@Lily76_
As someone who also suffered abuse (not only sexual), my whole life speaks about the hidden hatred people have against those God calls out of this world. Yes, God calls to all people as He doesn’t want all to perish: John 3:16-17
The world hated God first, so we shouldn’t be surprised that the world hates God’s people.
As far back I can remember I’ve always been hated without a cause. I’ve seen darkness in people and it turns them into animals. Sometimes I have had to learn the hard way because a decision I made turned very badly. There were many times I should have lost my life, but God would bring me out of a situation. Did I blame God? Sure, but He convicted me immediately. I was only mad at Him for a short time until I really began to think about the decisions I was making.
However not every decision I made put me in a scary situation either. It just happens because people who love darkness hate the light. The light of God shines in us in a way we can’t see, but is certainly seen by those lost in darkness.
Those who have the light of God can recognize others who also have His light, but even they need to be tested.
I do hope you can see what I’m saying here as I don’t want to divulge too much details. As you understand, it’s pretty personal.