Have you ever been angry at god?

[Crystalp8]

This is hands down the best comment! No judgement from crotchety old men!! No judgement from self rightious hypocrites who believe they're sole purpose is to wage holy war via internet. Lol I wish I had that kind of time on my hands. Keep on keeping on oh holy crusaders of of the world wide web! Keep working to change the world one beligerant post at a time

I really shouldn't have that attitude either. Lord forgive me. Wow I have alot of work to do on me. Well the Lord has alot of work to do on me too lol

 

[Crystalp8]

Yes, i've been furious with God and i've wrestled with Him and gone through the entire Psalms with Him, like David, but even more intense. i honestly HAD to. I was like Jacob, and desperate. I was like a spooked horse. And He knew it, and He saw beyond my words and actions, and panic, and flailing, and saw my need. And THAT is what He saw, and focused on. He knew it was because of searing and inexplicable pain.

He HEARS you precious. He LOVES you. Praying that He ministers to you as only He can and heals every place you hurt. I'm so thankful that you found your way to CF. You're not alone. Our heavenly Father loves ALL of hIs daughters in all of our stages of hurting and healing. His shoulders a bigger than ours, and He sees beyond our manifestations of excruciating pain and sees our need. Lifting you up to our Father, precious. (((hug)))

I wish I could like this 473635252 times on here lol!! I like your attitude & spirit too! God bless you & I really mean that!!

 

[brinny]

I wish I could like this 473635252 times on here lol!! I like your attitude & spirit too! God bless you & I really mean that!!

Awwww thank you, sister....we're all in this together. I suspect that God is going to be pouring blessings on you like rain soon. He sees your precious heart for Him and that you've been telling Him ev'ry thing, even the painful stuff....and THAT is very precious to Him. He saves ALL of our tears in a bottle, every-single-one. He KNOWS our struggles and the pain that is sometimes in inexplicable layers. He is soooo precious. He can remove layer after layer, in His timing. He's GOT you. Praying, precious (((hug)))

 

[Crystalp8]

Awwww thank you, sister....we're all in this together. I suspect that God is going to be pouring blessings on you like rain soon. He sees your precious heart for Him and that you've been telling Him ev'ry thing, even the painful stuff....and THAT is very precious to Him. He saves ALL of our tears in a bottle, every-single-one. He KNOWS our struggles and the pain that is sometimes in inexplicable layers. He is soooo precious. He can remove layer after layer, in His timing. He's GOT you. Praying, precious (((hug)))

That brought a little tear to my eye. BIG HUGS to you dear soul!! God bless you

 

[brinny]

That brought a little tear to my eye. BIG HUGS to you dear soul!! God bless you

May God gather you in His big ol' arms and hug you dear heart (((hug)))

I was just listening to this song and i thought i'd share it.....

 

[sunshineforJesus]

Yes, i've been furious with God and i've wrestled with Him and gone through the entire Psalms with Him, like David, but even more intense. i honestly HAD to. I was like Jacob, and desperate. I was like a spooked horse. And He knew it, and He saw beyond my words and actions, and panic, and flailing, and saw my need. And THAT is what He saw, and focused on. He knew it was because of searing and inexplicable pain.

He HEARS you precious. He LOVES you. Praying that He ministers to you as only He can and heals every place you hurt. I'm so thankful that you found your way to CF. You're not alone. Our heavenly Father loves ALL of hIs daughters in all of our stages of hurting and healing. His shoulders a bigger than ours, and He sees beyond our manifestations of excruciating pain and sees our need. Lifting you up to our Father, precious. (((hug)))

I am so proud of you and your love for God is such an inspiration.

 

[brinny]

I am so proud of you and your love for God is such an inspiration.

Awwwww thank you. It's been a bumpy ride, sis. If there's hope for me, there's hope for anyone.

 

[sunshineforJesus]

You're so welcome and I agree,Gods seen me through many struggles and
I feel I have grown so much through them.

 

[Crystalp8]

May God gather you in His big ol' arms and hug you dear heart (((hug)))

I was just listening to this song and i thought i'd share it.....

