My fight back to Faith and the Holy Spirit

[Derek Michael]

hello everyone my name is Derek. i have recently had an experience that i feel compelled to share with as many people as i can. if you feel abandoned or lost i hope my story can help you. i was baptised as an infant. confirmed around 15. but i strayed from God. and it got easier the further i went until very recently. about 6-8 weeks ago i had an experience. i had been dabbling in divination. both palm reading and tarrot cards. until i had a sudden realization that the cards were evil. it wasnt some untapped psychic ability i had. it wasnt a dead friend or friendly spirit or God i was talking with through the cards. it was a demon. i also realized that i in fact had a demon attached to me. i was not possessed but oppressed. it was perfectly happy laying dormant, letting me make sinful choices, have sinful thoughts, to influence me slightly and to occasionally whisper in my ear that it was ok to do things i knew were sinful (no i did not hear voices). so it was dormant or quiet until i recognized what it was and started to fight it through the Word of God, getting to know Him again by way of reading the Holy Bible, prayer (constant prayer!), attending church, confessing my sins, drinking blessed water, getting my house blessed, breaking any and all habits that gave the demon rights to attach itself to me, and burning the tarot cards along with a book on witch craft. when i started to fight back and accept Jesus Chris as my Lord and Savior and getting to know Him and the Father and the Holy Spirit it became angry and began to try and scare me. it became loud by showing what i call false displays of power (God has the true power). it stomped loudly on the ground in front of me when i would read scripture aloud and pray. the temperature would drop dramatically, unexplained noises and crashing, the radio going nuts and all kinds of other things. the worst part was that these things only happened when no one else was awake or at home. usually between the hours of 11pm and 4am. my own fiance thought i was crazy since she never witnessed anything. i too started to become convinced i had lost my mind and was hallucinating. it always waited until i was alone (not really alone because i now know that Jesus was with me every step... also my dog stayed by my side even though she could also sense it and was frightened by the stomping and moving objects.) i realize that is the devils main offensive move... making us feel alone and seperated. the only support i had was my parents (my mother was experiencing similar phenomenon but hers only happened as dreams.) and that of a Monsignor. the following 2 weeks were the most terrifying experience of my 31 years. i slept a few hours during the day and spent my nights in battle. i was in constant contact with a Monsignor (preist granted the title Monsignor by the Pope) who helped me through this experience. the second night after realizing what i was dealing with i got him on the phone. he told me to burn the cards, confess my sins, drink blessed water, and get my house blessed. i did all these things and experienced intense “paranormal phenomenon” every night. until i realized the more i got to know God again and the closer i got to Him the less afraid i was and the weaker the demon seemed to be. then one day i was not afraid anymore. i realized that Jesus fights for us. all we have to do is ask Him to take the battle from us and have faith that He will, have faith in Him. i realized that He has already won the battle. all He asks from us is faith and love and everything else will come naturally . i started to feel the Holy Spirit after a few days into this experience. i have read several posts saying that they dont feel the Holy Spirit but i did. salvation is different for everyone. i cant describe it other than to say i was overwhelmed with peace, joy, love, forgiveness to the point where i cry tears of happiness and laugh at the same time. i was fearless. i still feel it but sometimes i have to fight to get there. when i say fight i mean pray, reflect, talk to Him and say i am sorry, fight any sinful thoughts that come into my head and announce why they are wrong and think about all God has done for me and have FAITH that He is undless love and forgiveness. if anyone wants to hear more about what happened to me i am willing to share. just message me.
with love and warm regards,
Derek

 

[“Paisios”]

Welcome to the forums, and thank you for sharing.

 

[Derek Michael]

Welcome to the forums, and thank you for sharing.

thank you!!

 

[Mathetes66]

Our gracious and merciful Lord has all authority & power in heaven and on earth. When we draw ever closer to Him, He brings us into things to strengthen our faith in Him. Our trials are meant to purify our faith in Him. Praise the Lord He brought you through this. Now yu can be used by Him to help others who are battling the enemy of our souls.

Meditate on what the Apostle Peter said in I Peter chapter 5. Also meditate on what Paul said in Ephesians chapter 6.

Welcome to CF!

 

[rocknanchor]

I don't recall you saying anyone praying with you, one-on-one and not by phone but 'gathered together'.

If it were me and not you, I would certainly include the following,

“Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that you may be healed.”

“, , we have renounced secret and shameful ways.”

(James 5:16, 2 Corinthians 4:2)​

 

[Derek Michael]

I don't recall you saying anyone praying with you, one-on-one and not by phone but 'gathered together'.

If it were me and not you, I would certainly include the following,

“Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that you may be healed.”

“, , we have renounced secret and shameful ways.”

(James 5:16, 2 Corinthians 4:2)​

i am sorry for any misunderstanding. please do not take what i said as a full sharing of my story. there is much i left out. i had people praying for me and as i said i “attended church” frequently and continue to. is that not praying as a community gathered together? at any rate i would not assume someones individual prayer is not enough or not heard. and who is to say that “gathered together” should be taken as physically in the same room? God is with all of us as individuals and a community.

 

[Derek Michael]

I don't recall you saying anyone praying with you, one-on-one and not by phone but 'gathered together'.

If it were me and not you, I would certainly include the following,

“Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that you may be healed.”

“, , we have renounced secret and shameful ways.”

(James 5:16, 2 Corinthians 4:2)​

but thank you for your response

 

[Derek Michael]

Our gracious and merciful Lord has all authority & power in heaven and on earth. When we draw ever closer to Him, He brings us into things to strengthen our faith in Him. Our trials are meant to purify our faith in Him. Praise the Lord He brought you through this. Now yu can be used by Him to help others who are battling the enemy of our souls.

Meditate on what the Apostle Peter said in I Peter chapter 5. Also meditate on what Paul said in Ephesians chapter 6.

Welcome to CF!

yes! and as strange as it may seem to some people i count this experience as a blessing now. at the time i felt abandoned and as though the Lord had allowed me to be tourmented as punishment. but now my eyes are opened and i thank Him for allowing me this experience because it brought me back to Him. i am awake now and i thank Him almost every hour. thank you for the scripture i will add it to my nightly reading.

 

[Derek Michael]

I don't recall you saying anyone praying with you, one-on-one and not by phone but 'gathered together'.

If it were me and not you, I would certainly include the following,

“Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that you may be healed.”

“, , we have renounced secret and shameful ways.”

(James 5:16, 2 Corinthians 4:2)​

when i said “the only support i had was my parents... ect.” what i meant was the only people who beleived me. my parents and i reached out to our extended family their friends and asked them to pray for me... but we did not tell them what was going on. sorry for the confusion.

 

[rocknanchor]

but thank you for your response

Very kind! The Lord's establishing in every way be yours and congrats on the engagement! His every purpose, I'm sure, includes both the tranquility and joy like nothing else could possibly give! God bless you!