Is it a sin to have these thoughts like blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. Delusions that your are God, Jesus, Satan, a national hero, a politician, a military officer and a celebrity. Angry voices provoking me and saying there is no God, Allah is God, swearing at me, telling me to go to hell or me telling them to go to hell, telling me to die, telling me I’m stupid and making me go to some far away place. Lastly telling me to take antipsychotics and mood stabilizers. I don’t like the effects of these meds because it makes me not myself and dulls my brain.