I love this song!!! I'm a little sad that new member thinks I have to be alone now since I've been divorced. The divorce was out of my control. I know I've talked about it alot,& a relationship isn't my main "goal". But when you've made your family the center of earthly priorities for more than 20 years & suddenly it's all gone... Its very hard to learn to be alone. But I talk to the Lord about this everyday. And that on top of what I've endured the past 2 years...AND living with severe depression,anxiety disorder & PTSD....I will admit I find myself calling on the Lord to just go home more than I should. It's hard. I just had my second trip to the hospital this evening. Over the kidney stone I passed last week. I've lost over 25 pounds in 5 weeks. I don't sleep good at night yet. I feel like my body is shutting down from heartache. I have a job I work hard at with little food or sleep. Not to say I have no access to food. I just can't will myself to eat I'll admit I smoke ciggs. I so wish I never started,but I'm over a pack a day now. I talk to the Lord about it. And as hard as it is,as hard as my flesh wants to give into fear,anger,suicide & just plain hopelessness... somehow,from somewhere in the back in the far reaching corners of my mind,I still find the strength to get up & give it just one more day....I think to myself "today may be the day the Lord decides my trial is over"....it usually ends up with going to bed with the only companion I seem to have lately...my tears. I hate it too. The idea of self pity. I wish my mind was stronger than what it is. But I'll keep on getting out of bed knowing this may be the day! I can't wait to praise God for that!

 

[brinny]

I love this song!!! I'm a little sad that new member thinks I have to be alone now since I've been divorced. The divorce was out of my control. I know I've talked about it alot,& a relationship isn't my main "goal". But when you've made your family the center of earthly priorities for more than 20 years & suddenly it's all gone... Its very hard to learn to be alone. But I talk to the Lord about this everyday. And that on top of what I've endured the past 2 years...AND living with severe depression,anxiety disorder & PTSD....I will admit I find myself calling on the Lord to just go home more than I should. It's hard. I just had my second trip to the hospital this evening. Over the kidney stone I passed last week. I've lost over 25 pounds in 5 weeks. I don't sleep good at night yet. I feel like my body is shutting down from heartache. I have a job I work hard at with little food or sleep. Not to say I have no access to food. I just can't will myself to eat I'll admit I smoke ciggs. I so wish I never started,but I'm over a pack a day now. I talk to the Lord about it. And as hard as it is,as hard as my flesh wants to give into fear,anger,suicide & just plain hopelessness... somehow,from somewhere in the back in the far reaching corners of my mind,I still find the strength to get up & give it just one more day....I think to myself "today may be the day the Lord decides my trial is over"....it usually ends up with going to bed with the only companion I seem to have lately...my tears. I hate it too. The idea of self pity. I wish my mind was stronger than what it is. But I'll keep on getting out of bed knowing this may be the day! I can't wait to praise God for that!

Know what i had to learn? And it was our precious Father's inexplicable grace, that i had to learn to stop beating myself up....sheeeesh, i had ENOUGH comin at me LOL! God had to stop me in me tracks and just give me the unction to "be still, just stop and be still". Hardest thing i ever had to learn....well maybe not...my self-loathing was pretty powerful. He was sooooo patient with me, through it all. I used to struggle with the same things....stress, work, not eating, hardly any sleep, repeat. Good grief, i think i had what i call "hurry sickness"...i mean i never slowed down. THEN He stepped in. I was getting ready for work and in a tizzy cuz i was panicked about being late, and it''s like He said to me "what are you doing?" and i said i'm getting ready for work...and He chuckled (not audibly....but in my spirit He did) and i stopped dead in my tracks, and had to chuckle because i realized that His silly daughter was runnin' around like a chicken with her head cut off LOL!

And dear sis....He's not mad at you for smoking. You keep your eyes on Him, smoking n' all, while He works this all out. And He will, in His timing. Praying that He calms you, quiets your heart, mind, and spirit, and that He imparts His peace and joy to you, and commences to healing you everywhere you hurt. He is a GOOD Father, and He LOVES you. Praying (((hug)))

 

[brinny]

You're so welcome and I agree,Gods seen me through many struggles and
I feel I have grown so much through them.

He DOES. He is a GOOD God, and He will see us through whatever it is that we are struggling with. I'm reminded of butterlies and how there is a season for them to struggle, and it is something they MUST do, and then a NEW chapter begins in their journey. There's a semblance of WINGS developing and growing, and THEN they un-fold. And what a glorious creature emerges from that cocoon that they struggled so desperately in. Who'd a thunk that this is what God was developing in that cocoon?

 

[Crystalp8]

Know what i had to learn? And it was our precious Father's inexplicable grace, that i had to learn to stop beating myself up....sheeeesh, i had ENOUGH comin at me LOL! God had to stop me in me tracks and just give me the unction to "be still, just stop and be still". Hardest thing i ever had to learn....well maybe not...my self-loathing was pretty powerful. He was sooooo patient with me, through it all. I used to struggle with the same things....stress, work, not eating, hardly any sleep, repeat. Good grief, i think i had what i call "hurry sickness"...i mean i never slowed down. THEN He stepped in. I was getting ready for work and in a tizzy cuz i was panicked about being late, and it''s like He said to me "what are you doing?" and i said i'm getting ready for work...and He chuckled (not audibly....but in my spirit He did) and i stopped dead in my tracks, and had to chuckle because i realized that His silly daughter was runnin' around like a chicken with her head cut off LOL!

