- May 13, 2018
- 143
- 52
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Presbyterian
- Marital Status
- Single
I had been crushing on a girl at church for the past four or so years of my life. She brought her boyfriend to church today and it totally destroyed me. To make things worse my sister got mad at me and confirmed that, "No girl would ever like me and I will die alone."
My main problem is that autism runs in my family and I have it real bad. I am very clumsy, but my biggest problem is that I am essentially socially retarded. One time a girl asked me, "Do I look fat?" and to that I replied, " I think I look fat." I am 6'2 and 170lbs. I learned that was a bad answer because she never talked to me again (by the way the girl was not fat I just got so nervous I had verbal vomit).
Anyway I am horribly depressed because the last four or so years of my life have been wasted crushing over someone I never had a chance with. I am pretty pathetic. I have been trying unsuccessfully to get a six pack for three years or so now, so I would be attractive to women. I am an extremely emotional person. I am just not sure what to do.
I have been asking for God to either take me to be with him or to please come hang out with me because I have no friends or a girlfriend to hang out with in real life. I use to play video games, but I do not like them anymore. I am afraid to drive. I live cooped up with a family who I do not get along with.
What do I do with my life? I feel like I am just smart enough to suffer great emotional pain, but just incapable enough to not be able to do anything about it.
My main problem is that autism runs in my family and I have it real bad. I am very clumsy, but my biggest problem is that I am essentially socially retarded. One time a girl asked me, "Do I look fat?" and to that I replied, " I think I look fat." I am 6'2 and 170lbs. I learned that was a bad answer because she never talked to me again (by the way the girl was not fat I just got so nervous I had verbal vomit).
Anyway I am horribly depressed because the last four or so years of my life have been wasted crushing over someone I never had a chance with. I am pretty pathetic. I have been trying unsuccessfully to get a six pack for three years or so now, so I would be attractive to women. I am an extremely emotional person. I am just not sure what to do.
I have been asking for God to either take me to be with him or to please come hang out with me because I have no friends or a girlfriend to hang out with in real life. I use to play video games, but I do not like them anymore. I am afraid to drive. I live cooped up with a family who I do not get along with.
What do I do with my life? I feel like I am just smart enough to suffer great emotional pain, but just incapable enough to not be able to do anything about it.