Thought about denying Christ that I did not mean

[Job405]

So this morning I was laying in bed and had a thought about denying Christ. I did not mean it, it was more like testing God, but I immediately had this bad feeling in my gut after thinking the thought and repented. I don't even remember the full thought anymore.

Is it over for me? Is this kind of thought something that can be forgiven or is it the unforgivable sin?

I am using a medicine called abilify which makes you engage in risky behaviour, I think part of it was due to that.

Now I feel really bad and have just been repeating "I accept Christ" over and over again, and praying. I feel really numb. I want to cry but I cannot. I hope there is still mercy for me! Need your prayers.

 

[Landon Caeli]

So this morning I was laying in bed and had a thought about denying Christ. I did not mean it, it was more like testing God, but I immediately had this bad feeling in my gut after thinking the thought and repented. I don't even remember the full thought anymore.

Is it over for me? Is this kind of thought something that can be forgiven or is it the unforgivable sin?

I am using a medicine called abilify which makes you engage in risky behaviour, I think part of it was due to that.

Now I feel really bad and have just been repeating "I accept Christ" over and over again, and praying. I feel really numb. I want to cry but I cannot. I hope there is still mercy for me! Need your prayers.

It's totally forgivable. You are forgiven already.

 

[Job405]

It's totally forgivable. You are forgiven already.

Well Peter did deny Christ thrice infront of men and he was forgiven ... so I guess I am forgiven.

 

[Aussie Pete]

So this morning I was laying in bed and had a thought about denying Christ. I did not mean it, it was more like testing God, but I immediately had this bad feeling in my gut after thinking the thought and repented. I don't even remember the full thought anymore.

Is it over for me? Is this kind of thought something that can be forgiven or is it the unforgivable sin?

I am using a medicine called abilify which makes you engage in risky behaviour, I think part of it was due to that.

Now I feel really bad and have just been repeating "I accept Christ" over and over again, and praying. I feel really numb. I want to cry but I cannot. I hope there is still mercy for me! Need your prayers.

You are fine. Peter denied Christ three times. You'd think that would be final. Nope. Lord Jesus forgave him and confirmed Peter as an apostle.

 

[Bobber]

So this morning I was laying in bed and had a thought about denying Christ. I did not mean it, it was more like testing God, but I immediately had this bad feeling in my gut after thinking the thought and repented. I don't even remember the full thought anymore.

Is it over for me? Is this kind of thought something that can be forgiven or is it the unforgivable sin?

I am using a medicine called abilify which makes you engage in risky behaviour, I think part of it was due to that.

Now I feel really bad and have just been repeating "I accept Christ" over and over again, and praying. I feel really numb. I want to cry but I cannot. I hope there is still mercy for me! Need your prayers.

A sin about being tempted to deny Christ? Hold on now. It's not even a sin to be tempted this way or to have this wrong thought to come into your mind. To be tempted isn't a sin. If so then Jesus sinned as well for he was tempted too!

Matthew 4:1-4 Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil.

What matters is if you actually did it...turn away from Christ. And even if they did God has mercy for the backslider as you can read about the prodigal son in Luke 15.

And if you do sin you don't have to keep saying, "I accept Christ, I accept Christ" over and over again. You're his child if you've accepted him before. You don't go from being his son, not being his son, being his son not being so ....YOU ARE HIS SON. Now if your relationship with him needs strengthened well do what it takes to do that but you don't need to receive him again and again and again.

 

[Broken Fence]

Acceptance

I cried upon my weary
Engulfed in fear
Toe tap to bottle cap
I sit with You near

You caught my every tear
My prayer You heard
You comforted my care
You spoke Your word

Listen close to His Kind tongue
Jesus leads us onward ho
Takes us by His hand
Watches as we grow

 

[Job405]

A sin about being tempted to deny Christ? Hold on now. It's not even a sin to be tempted this way or to have this wrong thought to come into your mind. To be tempted isn't a sin. If so then Jesus sinned as well for he was tempted too!

Matthew 4:1-4 Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil.

What matters is if you actually did it...turn away from Christ. And even if they did God has mercy for the backslider as you can read about the prodigal son in Luke 15.

And if you do sin you don't have to keep saying, "I accept Christ, I accept Christ" over and over again. You're his child if you've accepted him before. You don't go from being his son, not being his son, being his son not being so ....YOU ARE HIS SON. Now if your relationship with him needs strengthened well do what it takes to do that but you don't need to receive him again and again and again.

The thing is I think I thought that thought, without meaning it. Like thinking "I want to eat potatoes" even though I do not want to eat potatoes.

 

[Job405]

The thing is I think I thought that thought, without meaning it. Like thinking "I want to eat potatoes" even though I do not want to eat potatoes.

Any more input on this?

 

[drstevej]

So this morning I was laying in bed and had a thought about denying Christ. I did not mean it, it was more like testing God, but I immediately had this bad feeling in my gut after thinking the thought and repented. I don't even remember the full thought anymore.

Is it over for me? Is this kind of thought something that can be forgiven or is it the unforgivable sin?

I am using a medicine called abilify which makes you engage in risky behaviour, I think part of it was due to that.

Now I feel really bad and have just been repeating "I accept Christ" over and over again, and praying. I feel really numb. I want to cry but I cannot. I hope there is still mercy for me! Need your prayers.

You might find these sI did helpful regarding forgiveness:

Grace and Peace
Chaplain Steve

2: Confession IS Good for the Soul

3: Leaving the Shackles of Guilt Behind [updated]

 

[Job405]

Today I was in prayer and felt the Holy Spirit in me. His presence to me is like this gentle energy followed usually by a feeling of joy and tears of joy. It was similar to the feeling I got when I first prayed in tongues last year and was filled with the Holy Spirit, except lower in intensity. I think I am forgiven!

 

[Job405]

This happened again today. I had a bad thought this morning about denying Christ if some conditions were met but I did not mean it and immediately repented. Then I have been having bad thoughts all day about denying Christ due to this demon or OCD injecting bad thoughts until I had a bad thought which went something like "Ok I deny Christ" while I was saying "no no no" because I knew where this thought was going and I didn't mean it either. Man this is so confusing and stressful.