Lilly but we love you too !!thank you all i understand if you all hate me i understand if am now no longer welcome here
i keep wanting to be punished in some way for this told my husband again he says its part of my BPD ...i dont understand why he cant see it he loves me that much
You don't have to understand it ! Just accept it, the same as I said about Jesus.thank you i dont understand why am loved i have done nothing to make people love me for some reason it hard for me to fathom thank you for your love
thank you i dont understand why am loved i have done nothing to make people love me for some reason it hard for me to fathom thank you for your love
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.i feel bad and upset at myself please help me
I dont think very highly of myself. Its a humbling experience, so maybe its not all bad.husband says am ill saying things that dont makes sense this is part of my BPD/ OCD -SELF HATE keep saying things about me my husband what is wrong with me have to confess have to blame myself for everything - my fault seeing my pastor tomorrow tried to confess to him keep thinking am evil ... maybe i am
Lilly are you medicated for the Bi Polar ?husband says am ill saying things that dont makes sense this is part of my BPD/ OCD -SELF HATE keep saying things about me my husband what is wrong with me have to confess have to blame myself for everything - my fault seeing my pastor tomorrow tried to confess to him keep thinking am evil ... maybe i am
Have you had any medical help with this at all ?no ... but i think i may have it am very up and down i get mood swings BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER and BI POLAR are kinda the same apart from how bad it can be some times both BPD and bi polar are co existing disorders
Do you have confidence in your medical team ? Some psychotic drugs can be tricky to deal with, you need top medical and psychiatric people in that realm.with my BPD But not the bipolar i have been on anti depressants ( depression )anti anxiety (OCD )and anti psychotics ( VOICES ) 11 pills a day