what are you feeling right now? (24)

[TimAM]

I wish people would be considerate of other people's feelings, especially when they say hurtful things after you've tried hard for them.

 

[TimAM]

I just got back in from a long walk. I was so upset that I had to get out. Starting to feel overwhelmed. Facing two old enemies tonight:

1. Rejection.... I've faced a lot of rejection and because of some things happening recently (feelings hurt), a lot of the old rejection thoughts came flooding back.

2. The feeling of everyone passing me in life. I know people younger than me that are married, have a house, car, having kids, etc. I know this is not my standard. My standard is Christ, but sometimes it's hard to not think about these things.

Facing some other enemies as well, but those are two that are the main focus at the moment. Still worried about my brother also. They can't figure out what's wrong with him.

Trying to re-focus my mind on good things and asking God for forgiveness for thinking negatively. But, it's just hard tonight.

Think I'm going to go for another long walk after I post this. I'm still really upset.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

I have that paranoid feeling again. I wonder if one of them followed mom home.

Told dad I'm sure this place is haunted. Told him ghosts do arrive unannounced. And they're even more curious about people who crossed the line but came back.

But my animals don't seem to be bothered.

 

[Press On]

I have that paranoid feeling again. I wonder if one of them followed mom home.

Told dad I'm sure this place is haunted. Told him ghosts do arrive unannounced. And they're even more curious about people who crossed the line but came back.

But my animals don't seem to be bothered.

Historically, animals are extremely sensitive to spirits in general but especially malevolent spirits. I think it's something else.

 

[Press On]

I just got back in from a long walk. I was so upset that I had to get out. Starting to feel overwhelmed. Facing two old enemies tonight:

1. Rejection.... I've faced a lot of rejection and because of some things happening recently (feelings hurt), a lot of the old rejection thoughts came flooding back.

2. The feeling of everyone passing me in life. I know people younger than me that are married, have a house, car, having kids, etc. I know this is not my standard. My standard is Christ, but sometimes it's hard to not think about these things.

Facing some other enemies as well, but those are two that are the main focus at the moment. Still worried about my brother also. They can't figure out what's wrong with him.

Trying to re-focus my mind on good things and asking God for forgiveness for thinking negatively. But, it's just hard tonight.

Think I'm going to go for another long walk after I post this. I'm still really upset.

I don't for one minute minimize or trivialize what you are experiencing. Invasive unwanted thoughts, whether actual memories or fears, is a common problem for people on this forum.

I fight them by training my mind a little at a time to reject these intrusions. Realize, Tim, that you are a child of the King, and these attacks are from a bully and a hater that wants you destroyed.

Many times a day I often say something to to effect "By the power of the Helper and Comforter, the Holy Spirit, I reject these thoughts and notions. They are to my detriment and destruction. They raise blood pressure, heart rate, hamper clear thinking and reasoning, cause anger and turmoil.

These things are the enemy...from the enemy. By the blood of Christ I reject these things. They have no power over me unless I allow it. Forgive me, Lord, for allowing my weakness to give these things a foothold. Let me appropriate all the love , power and goodness you offer in place of these destructive forces.

I pray to the best of my abiity for the persons who have hurt, threatened, abused or cheated me in the past. They are accountable to You. Let me not allow them to live in my head rent free and control my life from afar.

Let my mind and heart be flooded with images and thoughts of the good, pure and godly things of your creation.

Thank you, Lord, for this privilege."

It gets a little better each time, Tim. The thoughts leave just a bit more quickly but will always return to try again.

Think to yourself: "These things upsetting me are mere shadows; electronic impulses generated by the brain. Why allow them to set the bar for my mood and the way I look at life right now?"

If there is a problem besetting you that you can actually address and do something about, then by all means tackle it after careful thought. The things you can't do anything about.....dismiss them. They steal your precious time and energy.

Going for a walk is a good thing for you to do, Tim. I myself intend to hit the gym and pound away on the drums later. Gets my mind off stuff. Also quiet time and Scripture reading is on the agenda.

Yes, there is an issue of great importance to me of which I tend to fear the outcome. This is my battle today. I fight the tendancy to get depressed and give up. I must follow my own advice today. And I will.

Please hang in there, brother. Victories are hard won, but they do come.

My prayers for not only you but your brother as well.

 

[SeekerOfChrist94]

Feeling really panicked and sad.

 

[Jeshu]

I've been struggling with aggression again, though so far so good, it is still a real drag feeling angry all the time. I suppose I have ample time to repent of my sharp tongue if it was only in my head. I hate how unfair and unjust I can become in my thoughts in response to when people treat me badly. Picking up on their vibes and let the enemy capitalize their wrongs I always think when I see myself doing that. For the devil surely loves supply on demand when it comes to fueling wrong like that.

