- Oct 13, 2020
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- Lutheran
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- Married
Hello all. I have been walking with the Lord for about four years now, however this last year of my life has been full of unemployment, a failing marriage, spiritual deception, disappointments and shortcomings, and a lack of fruitbearing all of which have fervently been a part of my prayer life yet have gone unanswered. I’ve begun to see the injustice in the world and the evil we live in and have begun to ask “where is God in all of this”, “how can God be just and allow this”? I delighted in Gods salvation long ago but now I feel like God has fled the scene and is absent in my life and in the world. I find myself, mainly because my unanswered prayers, drifting away from God and being pulled by the power of the Prince of the Air. I know who I am compared to God and have no right to ask the sovereign God of the universe why He has not answered my prayer because I am not God, He is, but at the same time, I pray for righteous things and God has not granted me that which is righteous. I find myself becoming angry and bitter towards God and my joy and love for Him has begun to fade quickly over the last few months. I feel my heart becoming hardened and turning away from Him (which I realize is horrible considering the will of God is just in itself regardless of my desire and perception of justice) . However, I think of Hebrews 6 where the author says (paraphrased) how can we who have once tasted such an amazing salvation turn away from it? This one thought in my soul is what gives me hope that God has not entirely given me up to a debased mind. What are some Biblical strategies to combat and fight this hardening of the heart? I know that John Piper and a few of the reformers believed that God can harden then soften the heart of the believer even after being saved but I wish to return to the glory and majesty of God and to worship and magnify His name even when I have nothing like Job. What is your advice?