And dear sis....He's not mad at you for smoking. You keep your eyes on Him, smoking n' all, while He works this all out. And He will, in His timing. Praying that He calms you, quiets your heart, mind, and spirit, and that He imparts His peace and joy to you, and commences to healing you everywhere you hurt. He is a GOOD Father, and He LOVES you. Praying (((hug)))

Exactly! Thank you sweet sis! I wish you were close enough for me to hug your neck!! And you are just too right!! I know deep down in my heart the Lord will work things out. But the "waiting" on that is the head part. Today in the hospital,I had a friend come by. We talked for a while. Pretty much about the same thing we are now. And I made a similar thing to him....I really wish the Lord would come down here & just shake some sense into me lol. I believe I'm usually my own worst enemy. But I'm working on that everyday

 

[brinny]

Exactly! Thank you sweet sis! I wish you were close enough for me to hug your neck!! And you are just too right!! I know deep down in my heart the Lord will work things out. But the "waiting" on that is the head part. Today in the hospital,I had a friend come by. We talked for a while. Pretty much about the same thing we are now. And I made a similar thing to him....I really wish the Lord would come down here & just shake some sense into me lol. I believe I'm usually my own worst enemy. But I'm working on that everyday

hahaaa i can relate...it's funny that you say that because i was really my worst enemy too. And God had to tell me to just "stop it...stop it....stop!" The funny thing is He used humor.....He knows us all so well....He KNEW i was tooo toooo damaged to come at me all wrong. I had ARMOR, mon and i would'a used it against Him LOL! Like i said, i was like a spooked horse, and He, knowing me, was ever so gentle and patient...cuz He knew if i ever slowed down, i'd be able to grasp Him as my Father, and that i could TRUST Him, and that He LOVES me.

Dear sis, if He can do that with me, there's hope fer EV'RY BODY.

 

[sunshineforJesus]

He DOES. He is a GOOD God, and He will see us through whatever it is that we are struggling with. I'm reminded of butterlies and how there is a season for them to struggle, and it is something they MUST do, and then a NEW chapter begins in their journey. There's a semblance of WINGS developing and growing, and THEN they un-fold. And what a glorious creature emerges from that cocoon that they struggled so desperately in. Who'd a thunk that this is what God was developing in that cocoon?

You know Buterflys have a special meaning to me,as they remind
me of how we are ugly in sin,and than as God transforms us we are beautiful in his sight!

 

[brinny]

You know Buterflys have a special meaning to me,as they remind
me of how we are ugly in sin,and than as God transforms us we are beautiful in his sight!

Yes, i remember. And i agree. They have the same significance for me too.....AND they never ever "rush"

 

[brinny]

Just signed back on to share this song that automatically started playing after the other one i was listening to....i was gonna stop it, but the LYRICS gripped me. Another beautiful song.

G'nite

 

[brinny]

Another song (((hug)))

 

[Dave G.]

I've had a very bad past 2 years. Your welcome to check my very first fourm discussion,anyway,today at work,I found myself being very angry with God. Again,the reason why can be read in my first post. I'm wondering if anyone else has ever found themselves feeling this way? As Christian's,I guess most of us would quickly dismiss thoughts instantly,for fear of being punished by him for feeling that way? God created humans with the ability to feel emotions. The bible says that God had felt angry many times in the Bible. I've read stories of Jonah being upset with God. jesus was angry when he chaised the money changers out of the temple. He even became physical turning over tables & such. I'm ready for bed now after a long day. I'm tired but have calmed down. And now I feel bad for being mad with God. Of course I've prayed & told him I am sorry & asked for forgiveness. But like I said,have any of you experienced these feelings? Do you think god understands when we get mad at him?

I suspect He is pretty used to people becoming angry with Him. But to answer your question about me personally with the long form answer: I don't recall ever getting mad with God but rather turning to his Son in my worst time of need. The short answer to your question is , no. But the short answer doesn't reflect what is needed in our worst times, what is needed is a close relationship with the Son.

Incidentally, rather than anger with Him I like to say to him that I don't understand your ways but I'm trusting you. He knows we don't understand all of His ways. Be truthful, your anger is a from a lack of understanding Him..

 

[brinny]

Another song, sis...praying (((hug)))

 

[Crystalp8]

Another song, sis...praying (((hug)))

Thank you sweet sis. Had the Lord been wispering in your ear about me lol? Thank you for knowing I need this. Yanno,I really like you!