Ive posted here a few times about my anxiety, it’s been horrid ever since it began end of last November.
There are a lot of underlying reasons that I have anxiety, I believe the worst is the severe Debt. Some of you may know but when you are 30k in debt (credit card and personal loans) and have another 5k soon coming from a bad business venture you can imagine the stress it can cause. I make only about 42k a year, before taxes. Not to mention I have to pay rent and my car payment. $1100 together. I did make about 10-15k more when I had a second job reselling clearance items which promptly came to an end after the initial panic/anxiety attack last November.
You can imagine how I feel. Like a failure. I failed myself and God. I try not to believe the words of the enemy, but they are true.
I just don’t know what to do, I’m going to see a therapist soon for the anxiety/ocd. The hardest thing is going to bed, it’s so hard with these thoughts... I think how will I ever sleep thinking of all these things. Not to mention the horrible sensirometer Ocd. The only good nights of sleep are when I fully ignore the issue. Clearly not something I can do forever.
If anyone else has any advice or comments, it would be most welcome. Right now I’m just praying for peace and a sound mind to get through this mess.
There are a lot of underlying reasons that I have anxiety, I believe the worst is the severe Debt. Some of you may know but when you are 30k in debt (credit card and personal loans) and have another 5k soon coming from a bad business venture you can imagine the stress it can cause. I make only about 42k a year, before taxes. Not to mention I have to pay rent and my car payment. $1100 together. I did make about 10-15k more when I had a second job reselling clearance items which promptly came to an end after the initial panic/anxiety attack last November.
You can imagine how I feel. Like a failure. I failed myself and God. I try not to believe the words of the enemy, but they are true.
I just don’t know what to do, I’m going to see a therapist soon for the anxiety/ocd. The hardest thing is going to bed, it’s so hard with these thoughts... I think how will I ever sleep thinking of all these things. Not to mention the horrible sensirometer Ocd. The only good nights of sleep are when I fully ignore the issue. Clearly not something I can do forever.
If anyone else has any advice or comments, it would be most welcome. Right now I’m just praying for peace and a sound mind to get through this mess.
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