- Apr 25, 2019
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I can't do this anymore. I can't seem to move past these horrible blasphemous doubts. I can't seem to shake them. No matter what I do, they keep coming, stronger and stronger, and they always seem to find a reason to doubt and try to prove these blasphemous thoughts true. I can't anymore. I've gotten to the point where it feels like I have the urge to just accept the thoughts and say them and mean them and believe them, and I don't want to do that. I have the constantly fight the thoughts, or I risk submitting to them and damning myself for eternity. I worry that if I don't fight the thoughts, I'll end up believing them, and that I'll stop fighting them and they'll just become part of me. I can't do this. I can't. I'm afraid I've already done it. I don't know what to do. My mind keeps saying to just accept the thoughts as truth and stuff and to stop fighting. Why? Why is this happening? I can't concentrate on anything else, because then the thoughts will come and I'll accept them wholeheartedly. Why? What will I do now? Why won't this stop? Why? I'm afraid I already believe the thoughts... Why is no amount of evidence sufficient to convince me? Why am I stuck here?
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