- Oct 10, 2011
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The main problem is when I sense evil in general, and I seem to go back and forth sometimes between everything being evil, and not everything being evil...
But more specifically, is why I don't like "groups" or more than one on one interactions most of the time (if not preferred all of the time now)...
I don't join groups, I avoid them like the plague, here is why I think... One person is trying to look and be cool, for, and in front of, and to be seen that way by all of the others, one person is trying to be funny, for the same reasons, another, usually several others, are trying to dominate the group and or conversations with their big, loud mouths, and this is how, and when, and why, "pecking orders" get established, and "clicks" get established, and it all seems so very extremely "fake" and "phony" to me... None of them, I feel, are being "real", and I think it makes some people not ever be real, or fake or phony all their life sometimes... Or at the very least be fake and phony "around other people", all trying to impress one another... Anyway, I don't like it, I don't like it all and I don't feel that can ever be helped now, just the way I see it...
Even a friend of mine I had over, when we went to see one of my other friends in my building where I live, they were even doing it with each other, and I just wasn't saying much, mainly watching and observing, and much of the time, I just don't like what I see...
I spend a lot of time alone now, isolated, and I know that's not good, but I can't help all the hypocrisy I see all around me... I hate fake...
Not saying we should all be butt-heads either, to each other or anything... Cause all honesty and truth be told, most of the time, that is not being "real" either, and is very fake also...
I'm trying to figure out "who I really am" and "who we all really are", as a race, as a species, apart from all that "garbage"...
Fake is evil to me, and may be the source of all evil, IDK...?
God Bless!
But more specifically, is why I don't like "groups" or more than one on one interactions most of the time (if not preferred all of the time now)...
I don't join groups, I avoid them like the plague, here is why I think... One person is trying to look and be cool, for, and in front of, and to be seen that way by all of the others, one person is trying to be funny, for the same reasons, another, usually several others, are trying to dominate the group and or conversations with their big, loud mouths, and this is how, and when, and why, "pecking orders" get established, and "clicks" get established, and it all seems so very extremely "fake" and "phony" to me... None of them, I feel, are being "real", and I think it makes some people not ever be real, or fake or phony all their life sometimes... Or at the very least be fake and phony "around other people", all trying to impress one another... Anyway, I don't like it, I don't like it all and I don't feel that can ever be helped now, just the way I see it...
Even a friend of mine I had over, when we went to see one of my other friends in my building where I live, they were even doing it with each other, and I just wasn't saying much, mainly watching and observing, and much of the time, I just don't like what I see...
I spend a lot of time alone now, isolated, and I know that's not good, but I can't help all the hypocrisy I see all around me... I hate fake...
Not saying we should all be butt-heads either, to each other or anything... Cause all honesty and truth be told, most of the time, that is not being "real" either, and is very fake also...
I'm trying to figure out "who I really am" and "who we all really are", as a race, as a species, apart from all that "garbage"...
Fake is evil to me, and may be the source of all evil, IDK...?
God Bless!