I stepped out on God. I was married to my husband for 25 years when it happened. I started into an online affair with an old coworker. Then it turned physical. We only met three times in the two years the affair lasted. It wasn't really a love affair. I admit I fell for him the first few months but after the second time we had sex I was ready to end it. But I didn't know how. I was scared to. He basically used me for sex and dirty pictures. My husband found out and was devistated. I couldn't believe I hurt my husband so much. I am so sorry, ashamed and humiliated. I have asked him and God for forgiveness. I am doing everything I can think of to fix my mistake. But my husband read our text messages and saw the pictures. We are going to M/C and things are looking up. But the text messages took a toll on his ego. My affair partner wasn't great in bed. But he always asked Everytime he texted and I just played along and I would tell him he was good. My husband never got over that. My husband is by far a better lover but this just killed his sexual ego. It's been 2 1/2 years now and he still has break downs. Depression. I feel so bad about this. What can I do or say to him to help him? We never had any problems in the bedroom. But now he feels second best. I can't take it anymore. I need to do or say something to help but I can't think of anything. How can I make him feel he's better than the jerk I had an affair with? It's like he has lost his manhood which I understand I am to blame for that. I pray every night God will heal us. This was all my fault and I'm lost on what to do.