For the past two weeks I have been having panic attacks, fear and a troubled heart. I noticed it gets worse when I read my Bible or listen to John Hagee. I am wondering if this is an attack by Satan.
Awww sister
Don't be afraid but trust God! Yes, this is the devil's work. Ever since you came here with your faith and enthusiasm to represent God so boldly, he has been trying to find out how to break you, to stop you from growing in The Lord's strength! But you must be strong.
Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for our sister Jacqueline. She's so pure in heart, and she's struggling now because she's walked right into a battleground and she doesn't really know all that's going on. So we do thank you for her humbleness, that she is able to reach out for help at this time. We ask that you'll really strengthen her with a sense of calmness and peace, and being able to totally relax in the security that you are there for her. Lord, she's learning so fast, it's as though she's suddenly wandered into the middle of a war zone and she had no idea! But Lord, we know that you've equipped her with a good knowledge of the scriptures and a beautiful heart, and that you are with her to protect her from anybody who would try to harm her because she doesn't deserve that. So we commit her walk to your hands, thanking you for being who you are: loyal, righteous, good, loving, wise, fatherly and strong. We ask that you will guide me as I offer words to help her grow in maturity and learn the skill of wielding those weapons of conflict that are in her hands, so that she doesn't need to tremble amidst the battle, but that she can stand upright in valour - looking with a mighty power at everything that is going on around her, completely untouchable because the breastplate of her righteousness is impenetrable. We thank you Lord for your faithfulness and we trust in your work toward her swift recovery in Jesus' name, Amen.
You know, Jesus said that we must possess our soul by endurance.. Then, what is meant by this? Endurance is the attitude "I must keep going", so Jesus is saying that we must not give up in order that we may keep our very soul!
St. Paul writes of endurance in Romans 5:
We boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance (will you give up when you suffer, or will you keep going?).
Endurance produces character (how has your character been strengthened by the way you have already endured?).
Character produces hope (why? because the character that endurance produces, is the character of strength: a conqueror and an accomplished warrior).
And the hope does not disappoint us, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that He has given us.
Do you see this already? You are young of course, but think of the words in the famous song "Amazing Grace" :
Through many dangers, toils and snares, I have already come. It is grace that brought me safe thus far and grace will lead me home.
Grace: what is it? It is the strengthened character of The Holy Spirit (like a graceful dove).
So hang in there sister, because your endurance will result in your strengthened character of grace, and that is your salvation!
Isn't the LORD love and joy? How come then I have no love or no joy? Why don't I have any peace? Why can't I feel? What is wrong with me?
It is because you have resentment toward your mother. Jesus said "If you forgive others their sins, then your heavenly father will forgive you. But if you don't forgive others their sins, then your heavenly father will not forgive you." The enemy knows that when The Lord is unable to forgive us, then he has an opportunity attack us. So you must forgive your mother! Pray about those gospel booklets, God will open the door. Let your mother watch TV, and go find someone else who will join you on the mission! Move on and make the most of life! Accept what God has given you, and do not insist to get more than what He has provided if it does not readily come.
Jesus said "do not be anxious about anything, but seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness. Then all other things will be added to you. Do not worry about what tomorrow will bring, for every day has enough troubles of it's own. Do you see how beautiful those flowers are? Yet your father in heaven knows everything you need, and he will clothe you with majesty and grace. "
So, just leave your mum to be who she wants to be, and go ahead to do God's work with joy! Your mum is actually not stopping you, you know
Didn't she print off those gospel tracts for you already?
Wait on God for those booklets you have ordered. One day He will open the door for that too!
I know that Jesus said to not let our heart be troubled and to not be afraid, but I can't help it. I feel like someone is controlling me, manipulating my emotions and making me feel this way against my will. Is this demonic possession? I thought I was saved. Does this mean I am not saved? I thought demons couldn't possess Christians. I don't know anymore. Can they harm us in some way somehow?
Only as I have said, when they bring charges against us and God finds that they have a right to do so. Therefore be holy as your father in heaven is holy. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
Who are you to pass judgement on servants of another? It is before their own lord that they stand or fall. And they will be upheld, for the Lord is able to make them stand.
Romans 14:4
I think it is a supernatural attack but my mom thinks the problem is mental and she is taking me to mental health today. The problem with this is, I am not sure that the doctor I am going to see today is a believer, and she might think that everything that happens in the world can be explained away by natural means. They have given me medicine before, but nothing has helped me so far. This is why I don't think the cause is natural, if the medicine is not helping me. If it was, the medicine would have helped me.
Yes, it is demonic, but that doesn't mean that you should resist your mother or the doctors, because that would only work against you. Be kind to them, and truthful, respecting their knowledge, but not giving them any cause to worry. Trust in God's salvation and you will tell them with strength that it is simply a bit of a rough patch that you are going through while you are seeking to learn a proper coping mechanism.
The fact is that medicine does not heal, it is only counselling that can heal, because counselling is about finding and fixing the errors in our thought processes through correcting those false beliefs we have (things that we think are true but that actually aren't true). Medicine doesn't do this. Medicine only acts as a mental incapacitator to reduce the symptoms of the problems.
You actually need counselling by someone who can heal you with the right words of love. A priest will do this according to Christian theology, whereas a secular counsellor will not necessarily act to bring you closer to God - but a secular counsellor can still be useful to God for healing too, because it is love and truth that does the healing.
Not every counsellor nor every priest has an equal ability to heal, because not every priest and counsellor has love and truth.
I don't feel safe. I feel like these demons are hunting me and they want to kill me. It freaks me out really bad.
The Bible says that supernatural spirits exist in the world and that they influence the affairs of nations. Some of them are evil. This is what spiritual warfare is for.
Trust in God, for He is good!
It is good that one should wait quietly for the salvation of the Lord.
Lamentations 3:26
I have prayed about it a lot, but prayer is not working either. Its like GOD is turning a deaf ear to me.
Isaiah 59:1-3 came to mind when you said this. Sometimes when we are not repenting, but instead we are insisting "No, actually I was right and my Mom should have let me receive those booklets", then it is pride - you know? He keeps on saying "you already have those other tracts, go use those!" and you keep saying "No Mom, I hate you because you are working against God" - but actually she is innocent according to His law! She actually has reasonable fears for why she doesn't want to receive those booklets. But if you forgive her and use what you have, then The Lord will be empowered to heal her and to change her mind. You just watch, because that is what will happen. You cannot force these changes of your own energy though.
Commit your work to Adonai and your plans will prosper.
Proverbs 16:3
I don't understand His reasoning. Why would GOD want me to go through this trial and this hard time? I have also been tempted to sin, but I have resisted it with a lot of effort. Is Satan trying to tempt me? I must say that resisting temptation is no cakewalk.
He didn't desire it, but He did subject you to it so that you would grow stronger through it. This breaking point you have reached is enough to make you reach out desperately for help, and that has enabled a lot of helpful people to come forth with words of advice to you. I think that when God has finished His work in you, you will be much more equipped with wisdom and strength and the devil is going to flee from the very sight of you
Praise God!
Everywhere I read, the LORD says to rejoice. I don't feel joy or rejoicing.....
Awww sister, it's been two weeks already, I'm sorry I could have spoken sooner if I had known
Sing praises to the Lord, O you his faithful ones,
and give thanks to his holy name.
For his anger is but for a moment;
his favour is for a lifetime.
Weeping may linger for the night,
but joy comes with the morning.
Sing! Sing uplifting words! That will make you feel better
This is one of my favourites:
