- Dec 4, 2019
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Has anyone had a hallucination of a cross it tells me that is the unforgivable sin and I believe it for some strange reason no one can seem to convince otherwise. I don't know what is going on brain I feel this love and desire to please Jesus but the devil tells since I fell for his cross that I am a bad christian and that I can't be saved and that the yellow cross was the mark of the beast it doesn't make human sense or biblical sense then I saw a blue light telling me the rapture was in two days and other words. I am so nervous that I blasphemed the Holy Spirit in the hallucination. I have schizophrenia why God kick me out heaven for a mental disorder I also have autism, pandas, and ocd scrupulosity. I fear that I am beast from revelation chapter 13 I don't want it to be true but I fear it is. Will God intervene and kick this evil spirit oppressing me. I am so tormented by what I see. I never would speak blasphemy and I am concerned right now that I have. Please reassure me that I haven't blasphemed. I am so alarmed that I have in the hallucinations and physocosis why would God let a momentarily moment kick me out of heaven. I am so alarmed and scared bu what I saw I had no escape I thought God would guard me from the evil one. I read bad screenplays for Austin that had satanic stuff in them at times and I am worried it allowed him to masquerade and that I mixed him and the Holy Spirit up. It bothers me greatly. I wish that I have never read for Austin and been born for that matter I am so afraid of blasphemy.