Searching for God in times of crisis

[Spiderkiller007]

I have a rare form of cancer that formed tumor in a vessel going to the heart and now in the heart chambers , I just went through open heart surgery that failed to remove the tumor now they will try immunotherapy to shrink the tumor , after getting this news I have been trying to draw close to God ,I pray read the word turn to Christian friends but I thought going through this life threatening thing I would feel Gods presence around me or like a spiritual hand on my shoulder something ! Am I expecting to much ? I hear people say they " feel God " " hear from God " but I don't , could it be through my complacent attitude about Christianity ( I did ask God into my life when I was 19 ) at first I was zealous then as the years went by I became lax , however I did not give up on Christ but I did not live as I should I have been guilty of drunkeness , fornication , and pride , but since I got diagnosed I have tried to fix my life and get close to God , I have married my girlfriend ( that I was living with ) I know I was wrong but I lamely justified it , made amends with as many people as I could that I may have offended re connected with Christian friends , but I can't help but wonder did God turn his back on me ? Is there redemption left for me ? After all I was willfully sinning , I am very sorry for the life I led and ashamed , but I do not have assurance of salvation , I still feel alone and scared and one day he will say to me I never knew you , I have prayed begged and cried but still feel empty

 

[Sam91]

Let go of self condemnation. Think of the prodigal son. Proverbs 3:5-6

Ask Him to renew your love.

God bless.

 

[royal priest]

The experience of repentance is relative to each individual. It is more radical for some than for others. Regardless, God is teaching each of us that without Him we are nothing. Rest on His unchanging grace. If He could be merciful to a scoundrel like Jacob, then there is hope for us. God honors those who honor Him. (1 Samuel 2:30) If we honor Him in our suffering, then He will honor us in the end with a crown of glory. Press on, dear brother!

 

[danielmears]

Absolutely there is redemption for you and all of us. Even Mother Theresa felt God's silence, you do not have to feel God. God is defined as love, light and spirit and is in the very atoms which make you, you. 1 John speaks a lot about the attributes of God. And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him. 1 John 4:16 Glory to God! The self condemnation may be your greater problem, God loves you and has already forgiven but fear not for the word also says, For if our heart condemn us, God is greater than our heart and knoweth all things. Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, then have we confidence toward God. And whatsoever we ask, we receive of him, because we keep his commandments, and do those things that are pleasing in his sight. It goes on to say that we are to believe on the name of Christ and love one another. So, walk knowing God is with you whether you feel it or not and abide in love. May the Lord heal you and comfort you.

 

[A_Thinker]

I have a rare form of cancer that formed tumor in a vessel going to the heart and now in the heart chambers , I just went through open heart surgery that failed to remove the tumor now they will try immunotherapy to shrink the tumor , after getting this news I have been trying to draw close to God ,I pray read the word turn to Christian friends but I thought going through this life threatening thing I would feel Gods presence around me or like a spiritual hand on my shoulder something ! Am I expecting to much ? I hear people say they " feel God " " hear from God " but I don't , could it be through my complacent attitude about Christianity ( I did ask God into my life when I was 19 ) at first I was zealous then as the years went by I became lax , however I did not give up on Christ but I did not live as I should I have been guilty of drunkeness , fornication , and pride , but since I got diagnosed I have tried to fix my life and get close to God , I have married my girlfriend ( that I was living with ) I know I was wrong but I lamely justified it , made amends with as many people as I could that I may have offended re connected with Christian friends , but I can't help but wonder did God turn his back on me ? Is there redemption left for me ? After all I was willfully sinning , I am very sorry for the life I led and ashamed , but I do not have assurance of salvation , I still feel alone and scared and one day he will say to me I never knew you , I have prayed begged and cried but still feel empty

So sorry to hear of your troubles. I will pray for you.

Try to rest in God's love for you. You have done well to turn your life around, and no matter what happens, God will know you for His own.

