not worth anything

[Lily76_]

Am struggling a lot at the moment...unsure if my life is worth anything ...my husband says it is and i have friends and loved ones who support me ...i feel empty most of the time my husband has to lock everything away to keep me safe am unsure of my purposes why was i born av wasted most of my life because of mental health and the fact i cant work or take care of myself am a failure my mother is ashamed of me am selfish most of the time and i hate myself even more i give myself such a hard time about things and am always negative about myself and my body am obese i have tried to lose weight i have an eating disorder where i either starve or binge i self injure but i cant stop doing this my husband has to lock everything i can harm myself away for my own safety including my medication am wasting my life away i am now 40 and i have no children and will be unable to have any why am i here ? what the point of my life

am nothing ...

 

[Korean-American Christian]

Am struggling a lot at the moment...unsure if my life is worth anything ...my husband says it is and i have friends and loved ones who support me ...i feel empty most of the time my husband has to lock everything away to keep me safe am unsure of my purposes why was i born av wasted most of my life because of mental health and the fact i cant work or take care of myself am a failure my mother is ashamed of me am selfish most of the time and i hate myself even more i give myself such a hard time about things and am always negative about myself and my body am obese i have tried to lose weight i have an eating disorder where i either starve or binge i self injure but i cant stop doing this my husband has to lock everything i can harm myself away for my own safety including my medication am wasting my life away i am now 40 and i have no children and will be unable to have any why am i here ? what the point of my life

am nothing ...

Sister, you are a daughter of God.

You are God's precious child.

You are God's precious Princess

Jesus wants to have a very close, intimate relationship with you.

God is our loving Father.

God wants you to live with Him forever.

You were created to be in an intimate relationship with God.

You were created so that you can show the incredible love of Jesus Christ to everyone around you.

Father God, please show Your incredible love to this dear sister. Father, please be with her every moment of every day. Please show her Your wonderful purpose for her life. Please help her to see herself as You see her. She is Your precious daughter. She is Your precious Princess. Please show her that You delight in her. Please help this sister to transform her mind and her heart through reading the Bible, which is Your love letter to her. Please help her so that she will no longer believe the lies of the Enemy. Father God, please protect her always. These things I ask in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen

 

[longwait]

I will remember you in my prayers. You really need counselling and medical help. Have you sought for healing and deliverance through prayer ministries? I listen to this ytube channel Dan Shelley 777. He says God has now called him to the healing ministry. So now he has set up this new channel called WHO.. WHO IS HE? He prays for healing for people there. I haven't yet watched that new channel. There are people who testified that after he prayed for them they have been healed. Just check out his channel. It won't hurt to try. Subscribe to his new channel and tell him about your problem. He will pray for you. Hope God will answer your prayers for healing mentally and physically. Oh, and this Dan shelley is from the UK too. You need to take this problem seriously. Don't ignore it. You need help and a lot of prayers. Please don't harm yourself, take care and God Bless you Blessed-By-Jesus.

 

[Godlovesmetwo]

why am i here ? what the point of my life

To realise you're a child of God, the God who loves you more than you can imagine.
To somehow learn to love God back, love your neighbour and yourself in the way He intended.
Prayers.

 

[brinny]

Bless yer heart, Praying precious (((hug)))

 

[Catherineanne]

Am struggling a lot at the moment...unsure if my life is worth anything ...my husband says it is and i have friends and loved ones who support me ...i feel empty most of the time my husband has to lock everything away to keep me safe am unsure of my purposes why was i born av wasted most of my life because of mental health and the fact i cant work or take care of myself am a failure my mother is ashamed of me am selfish most of the time and i hate myself even more i give myself such a hard time about things and am always negative about myself and my body am obese i have tried to lose weight i have an eating disorder where i either starve or binge i self injure but i cant stop doing this my husband has to lock everything i can harm myself away for my own safety including my medication am wasting my life away i am now 40 and i have no children and will be unable to have any why am i here ? what the point of my life

am nothing ...

Go back to your doctor. There are many different kinds of medication; perhaps yours is not the right one for you.

I wish you well.

Lord have mercy.

 

[Lily76_]

i want to be like other people who are passionate about Jesus who love Jesus with out question who loves him like he was a close loved one or even much more than that
i feel that i am incapable of such feeling i want to learn how to love myself most of the time i feel empty dont want to feel like this i see my dr on Monday and i have a psych appointment on the 17 th of august
the medication am on i have been taking it for a short time sometimes it need to wait until av been on it a few months but i will be talking about medication .
thank you all for replying

 

[tturt]

BlessedByJesus, actually this is very accurate because you are BlessedByJesus.

Are you worth anything? Let's take a look at some Scriptures.
“The spirit of God hath made me, and the breath of the Almighty hath given me life.” Job 33:4
You are sustained by God because that next breath is from Him. And the one after that - it's from Him, too. Again.

"The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty; he will save, he will rejoice over thee with joy; he will rest in his love, he will joy over thee with singing." Zep 3:17 Just think He, our Creator, joyfully sings over you.

