I suffer from OCD which is really hard especially if it involves my spirituality I believe in Jesus and I believe in him. But my environment I live in has changed and the changes I’ve seen made me uncomfortable. Ever since the George Floyd death and the BLM and the upcoming elections I’ve seen a surge in racism and violence I never seen before. The worse thing is that politically people used the Bible to justify racism and I had the misfortune of reading some ugly Theology that I can’t be saved because I have no soul because I’m non-Caucasian. as a Christian I refuse to believe it because it’s against my beliefs and the beliefs of my friends and family who are all multicultural but deep down in my mind it makes me doubt and I wonder if it’s true. have I been condemned since birth because of my non-Caucasian heritage?
I do my best not to be racist I go to church read my Bible, pray to God and I’m blessed to live in a community who loves one another regardless of race color.
I try reading the Bible verses over and over even the ones falsely interpreted to debunk this racist belief hoping and praying that God’s salvation and definition of people of Israel extends not by race but at least to anyone Who Choose to follow the name of Jesus Christ. I don’t know if it’s actually my mental state about the direction America is going lately or the Pandemic or it’s just my mind that is affecting the way I see God all I know is I can’t trust always my mind and I can only hope and pray that God is good to all who believe in him including me.
PLEASE READ WITH ALL YOUR HEART WHEN YOU HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO REFLECT
Hello, i will advice you to hear the sermons of Leonard Ravenhill on "repentance", "the bride prepared" and other sermons. We can have the "wish" and "will" to stop sinning but unless we make a conscious and firm decision to die to our sins in the death of Jesus Christ and live in His resurrection power (that is, believing that He did not only die but resurrected) we might end up living our lives with an unaccomplished "will" to "stop sinning". For this we need to
1. Acknowledge that there are sins in our lives.
2. Know (list) them and decide what we want to do about them.
3. Do we really want to get rid of these?
This is the point where we realise if we are "willing whatever cost it makes" to live a life of repentance.
4. Always pray and seek God vehemently to help us live a life which pleases Him (to glorify Him) and to stop sinning.
5. While doing the above start replacing bad habits with good habits.
Christian life requires discipline in all things (praying, sleeping, working, eating, etc) and self-denial.
If you live with the purpose of following Christ, you will suddenly see that other things are no distraction to you anymore since you are disciplined and have an aim at hand. If you set your mind on Christ and on the things that are above and discipline yourself and crucify your flesh [put your fleshly desires (gluttony, love of materials, sexual immorality) under subordination], you will also see that this is the battle in the Christian life (because the flesh and the spirit fight against teach other) and you will be more focused on Christ.
The flesh and the spirit fight against each other because our spirit wants to follow Christ but our flesh (old man) refuses to die with Jesus on the cross and therefore how can the new man come if the old has not died?
Jesus gave the parable in
Luke 5:36-39 kjv
36 And he spake also a parable unto them; No man putteth a piece of a new garment upon an old; if otherwise, then both the new maketh a rent, and the piece that was taken out of the new agreeth not with the old.
37 And no man putteth new wine into old bottles; else the new wine will burst the bottles, and be spilled, and the bottles shall perish.
38 But new wine must be put into new bottles; and both are preserved.
39 No man also having drunk old wine straightway desireth new: for he saith, The old is better.
This is the reason why you find it difficult to stop sinning. You are used to your old lifestyle or sinful nature (vs. 39).
No matter what many people tell you, it is still YOUR DECISION to renounce your old nature and follow Christ.
Even Jesus himself said REPENT. No one can be forced to, but all must make a choice.
Joshua said to the unrepenting Israelites (in the book of
Joshua 24:15 kjv) who followed other gods just like we follow the world, its ways and its sins:
15 And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.
So what is your decision?
You can have all the WILL and WISHES in the world but unless you make a decision and stand firm, repentance will be difficult.
Stay blessed, think and pray about it.