However yesterday though I burst a few times within, overall I was able to bring all my hurtful and angry thoughts and feelings to Jesus and let Him give me more self control, love and forgiveness to rule my heart instead of making things worse going of my trolley.

How is everyone else?

 

[TimAM]

Tonight has been much better. Though there is a little bit of anger beneath the surface. Just finished praying and giving it to God. I've been knocked off course the past few days. Need to correct it.

 

[SeekerOfChrist94]

I'm kind of doing okay. My head feels like it's splitting in two but emotionally I think I'm alright.

 

[Human Sacrifice]

My body aches like it has for the past 10 years. I just realized how people will say how easy it was to treat others nicely while I burned alone with psychological cancer. Now I have done it. I marked my neighbors shoes with my spit and was not allowed to buff it out. Now he is a furious god.

 

[SeekerOfChrist94]

I had coffee this morning so I'm feeling pretty shaky. Also worried about some things. And tired. I'm feeling everything today.

 

[Jeshu]

In a bad place and hurting it badly right now.

Revelation 14:17-20
Another angel came out of the temple in heaven, and he too had a sharp sickle. Still another angel, who had charge of the fire, came from the altar and called in a loud voice to him who had the sharp sickle, “Take your sharp sickle and gather the clusters of grapes from the earth’s vine, because its grapes are ripe.” The angel swung his sickle on the earth, gathered its grapes and threw them into the great winepress of God’s wrath. They were trampled in the winepress outside the city, and blood flowed out of the press, rising as high as the horses’ bridles for a distance of 1,600 stadia.

 

[TimAM]

Feeling a little bit of anxiety and sadness, but no where near at the level it was at a few days ago.

 

[SeekerOfChrist94]

Feeling sick and extremely tired. I didn't sleep well last night and my body woke me up an hour before my alarm clock went off.

 

[gerbilwoman]

Feeling sick and extremely tired. I didn't sleep well last night and my body woke me up an hour before my alarm clock went off.

I hope you feel better soon.

 

[SeekerOfChrist94]

I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you. I'm feeling better after a 2 hour nap.

 

[Jeshu]

I let in so much darkness, let it overcome my light, am not good like Jesus who overcame it all in just three days, I've been at it for years and still down on the bottom of it.

There is as time to live and a time to die - die already I reckon when I think about how is. Things could be so much better. Why do I let the darkness in? Why betray my own existence? It tears me apart seeing The Truth hurt my reality, though I find enormous comfort to be on His side suffering this. Woe those who enjoy evil their torture will endure forever!

 

[Jeshu]

Feeling very nauseated at the moment, been battling non-stop dying to myself, a very hard undertaking by the looks of it.

I know I'm full of lies because a life long battle with psychosis has made sure of that, there is only one Way I know how to proceed and that is eat The Word, but He is turning my waters bitter and my fresh water streams toxic, it doesn't matter where i turn He surrounds me with the truth of the lies that live in me talk about a fiery furnace!

(The king is furious seeing four horns instead of the three he has been idolizing! ( Zechariah 1:18-21, Daniel 7:8)

It all starts making sense.

I better get on my knees quickly.

Micah 7:8-20
Do not gloat over me, my enemy!
Though I have fallen, I will rise.
Though I sit in darkness,
the Lord will be my light.
Because I have sinned against him,
I will bear the Lord’s wrath,
until he pleads my case
and upholds my cause.
He will bring me out into the light;
I will see his righteousness.
Then my enemy will see it
and will be covered with shame,
she who said to me,
“Where is the Lord your God?”
My eyes will see her downfall;
even now she will be trampled underfoot
like mire in the streets.


The day for building your walls will come,
the day for extending your boundaries.
In that day people will come to you
from Assyria and the cities of Egypt,
even from Egypt to the Euphrates
and from sea to sea
and from mountain to mountain.
The earth will become desolate because of its inhabitants,
as the result of their deeds.



Shepherd your people with your staff,
the flock of your inheritance,
which lives by itself in a forest,
in fertile pasturelands.
Let them feed in Bashan and Gilead
as in days long ago.


“As in the days when you came out of Egypt,
I will show them my wonders.”


Nations will see and be ashamed,
deprived of all their power.
They will put their hands over their mouths
and their ears will become deaf.
They will lick dust like a snake,
like creatures that crawl on the ground.
They will come trembling out of their dens;
they will turn in fear to the Lord our God
and will be afraid of you.
Who is a God like you,
who pardons sin and forgives the transgression
of the remnant of his inheritance?
You do not stay angry forever
but delight to show mercy.
You will again have compassion on us;
you will tread our sins underfoot
and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea.
You will be faithful to Jacob,
and show love to Abraham,
as you pledged on oath to our ancestors
in days long ago.

 

[Jeshu]

Feeling unbelievable grateful that Jesus died for my sins, for where would I be if He hadn't done that? I be in Hell now instead of sweating it out.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

I think I might pick up a second job.