- Oct 10, 2011
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For the record, I know I'm not gay, not that there would be necessarily anything wrong with it if were, and is kind of my point, as long as they are commited to being abstinent or celebate, (which I am BTW) (and am fully comitted to being and staying) but, i am saying i have considered it before, questioned myself about it for a period of time before, etc, there is a song that where singer went through a period of time when he said he might have thought about it for a time or considered it, but then found out he just wasn't, etc, as he got a little older, more mature, etc, anyway, i do have a mental disorder though, and it starts with what I'm hearing and how I am applying it or what I'm hearing, etc, and, being always aware of that, and not be able to control either always applying things (to other things) in general, or having no control over how and what and which way, and how, or to, or what for, or towards, or from what/where, etc...
Anyway doing that applying all of the time, or some other words are idenfying, relating, associating, etc, and doing that all of time, and not being able to control it, not only is there a lot of mental stress and strain, but some of the ways things are being apllied (and how they shift all of the time) (and quickly sometimes), anyway, has side effects, because of what you or me or I, am hearing and the way it's being applied, or your applying it, etc is a "trigger moment or event", and people responed very differently to being "triggered" in this way or by this, but I am to afraid to have a "behavior" of some kind, like responding in and with anger and the like, so for me it can be crippling fear sometimes, and the side effects from that can one think those side effects are or mean something else, etc, when it doesn't mean anything else other than what it is.
Anyway, i also know that I like women sexually, and think men and especially gay men are sick and gross or disgusting to me, (or not that they are, but there sin is, etc, or their gay way or ways, i guess you could say, or practicing homosexual lifestyle, especially sexually, etc) very put off and turned off by it, etc, to me it is gross and sick and disgusting, but there are people in society now who even want to rob or even being able to have those kinds of thoughts about it now, in today's society now, tells you you can't feel that way about it or them anymore, and tries to strip of the right to even think it, etc, trying to eliminate a part of the truth that would keep you from being unsure about your sex, sexual orientation, etc, cause that disgusting feeling is also perfectly natural, but many will try to tell you it is not, and it's wrong, etc...
Anyway, I have some mental health issues and/or problems that wreak havoc on the mind and the body in many more ways then one, etc, nervous system, etc, doesn't mean I'm gay, most of the time just afraid about what and how my mind was just doing, most usually starting with sound and/or hearing, etc...
Anyway, I know what it really is, etc, and understand what my actions and reactions truly are and what they are all about, etc...
Anyway,
God Bless!
Anyway doing that applying all of the time, or some other words are idenfying, relating, associating, etc, and doing that all of time, and not being able to control it, not only is there a lot of mental stress and strain, but some of the ways things are being apllied (and how they shift all of the time) (and quickly sometimes), anyway, has side effects, because of what you or me or I, am hearing and the way it's being applied, or your applying it, etc is a "trigger moment or event", and people responed very differently to being "triggered" in this way or by this, but I am to afraid to have a "behavior" of some kind, like responding in and with anger and the like, so for me it can be crippling fear sometimes, and the side effects from that can one think those side effects are or mean something else, etc, when it doesn't mean anything else other than what it is.
Anyway, i also know that I like women sexually, and think men and especially gay men are sick and gross or disgusting to me, (or not that they are, but there sin is, etc, or their gay way or ways, i guess you could say, or practicing homosexual lifestyle, especially sexually, etc) very put off and turned off by it, etc, to me it is gross and sick and disgusting, but there are people in society now who even want to rob or even being able to have those kinds of thoughts about it now, in today's society now, tells you you can't feel that way about it or them anymore, and tries to strip of the right to even think it, etc, trying to eliminate a part of the truth that would keep you from being unsure about your sex, sexual orientation, etc, cause that disgusting feeling is also perfectly natural, but many will try to tell you it is not, and it's wrong, etc...
Anyway, I have some mental health issues and/or problems that wreak havoc on the mind and the body in many more ways then one, etc, nervous system, etc, doesn't mean I'm gay, most of the time just afraid about what and how my mind was just doing, most usually starting with sound and/or hearing, etc...
Anyway, I know what it really is, etc, and understand what my actions and reactions truly are and what they are all about, etc...
Anyway,
God Bless!
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