- Nov 6, 2017
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Private
Social gatherings are kind of awkward for me. I don't really have any "friends" that I hang out with. I would like to have some and even though people are nice and friendly towards me at church, no real friendship comes from it. Last year for my birthday, some of the ladies from the church invited me out for a birthday dinner at a restaurant that they chose. They showed up with cards, cupcakes, and paid for my dinner. We talked, laughed all the things you do at a birthday dinner. I felt as though I had finely made some friends. It felt nice. But I guess that birthday dinner was as far as it went. At church I get no more then a nice "hello or a hi" from them as they walk by to met with someone else. None of them have invited me over for a visit or have stop by to visit me. It kind of bothers me because when I got asked out for the birthday dinner I though I had finely found some friends. But it seem it was just a one time thing and nothing more. I kind of feel like the grandmother who's kids only remember her on her birthday, but then ignore her the rest of the year. Anyway, I am think that this year if they ask me again, I am thinking about just saying "no". I don't feel like it is a "friendship" It feels more like it is a "project" they feel inclined to do for some reason. I don't know? Maybe it's me? (sigh)