I am sick of being in spiritual warfare all the time I want to follow god and his ways but I just want to give up my pursuit with god so I can finally have some peace, my prayers and cry’s for help don’t work so I honestly have no clue how to keep going.
I guess I would need more information. I don't see people who are Christians, in spiritual warfare all the time.
I don't see Christians reacting the way that you are right now.
That leads me to a few questions.
Are you reaping something you have sown? The laws of the harvest are that we as human beings reap what we have sown into our lives. That's not G-d doing it. That's not evil spirits doing it. That's simply how the world works.
Let me give you a basic example. If you build a house on sand, when the waves come, your house will fall down.
You can't blame G-d or the spirits, for your house falling down if you built it badly.
Let me give you a practical example. If you have treated people badly in the past, you may have to reap the consequences of being a jerk to people. I personally have had that happen in my life, and I treated people badly, and they treated me badly back, and I knew it was my own fault.
So that is one possibility. Again, not suggesting anything. You didn't give enough info to make a guess about.
Another possibility is that you happen to be in a bad situation, that neither you, nor G-d, had anything to do with.
If you think about the Coptic Christians in Egypt for example. Marginalized by society. Living in poverty most of their lives. They went to Libya looking for work, ended up captured by ISIS, and killed.
That wasn't G-d doing that, or the spirits. That was simply this world.
If I can give you just one bit of advice about this world.... this is a sin cursed world. Bad things will happen to all of us. Those bad things will happen to you, whether you believe G-d, or if you do not. Whether you pray every morning for wisdom and help, or if you don't... bad things will happen. You'll fail a test, have your car break down on the road, have your closest friend betray you, get laid off f.
Bad things happen. That is part of life. And the best bit of advice I can add to that... don't look for someone to blame, as much as you can. It's just life.
Lastly, maybe you are just struggling with doing right.
Welcome to being a human. We all have to face our inner struggle.
Now I know part of that kinda sucks, because we hate fighting our inner problems.....
But think about it this way... You know who doesn't have that inner struggle with doing what is right?
Serial killers, rapists, muggers, thieves and criminals in prison. They never struggle with doing what is right.
Yeah, that struggle sucks.... but it's much better to have that struggle, than not. If you don't struggle with doing what is right, that is a very very bad sign.