- Jan 12, 2018
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Hello, all! I'm Caleb (or under this name so people I know in real life don't know my terrible issue), and I'm 18 years old! I was reading a thread on temptation here because I am having some struggle that I am seeking help with. So, I will go ahead and get into that.
I have been raised in a Christian home (specifically Independent Baptist) for 18 years. I have been saved and I attend church regularly. But, from the time I was 12-13 years old (those adolescent years), I came to discover that I am attracted to men. Then I didn't completely understand it or have a label for it. As I grew older, maybe about sixteen I was completely confused on why my desire for women just didn't exist, and to this day, I still don't have that. All of my friends (guys specifically) are ultraly attracted to women, but I cannot even begin to think about a women to the extent most every man does. I just don't have that flame in me.
It's really shameful for me to discuss this at all, but I need someone with maybe the same feelings that I have, or just strong, unwavering wisdom; BIBLICAL wisdom to help me. Every day I fall into sin with this (nothing physically with other people), but in my mind and I don't know how to make myself normal. I know what the Bible says, and Jesus understands that we are tempted because He has been there, and He can testify to such; but I have never in my mind thought that I would grow up to struggle with homosexuality. I don't talk to family or friends because I believe they would never look at me the same, or see me as some type of sicko because of my besetting sin, which we all have. I just want to escape and it seems that no amount of prayer, daily Bible reading or church attendence can give me a straight sexuality. Please pray for me and help me. God does work in His time, not mine.
I have been raised in a Christian home (specifically Independent Baptist) for 18 years. I have been saved and I attend church regularly. But, from the time I was 12-13 years old (those adolescent years), I came to discover that I am attracted to men. Then I didn't completely understand it or have a label for it. As I grew older, maybe about sixteen I was completely confused on why my desire for women just didn't exist, and to this day, I still don't have that. All of my friends (guys specifically) are ultraly attracted to women, but I cannot even begin to think about a women to the extent most every man does. I just don't have that flame in me.
It's really shameful for me to discuss this at all, but I need someone with maybe the same feelings that I have, or just strong, unwavering wisdom; BIBLICAL wisdom to help me. Every day I fall into sin with this (nothing physically with other people), but in my mind and I don't know how to make myself normal. I know what the Bible says, and Jesus understands that we are tempted because He has been there, and He can testify to such; but I have never in my mind thought that I would grow up to struggle with homosexuality. I don't talk to family or friends because I believe they would never look at me the same, or see me as some type of sicko because of my besetting sin, which we all have. I just want to escape and it seems that no amount of prayer, daily Bible reading or church attendence can give me a straight sexuality. Please pray for me and help me. God does work in His time, not mine.