Ocd is ruining my life. I am so afraid to even think the word "promise" or "punishment".
I try to avoid thinking them.
ocd is suggesting me to make promises to God in order to force myself (with that promise) to do what I want to do and not obey ocd.
that generates the words about promises without my will and a part of me, gets so relieved. everything happens fast and I end up doing what I want to do just because these thoughts without my will popped up.
sometimes, it is like ocd is making them on purpose. ocd or a part of me, maybe are making them on purpose. they know that I want relief so that part of me, knows sooner or later, some words will pop up that will free me. so it is like maybe that part, without my will, is allowing the thoughts about promises and punishments to my head. I get relieved.
I have told God many times that there will be times that I will try to trick ocd with fake promises. I am not free. I want to be free. I am doing it in order to be free. and it is not me who is doing it. it is a part of me, due to ocd, who creates these thoughts of relief.
these thoughts of relief trap me later. because ocd is like
ocd: your part is allowing some random words about punishments to pop up. are you sure they are without your will? why you feel relief? why you just do not ignore them? why that part of yours, forces them to happen? you think by acting that they are without your will, makes them that are without your will? maybe you are making them on purpose, and blame it to the ocd. maybe for a second, you are doing that and after 2 seconds you feel sorry for not choosing to ignore them. you play the game of the ocd. you relieve yourself with these fake promises. maybe God makes those promises valid. maybe you are going to be in an accident just because, the word accident came up with these semi-intentional thoughts. maybe there is not Jesus. Maybe there is a higher power or the universe who make those thoughts valid. who do not care if you have ocd or not. so many atheists. so many religions. so many suffering. so many contradictions in the Bible. maybe you are going to be in a car accident just because you play with these thoughts. why you just do not ignore them? making fake promises and asking fake punishments make angry God. why you just cant ignore the ocd feeling but you keep making fake promises to relieve yourself?
I am not making these thoughts. a part of me, somehow, without my will, forces them to pop up in order to free me from an ocd dilemma. they relieve me so much but I do not make them. they just happen. I am so confused. I am scared that I am going to be in a car crash. (the)
I try to avoid thinking them.
ocd is suggesting me to make promises to God in order to force myself (with that promise) to do what I want to do and not obey ocd.
that generates the words about promises without my will and a part of me, gets so relieved. everything happens fast and I end up doing what I want to do just because these thoughts without my will popped up.
sometimes, it is like ocd is making them on purpose. ocd or a part of me, maybe are making them on purpose. they know that I want relief so that part of me, knows sooner or later, some words will pop up that will free me. so it is like maybe that part, without my will, is allowing the thoughts about promises and punishments to my head. I get relieved.
I have told God many times that there will be times that I will try to trick ocd with fake promises. I am not free. I want to be free. I am doing it in order to be free. and it is not me who is doing it. it is a part of me, due to ocd, who creates these thoughts of relief.
these thoughts of relief trap me later. because ocd is like
ocd: your part is allowing some random words about punishments to pop up. are you sure they are without your will? why you feel relief? why you just do not ignore them? why that part of yours, forces them to happen? you think by acting that they are without your will, makes them that are without your will? maybe you are making them on purpose, and blame it to the ocd. maybe for a second, you are doing that and after 2 seconds you feel sorry for not choosing to ignore them. you play the game of the ocd. you relieve yourself with these fake promises. maybe God makes those promises valid. maybe you are going to be in an accident just because, the word accident came up with these semi-intentional thoughts. maybe there is not Jesus. Maybe there is a higher power or the universe who make those thoughts valid. who do not care if you have ocd or not. so many atheists. so many religions. so many suffering. so many contradictions in the Bible. maybe you are going to be in a car accident just because you play with these thoughts. why you just do not ignore them? making fake promises and asking fake punishments make angry God. why you just cant ignore the ocd feeling but you keep making fake promises to relieve yourself?
I am not making these thoughts. a part of me, somehow, without my will, forces them to pop up in order to free me from an ocd dilemma. they relieve me so much but I do not make them. they just happen. I am so confused. I am scared that I am going to be in a car crash. (the)
