY from the attack in the subway next day, from a man that was tall and fat and extremely more big than me. He ran into my legs with his legs, my legs standing there freely, not concentrated, but the thing happened, my legs were not moving one milimeter!!! HE FELL TO EARTH and was afraid to attack me again. I felt like a metallic rock, protected and standing there!!!
Than still I was not christian enough. I knew now God exists but then something strange happened. God started sending me rememberings of my past lifes, especially my sins from past lifes! And the rememberings also concerned Jesus, GOD Jesus, how I met him in earlier lifes! God personally told me that He is God, not a human being. With an alternate explanation, that will maybe be considered heretic I started to understand Jesus is God. Still I could not get rid of my sins and did not listen to the church! From this point in my life now(!) I know I should better be guided by the orthodox church. Everytime I did not listen I had to regret this. So I really still do not know nothing about this holy spirit thing that really lives in the orthodox church. I am attached to it and God leads me there again and again. I fell into depression because of my sins and I thought I will never receive communion. But from time to time God allows me this and then I am so happy.
God saved me also from suicide when I wanted to jump from 15th floor several times. He started talking to me and revealed me a present he gave me already several times, it is a wonderful thing but it has teachings in it about reincarnation(not the main message) and so the church would judge me maybe not to believe this. I still sometimes confess my sins from former lifes in the confession and my confession priest knows about the present. I wrote everything down in plain text. I have now 2 priests and one bishop who accept my believes in reincarnation. In the middle of the orthodox church I found my home. And yes the above arguments about the orthodox church I already knew since ever. But really people the Holy Spirit is present there that even esoteric people like me are attached to the church. Try it out yourself.
) If somebdy wants to read the revelation God told me to stop me from suicide or a priest you can write me personally. I am about to write a fantasy book about it. But I think I will tell it only people who are already really grounded in strong faith in Jesus being God and so on, so that nobody will be led away from the chruch by reading my revealing!
