I wanted to post this here because I realize that if I post it in on the "Christian Advice" forum I'll probably get advice from everyone but a Catholic. Most of that advice would be along the lines 'You don't need to confess your sins to a man. Confess them directly to Jesus". I feel no desire explain or debate confession therefore here I am.
First, let me preface this by saying I'm schizo-affective. I don't know if any of you know anything about this disease but suffice it to say it is basically like a combination schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. Anyways, one of the problems I have is that when I become maniac I get hyper sexual but since I'm bedbound I release that by looking at inappropriate content. More to the point is that I had recently gone to confession and that was one of the sins I sins I confessed. The problem? I had a manic episode and looked at inappropriate content. The worst part is I took is I took communion without going to confession. I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. For me to go to confession Father has to come to my apartment and with this being Lent I know he is extremely busy. I've prayed on this and the only thing I know to do is stop receiving communion until after I am able to go to confession. I'm just afraid that since I've committed a mortal sin if I passed before I go to confession I can't go to heaven. I'm, also, afraid I've committed a mortal sin by taking communion without going to confession. Very confused.
One other thing is I put software on my computer to help me with inappropriate content for times when I'm manic. It'll block the sites. I actually have to give the software permission to show the sites. I think that will help a hundred percent.
First, let me preface this by saying I'm schizo-affective. I don't know if any of you know anything about this disease but suffice it to say it is basically like a combination schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. Anyways, one of the problems I have is that when I become maniac I get hyper sexual but since I'm bedbound I release that by looking at inappropriate content. More to the point is that I had recently gone to confession and that was one of the sins I sins I confessed. The problem? I had a manic episode and looked at inappropriate content. The worst part is I took is I took communion without going to confession. I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do. For me to go to confession Father has to come to my apartment and with this being Lent I know he is extremely busy. I've prayed on this and the only thing I know to do is stop receiving communion until after I am able to go to confession. I'm just afraid that since I've committed a mortal sin if I passed before I go to confession I can't go to heaven. I'm, also, afraid I've committed a mortal sin by taking communion without going to confession. Very confused.
One other thing is I put software on my computer to help me with inappropriate content for times when I'm manic. It'll block the sites. I actually have to give the software permission to show the sites. I think that will help a hundred percent.