- Jul 10, 2019
- 11
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- United States
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- Catholic
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hello everyone my name is Derek. i have recently had an experience that i feel compelled to share with as many people as i can. if you feel abandoned or lost i hope my story can help you. i was baptised as an infant. confirmed around 15. but i strayed from God. and it got easier the further i went until very recently. about 6-8 weeks ago i had an experience. i had been dabbling in divination. both palm reading and tarrot cards. until i had a sudden realization that the cards were evil. it wasnt some untapped psychic ability i had. it wasnt a dead friend or friendly spirit or God i was talking with through the cards. it was a demon. i also realized that i in fact had a demon attached to me. i was not possessed but oppressed. it was perfectly happy laying dormant, letting me make sinful choices, have sinful thoughts, to influence me slightly and to occasionally whisper in my ear that it was ok to do things i knew were sinful (no i did not hear voices). so it was dormant or quiet until i recognized what it was and started to fight it through the Word of God, getting to know Him again by way of reading the Holy Bible, prayer (constant prayer!), attending church, confessing my sins, drinking blessed water, getting my house blessed, breaking any and all habits that gave the demon rights to attach itself to me, and burning the tarot cards along with a book on witch craft. when i started to fight back and accept Jesus Chris as my Lord and Savior and getting to know Him and the Father and the Holy Spirit it became angry and began to try and scare me. it became loud by showing what i call false displays of power (God has the true power). it stomped loudly on the ground in front of me when i would read scripture aloud and pray. the temperature would drop dramatically, unexplained noises and crashing, the radio going nuts and all kinds of other things. the worst part was that these things only happened when no one else was awake or at home. usually between the hours of 11pm and 4am. my own fiance thought i was crazy since she never witnessed anything. i too started to become convinced i had lost my mind and was hallucinating. it always waited until i was alone (not really alone because i now know that Jesus was with me every step... also my dog stayed by my side even though she could also sense it and was frightened by the stomping and moving objects.) i realize that is the devils main offensive move... making us feel alone and seperated. the only support i had was my parents (my mother was experiencing similar phenomenon but hers only happened as dreams.) and that of a Monsignor. the following 2 weeks were the most terrifying experience of my 31 years. i slept a few hours during the day and spent my nights in battle. i was in constant contact with a Monsignor (preist granted the title Monsignor by the Pope) who helped me through this experience. the second night after realizing what i was dealing with i got him on the phone. he told me to burn the cards, confess my sins, drink blessed water, and get my house blessed. i did all these things and experienced intense “paranormal phenomenon” every night. until i realized the more i got to know God again and the closer i got to Him the less afraid i was and the weaker the demon seemed to be. then one day i was not afraid anymore. i realized that Jesus fights for us. all we have to do is ask Him to take the battle from us and have faith that He will, have faith in Him. i realized that He has already won the battle. all He asks from us is faith and love and everything else will come naturally . i started to feel the Holy Spirit after a few days into this experience. i have read several posts saying that they dont feel the Holy Spirit but i did. salvation is different for everyone. i cant describe it other than to say i was overwhelmed with peace, joy, love, forgiveness to the point where i cry tears of happiness and laugh at the same time. i was fearless. i still feel it but sometimes i have to fight to get there. when i say fight i mean pray, reflect, talk to Him and say i am sorry, fight any sinful thoughts that come into my head and announce why they are wrong and think about all God has done for me and have FAITH that He is undless love and forgiveness. if anyone wants to hear more about what happened to me i am willing to share. just message me.
with love and warm regards,
Derek
with love and warm regards,
Derek