Read of David's struggles in the Psalms ... and of his continuing confidence in God to comfort him. Try to believe that, no matter what, God will be there for you.

God's blessings to you ...

 

[Monk Brendan]

I have a rare form of cancer that formed tumor in a vessel going to the heart and now in the heart chambers , I just went through open heart surgery that failed to remove the tumor now they will try immunotherapy to shrink the tumor , after getting this news I have been trying to draw close to God ,I pray read the word turn to Christian friends but I thought going through this life threatening thing I would feel Gods presence around me or like a spiritual hand on my shoulder something ! Am I expecting to much ? I hear people say they " feel God " " hear from God " but I don't , could it be through my complacent attitude about Christianity ( I did ask God into my life when I was 19 ) at first I was zealous then as the years went by I became lax , however I did not give up on Christ but I did not live as I should I have been guilty of drunkeness , fornication , and pride , but since I got diagnosed I have tried to fix my life and get close to God , I have married my girlfriend ( that I was living with ) I know I was wrong but I lamely justified it , made amends with as many people as I could that I may have offended re connected with Christian friends , but I can't help but wonder did God turn his back on me ? Is there redemption left for me ? After all I was willfully sinning , I am very sorry for the life I led and ashamed , but I do not have assurance of salvation , I still feel alone and scared and one day he will say to me I never knew you , I have prayed begged and cried but still feel empty

You h ave lived umpty-umph years while ignoring God. Did you expect to feel Him all of a sudden.

Trust me. He's there, so claim that by faith.

As someone else pointed out, remember the parable of the Prodigal Son.

 

[Basil the Great]

God bless you, Spiderkiller007, and may He send you His peace!

 

[“Paisios”]

I have a rare form of cancer that formed tumor in a vessel going to the heart and now in the heart chambers , I just went through open heart surgery that failed to remove the tumor now they will try immunotherapy to shrink the tumor , after getting this news I have been trying to draw close to God ,I pray read the word turn to Christian friends but I thought going through this life threatening thing I would feel Gods presence around me or like a spiritual hand on my shoulder something ! Am I expecting to much ? I hear people say they " feel God " " hear from God " but I don't , could it be through my complacent attitude about Christianity ( I did ask God into my life when I was 19 ) at first I was zealous then as the years went by I became lax , however I did not give up on Christ but I did not live as I should I have been guilty of drunkeness , fornication , and pride , but since I got diagnosed I have tried to fix my life and get close to God , I have married my girlfriend ( that I was living with ) I know I was wrong but I lamely justified it , made amends with as many people as I could that I may have offended re connected with Christian friends , but I can't help but wonder did God turn his back on me ? Is there redemption left for me ? After all I was willfully sinning , I am very sorry for the life I led and ashamed , but I do not have assurance of salvation , I still feel alone and scared and one day he will say to me I never knew you , I have prayed begged and cried but still feel empty

I just want you to know that you are named daily in my morning prayers. I hope that God grants you comfort, courage, forgiveness, and peace.

 

[vinsight4u]

/nvm

 

[vinsight4u]

/nvm

 

[Southernscotty]

Romans 8:38-39

 

[Spiderkiller007]

I just want you to know that you are named daily in my morning prayers. I hope that God grants you comfort, courage, forgiveness, and peace.

Thank you I do appreciate that , it is scary and I do wish to hear Gods voice or feel his love , it does make me feel good knowing fellow Christians are rooting for me

 

[Spiderkiller007]

God bless you, Spiderkiller007, and may He send you His peace!

Thank you

 

[Stellar Vision]

I learned last year that eating a whole food plant-based diet can seriously combat many types of cancers. It has to do with the myriad phytonutrients in plants that help our bodies become hostile to cancer cells, throughout every nook and cranny, that chemo and surgery may miss.

At a minimum it should be considered as a critical ancillary to conventional treatment, given the powerful effects it has been shown to have on cancer cell death in numerous experiments.