is it wrong that i don't want Jesus to come yet?
i'v been with god for almost 2 months and my life has been getting much better with Jesus but is this wrong?
Your almost 19, you are young, not even an adult yet (meaning independent and supporting yourself). Im assuming you have'nt left your parents home yet. Naturally, you expect a whole life ahead of you, a career to think about, achievements, places to go; then later finding a mate, starting a family. And all of a sudden, you become a Christian and the Second Coming is right at our door. You feel this interrupts your plans, your life! It sure would.
You have a lot to learn, you are an infant - spiritually, so you need to feed on the Word. Seek Jesus first, then He will give you the things you desire.
LIVE YOUR LIFE AS IF HE WASNT COMING FOR 50 YEARS. In other words, be occupied until He comes - with a hope and faith that will eventually grow towards wanting Him to come soon.
You will see sin in the world and in your own life and hate it. You will realize that man cannot create world peace and fix our dysfunctional world. You'll see beauty in the world and want to stay close to that, but then the ugly shows it's head and spoils it over and over again. The world seems like it's getting worse. Good and evil are moving towards a precipice, when finally they will separate during a period of Judgment (3 1/2 years called the Great Tribulation); after which there will be peace for 1000 years (unless you attend a Preterist church - they will tell you something different).
But until this happens, take one day at a time, LIVE, work, love, have faith and hope. This is an interesting journey with peaks and valleys. Getting to know Jesus takes time ... But He may come tomorrow? If that happened, won't you be glad that you were saved two months ago.
Listen, what heaven has to offer outweighs anything on earth. Earth has beauty, but when you look closely, it has defects all over the place - everywhere, in everyone as well. Heaven is perfect. Look at a beautiful flowering tree from a distance, then move closer and see the defects. People are the same, we may appear wonderful on the outside, but we are all like dirty rags. Even after He cleanses our sins, spiritually we are white as snow but we still have sin that dwells in our flesh. It's this dual nature that we battle with, continuously being tempted to fall into sin, our old ways.
I am 63, my body is breaking down as much as I fight this process, it happens. I need a new body, an eternal one that never will break down. So I say come Lord Jesus ...Tomorrow would be just fine.