You asks about your purpose. One primary purpose is to praise The Lord. You might want to read aloud - Psa 100:1-5.

There's a lot more Scripture that could be included but this one is key:
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." John 3:16 No greater love for you could there be.

Encourage you to think about Scripture such as these because you are truly BlessedByJesus.

 

[brinny]

i want to be like other people who are passionate about Jesus who love Jesus with out question who loves him like he was a close loved one or even much more than that
i feel that i am incapable of such feeling i want to learn how to love myself most of the time i feel empty dont want to feel like this i see my dr on Monday and i have a psych appointment on the 17 th of august
the medication am on i have been taking it for a short time sometimes it need to wait until av been on it a few months but i will be talking about medication .
thank you all for replying

God LOVES you, precious. Praying (((hug)))

 

[Haipule]

Am struggling a lot at the moment...unsure if my life is worth anything ...my husband says it is and i have friends and loved ones who support me ...i feel empty most of the time my husband has to lock everything away to keep me safe am unsure of my purposes why was i born av wasted most of my life because of mental health and the fact i cant work or take care of myself am a failure my mother is ashamed of me am selfish most of the time and i hate myself even more i give myself such a hard time about things and am always negative about myself and my body am obese i have tried to lose weight i have an eating disorder where i either starve or binge i self injure but i cant stop doing this my husband has to lock everything i can harm myself away for my own safety including my medication am wasting my life away i am now 40 and i have no children and will be unable to have any why am i here ? what the point of my life

am nothing ...

When God is ready and you are prepared(and I know how hard it hurts to reach our end and feel lost); you will be able to help so many others whom can't cry for help. Whom don't know where to turn. You came here to your family.

Be patient with God. He knows what He's doing. You will see life and you will be able to help the life blind in any arena!

You are apart of the anointed body of us and thee Anointed-One, thee christos Whom is our husband. We would all feel lost without your love gift from God, without your tender mercy.

If you hurt, we hurt. When you are glorified, because that's the only place our Betrothed will take you: we are glorified!

The body needs eyes that see; ears that hear; toes to dance, run, jump! And also, the body needs knuckleheads like me to hold the golden ring of His eternal bond! Heh! And you thought I was useless!

 

[Friend-of-Jesus]

Am struggling a lot at the moment...unsure if my life is worth anything ...my husband says it is and i have friends and loved ones who support me ...i feel empty most of the time my husband has to lock everything away to keep me safe am unsure of my purposes why was i born av wasted most of my life because of mental health and the fact i cant work or take care of myself am a failure my mother is ashamed of me am selfish most of the time and i hate myself even more i give myself such a hard time about things and am always negative about myself and my body am obese i have tried to lose weight i have an eating disorder where i either starve or binge i self injure but i cant stop doing this my husband has to lock everything i can harm myself away for my own safety including my medication am wasting my life away i am now 40 and i have no children and will be unable to have any why am i here ? what the point of my life

am nothing ...

May our Lord give you strength!

 

[Lily76_]

id like to thank you all for replying to me ...i want Jesus in my life but i know things are stopping me from having him in my life ...there is sin and there are issues that am finding hard to deal with
my body my relationships with people who i respect and love , i go to church every sunday with my husband who is kinda a new Christian he was Christensen when he was a baby but never learnt about his faith until 6 months ago all he wants to do about that is go to church , the church we go to is very relaxed and welcoming and the sermons are also good and my husband can understand it as it not in biblical terms you can even walk around during the service and children play drums and other musical things but its also LGBT and there are times i feel am not female and there are times when i feel male and i get confuses the pastor of the church is nice and he and the other pastors have helped me so much am even thinking about changing my gender to male and calling myself by a name that is male / female unisex name
i also feel like i want to be there and have even going through with joining and being a voting member of this church
i love them all but i think its why i cant feel anything is what i am doing wrong
i know that most of you will say its a sin but what do i do now i want to love Jesus like i should love him

 

[Chaplain David]

id like to thank you all for replying to me ...i want Jesus in my life but i know things are stopping me from having him in my life ...there is sin and there are issues that am finding hard to deal with
my body my relationships with people who i respect and love , i go to church every sunday with my husband who is kinda a new Christian he was Christensen when he was a baby but never learnt about his faith until 6 months ago all he wants to do about that is go to church , the church we go to is very relaxed and welcoming and the sermons are also good and my husband can understand it as it not in biblical terms you can even walk around during the service and children play drums and other musical things but its also LGBT

Your church sounds wonderful. The things you've expressed about how you feel and perhaps things that you have done can be transformed by God. Perhaps one of the things that He would support is "talk therapy" with a licensed therapist who is also a Christian. Counseling can be a wonderful way to get over the things that are bothering us both about ourselves and other people. I'm speaking from experience and believe strongly in counseling as a way to make headway and develop a deeper relationship with God.

The Ask a Chaplain Forum is a place that you can visit here but counseling outside of the forum can help in more in-depth ways.

Praying for you and also that God richly and abundantly blesses you and yours this day.

