- Aug 17, 2019
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- Non-Denom
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- In Relationship
Hi, I'm a fairly new Christian. Even though I was raised Presbyterian, I back slid most of my adult life.
I recently took a new job because I thought it would be better for my family. I'm a truck driver so good jobs are hard to come by. I gave up a job that was really easy but was under new management and I thought I was going to be laid off or fired. I had lots of problems there in the past months and lots of other people left too. My schedule was kind of weird but I had 3 days off and made enough money to get by, although my hours were cut dramatically over the last year or so.
I ended up taking a job that is a lot different from anything else I've ever done it's a Monday through Friday job pretty much during normal business hours. I'll work crazy hours in the winter time but that's where I'll make the money I wasn't at my old job. The rest of the year I'll make about the same as my old job give or take a little. In trucking it's very hard to get something close to business hours.
Here's where the problem is, I have a 3 year old autistic boy. He had already been struggling because of the turmoil at my old job. I forgot to mention I was out of work the whole month of June and part of July for a minor injury, even though I was perfectly capable of doing my job. My doctor even said it was ok. Anyway, that's where my son started struggling. If anyone is familiar with autism they hate change. As I said, I thought normal hours would help his autistic symptoms but it made them worse than I ever could have imagined. I have 2 other kids. It has disrupted the whole household. He screams, cries kicks holes in walls all the time. It's unbearable. Mainly either when I get home or leave for work. It's getting to the point where if it gets much worse I may have to move out. We wouldn't be breaking up, it would just be so my other kids and fiance could have a more bearable life. I don't have anywhere to go and that's not what I want. If anyone reads this I'd appreciate a prayer.
I apologize for the long post. My question is though, I feel as though I've made the wrong decision by taking this job. I keep telling myself it's God's plan. I don't get it though. Is it possible for me to make a move like that and maybe it wasn't his plan and I screwed up? I've already tried to get my old job back after being at my new one only a week. My old job has been filled. So much for getting laid off. If I was going to be laid off by them, they wouldn't have replaced me.
I recently took a new job because I thought it would be better for my family. I'm a truck driver so good jobs are hard to come by. I gave up a job that was really easy but was under new management and I thought I was going to be laid off or fired. I had lots of problems there in the past months and lots of other people left too. My schedule was kind of weird but I had 3 days off and made enough money to get by, although my hours were cut dramatically over the last year or so.
I ended up taking a job that is a lot different from anything else I've ever done it's a Monday through Friday job pretty much during normal business hours. I'll work crazy hours in the winter time but that's where I'll make the money I wasn't at my old job. The rest of the year I'll make about the same as my old job give or take a little. In trucking it's very hard to get something close to business hours.
Here's where the problem is, I have a 3 year old autistic boy. He had already been struggling because of the turmoil at my old job. I forgot to mention I was out of work the whole month of June and part of July for a minor injury, even though I was perfectly capable of doing my job. My doctor even said it was ok. Anyway, that's where my son started struggling. If anyone is familiar with autism they hate change. As I said, I thought normal hours would help his autistic symptoms but it made them worse than I ever could have imagined. I have 2 other kids. It has disrupted the whole household. He screams, cries kicks holes in walls all the time. It's unbearable. Mainly either when I get home or leave for work. It's getting to the point where if it gets much worse I may have to move out. We wouldn't be breaking up, it would just be so my other kids and fiance could have a more bearable life. I don't have anywhere to go and that's not what I want. If anyone reads this I'd appreciate a prayer.
I apologize for the long post. My question is though, I feel as though I've made the wrong decision by taking this job. I keep telling myself it's God's plan. I don't get it though. Is it possible for me to make a move like that and maybe it wasn't his plan and I screwed up? I've already tried to get my old job back after being at my new one only a week. My old job has been filled. So much for getting laid off. If I was going to be laid off by them, they wouldn't have replaced me.