I need some advice.
My wife and I have been married for almost 14 years, and I have not been faithful to her for a single 12 month period. We have 3 children together between ages 6 and 11. She knows of all the times I have cheated, and chose to remain for any number of reasons. I love this woman, and she loves me, but the problem is that I never been able to gain victory over sins of the flesh. I’ve done all I know to do, gave my life to Jesus (before we got married actually) I‘ve had accountability partners, counseling, confession, prayer, fasting, yielding to the Sprit, and none of it seems to work. I told my wife that she should divorce me, because I’m pretty confident that a person like me cannot be saved by God. The problem is that she has very few options, and that makes me sad because I did this to her. At any rate, I know she is not willing to be in a non-monogamous relationship, and I told her that I would never lie to her again. I want to stay married, and one day I will make a really good husband, and that will be the day I get some self-control, because I have none. I tried to kill self at the Cross of Jesus, but that didn’t help either. Self-denial is not a strong point.
What should I do? I want other partners and she doesn’t. I want my marriage, but God won’t take away this evil desire for other women, and I cannot take it away myself. I know this sounds like I’m blaming God, but I’m not. I take the full blame….But God never once gave me the strength to overcome when I asked him to….Not one time, and that is supposed to be one of the benefits of Salvation, freedom from the power of sin. I’m so messed up.
She can’t afford to move and neither can I. I told her that I would move into the attic if she wanted to leave me. I still advise her to leave, but it seems like she wants to stick around. She can see the effort I put in to try and make myself a good husband. I do all the things a husband should do except for one. The only thing I cannot do is be monogamous.
Jesus Help Me please.
You say you love her but I don't think you do, if you loved her I don't think you ever would have cheated.
Study the bible maybe you'll learn what love is, it's not selfish.
Matthew chapter 4 verse 4
Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'"
Romans chapter 1 verse 28
Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done.
John chapter 8 verse 31,32
To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, " If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
2 John
9 Anyone who runs ahead and does not continue in the teaching of Christ does not have God; whoever continues in the teaching has both the Father and the Son.
Job chapter 23 verse 12
I have not departed from the commands of his lips; I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my daily bread.
Matthew 11
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Luke chapter 21
33 Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.
Romans chapter 10
17 Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word about Christ.
Mark chapter 13
31 Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.
James chapter 1
25 But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.
James chapter 4
8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
Isaiah chapter 45 verse 19
I have not spoken in secret, from somewhere in a land of darkness; I have not said to Jacob's descendants, 'Seek me in vain.' I, the LORD, speak the truth; I declare what is right.
Jeremiah chapter 9
24 but let the one who boasts boast about this:
that they have the understanding to know me,
that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,
for in these I delight,”
declares the Lord.
Jeremiah chapter 5 verse 1
5 “Go up and down the streets of Jerusalem,
look around and consider,
search through her squares.
If you can find but one person
who deals honestly and seeks the truth,
I will forgive this city.