Faithfully,

 

[Johndowling]

When we do things we don't like or things happen to us that are hard and painful we need to pray to god. he literally is our strength in everything we do. I have been through some really dark times where I thought I was worthless and hade no purpose but I have put my faith and hope in god and day after day little by little my lifes getting better I fall down a lot everyone does but just like when Christ fell carrying the cross you have to pick up your cross and keep going. you can do this you can will see gods plan unravel but you have to be strong pray every day thank him for anything good that happens and when something bad happen still praise him likes its the best day of your life.another thing is nothing is better than helping those who need it so if your able spend time helping the unfortunate do charity work it is in giving in which we receive. I recently read a bible passage that said in hard times the lord is testing us to learn to depend only on him.
I will pray for you, don't give up you will get through this.

 

[Johndowling]

When we do things we don't like or things happen to us that are hard and painful we need to pray to god. he literally is our strength in everything we do. I have been through some really dark times where I thought I was worthless and hade no purpose but I have put my faith and hope in god and day after day little by little my lifes getting better I fall down a lot everyone does but just like when Christ fell carrying the cross you have to pick up your cross and keep going. you can do this you can will see gods plan unravel but you have to be strong pray every day thank him for anything good that happens and when something bad happen still praise him likes its the best day of your life.another thing is nothing is better than helping those who need it so if your able spend time helping the unfortunate do charity work it is in giving in which we receive. I recently read a bible passage that said in hard times the lord is testing us to learn to depend only on him.
I will pray for you, don't give up you will get through this.

 

[Johndowling]

When we do things we don't like or things happen to us that are hard and painful we need to pray to god. he literally is our strength in everything we do. I have been through some really dark times where I thought I was worthless and hade no purpose but I have put my faith and hope in god and day after day little by little my lifes getting better I fall down a lot everyone does but just like when Christ fell carrying the cross you have to pick up your cross and keep going. you can do this you can will see gods plan unravel but you have to be strong pray every day thank him for anything good that happens and when something bad happen still praise him likes its the best day of your life.another thing is nothing is better than helping those who need it so if your able spend time helping the unfortunate do charity work it is in giving in which we receive. I recently read a bible passage that said in hard times the lord is testing us to learn to depend only on him.
I will pray for you, don't give up you will get through this.

 

[Lily76_]

sorry i pressed send before i could finish my last part of my post
there are times i feel am not female and there are times when i feel male and i get confuses the pastor of the church is nice and he and the other pastors have helped me so much am even thinking about changing my gender to male and calling myself by a name that is male / female unisex name
i also feel like i want to be there and have even going through with joining and being a voting member of this church
i love them all but i think its why i cant feel anything is what i am doing wrong
i know that most of you will say its a sin but what do i do now i want to love Jesus like i should love him

 

[lastofall]

"The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit." (Psalms 34:18)

" And I said, My strength and my hope is perished from the LORD: Remembering mine affliction and my misery..My soul hath them still in remembrance, and is humbled in me. This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope. It is of the LORD'S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness." (Lamentations 3:18-23)

"I called upon thy name, O LORD, out of the low dungeon. Thou hast heard my voice: hide not thine ear at my breathing, at my cry. Thou drewest near in the day that I called upon thee: thou saidst, Fear not." (Lamentations 3:55-57)

"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." (Matthew 11:28-30)

"We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed." (2 Corinthians 4:8-9)

"For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory." (2 Corinthians 4:17)

"For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ." (2 Corinthians 1:5)

"Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ's sufferings. (1 Peter 4:12-13)

"But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you." (1 Peter 5:10)

"In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. (John 16:33)

 

[Catherineanne]

i want to be like other people who are passionate about Jesus who love Jesus with out question who loves him like he was a close loved one or even much more than that
i feel that i am incapable of such feeling i want to learn how to love myself most of the time i feel empty dont want to feel like this i see my dr on Monday and i have a psych appointment on the 17 th of august
the medication am on i have been taking it for a short time sometimes it need to wait until av been on it a few months but i will be talking about medication .
thank you all for replying

No problem. And yes, medication takes a while to work.

As for wanting to feel passionate about Jesus; I am afraid the depression will get in the way of any such feelings at the moment. The trick is to behave as if you love him, regardless of your feelings.

Just do the next thing you have to do and you will get there. Good luck with the doctors.

 

[Catherineanne]

sorry i pressed send before i could finish my last part of my post
there are times i feel am not female and there are times when i feel male and i get confuses the pastor of the church is nice and he and the other pastors have helped me so much am even thinking about changing my gender to male and calling myself by a name that is male / female unisex name
i also feel like i want to be there and have even going through with joining and being a voting member of this church
i love them all but i think its why i cant feel anything is what i am doing wrong
i know that most of you will say its a sin but what do i do now i want to love Jesus like i should love him

I wouldn't worry about the gender issue at the moment; there really is no such thing as separate male or female feelings; they overlap far more than we often realise.

Sort out the depression first, and the rest can follow.