I feel like God hates me.

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I've talked to a lot of people who say God loves me, but I feel inside my heart that he hates me. No matter how many people I talk to I never feel any better. In my heart I have no love for God or Jesus and I feel like they have no love for me either.

The reason I feel this way is because I've been given magical signs and miracles that say I'm a terrible person.

I found a written list in my room of my worst sins, in my own handwriting. This list was an accusation. It made me feel like a terrible person.

There was also one time where I was handing out bibles to homeless people and I met a person who said he was an angel from God. He said his name was “Israel” and he wrote the bible. This person told me not to hand out bibles unless I read the bible avidly. I like the bible but I am not an avid reader. So he told me that I was like a hypocrite for handing out bibles when I don’t read it avidly.

So I feel like even though I tried to do good by handing out bibles they still hated me. I feel like no matter how many good deeds I do it will never be enough to make up for my sin.

I also found messages around the house telling me that I have to dig under the house where I live. There is a crawlspace under my house about 3 and 1/2 feet high. I hear a voice in my head that says I need to go into the crawlspace and dig underneath the house where I live, or else I will be buried alive there forever. He says that my “soul” or “resurrection body” is buried under the house where I live. However, I live with my parents and they have forbidden me to dig under the house. So I feel like I will be buried alive there forever.

The voice in my head tells me I’m going to be buried alive forever. He says God has no love for me and that is why he is going to bury me. Sometimes the voice says that they will dig up my coffin and throw it into the lake of fire.

All in all I feel hopeless. My only hope was to dig under the house where I live and now my parents have forbidden me to dig there. So I feel like there is no hope for me and I will be buried alive forever in the afterlife.

Like I said I’ve talked with numerous people who have told me God loves me in spite of these things. But for some reason I can’t believe it. Maybe it’s because I hear a voice that is constantly accusing me of things. I’ve had multiple exorcisms though and the voice will never go away. I feel like the voice is a very powerful demon and no one but God himself can cure it. However, no matter how much I pray God won’t cure it.

The voice says, "Let God cure you if he really loves you!" The voice mocks me and says that God is "paying him to torture me."
 
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I've talked to a lot of people who say God loves me, but I feel inside my heart that he hates me. No matter how many people I talk to I never feel any better. In my heart I have no love for God or Jesus and I feel like they have no love for me either.

The reason I feel this way is because I've been given magical signs and miracles that say I'm a terrible person.

I found a written list in my room of my worst sins, in my own handwriting. This list was an accusation. It made me feel like a terrible person.

There was also one time where I was handing out bibles to homeless people and I met a person who said he was an angel from God. He said his name was “Israel” and he wrote the bible. This person told me not to hand out bibles unless I read the bible avidly. I like the bible but I am not an avid reader. So he told me that I was like a hypocrite for handing out bibles when I don’t read it avidly.

So I feel like even though I tried to do good by handing out bibles they still hated me. I feel like no matter how many good deeds I do it will never be enough to make up for my sin.

I also found messages around the house telling me that I have to dig under the house where I live. There is a crawlspace under my house about 3 and 1/2 feet high. I hear a voice in my head that says I need to go into the crawlspace and dig underneath the house where I live, or else I will be buried alive there forever. He says that my “soul” or “resurrection body” is buried under the house where I live. However, I live with my parents and they have forbidden me to dig under the house. So I feel like I will be buried alive there forever.

The voice in my head tells me I’m going to be buried alive forever. He says God has no love for me and that is why Jesus is going to bury me. Sometimes the voice says that they will dig up my coffin and throw it into the lake of fire.

All in all I feel hopeless. My only hope was to dig under the house where I live and now my parents have forbidden me to dig there. So I feel like there is no hope for me and I will be buried alive forever in the afterlife.

Like I said I’ve talked with numerous people who have told me God loves me in spite of these things. But for some reason I can’t believe it. Maybe it’s because I hear a voice that is constantly accusing me of things. I’ve had multiple exorcisms though and the voice will never go away. I feel like the voice is a very powerful demon and no one but God himself can cure it. However, no matter how much I pray God won’t cure it. So I feel like God is on the demon’s side.

The voice says, "Let God cure you if he really loves you!" The voice mocks me and says that God is "paying him to torture me."


I feel you've been talking to the wrong people the ones that are simply telling you God loves you that is. James even says don't just tell people be blessed or peace hearted...but actually help with their problem, show faith by works, give advice, give money, etc.. You are being influenced by a seducing spirit like mentioned in 1 timothy. I would also pray against that spirit for you I can still pray for you though but just not face to face.

Also the guy claiming he's an angel I can't say much on that I wasn't there. However, I can say it is important to study the word of God though but I wouldn't say it's a hypocrisy to hand out bibles to those that need them. Even if you don't read a bible it doesn't hurt to give them out to those who maybe will take the yolk of jesus and learn of him..which is why I think the guy was just lying tbh but ye.


But yeah you're under the influence of a powerful seducing spirit right now, and you've had exorcisms you say as well. Seek God and look for someone to cast the demon out and pray over you. I suggest you look online for a good church in your area, of course I would recommend an apostolic/pentecostal church being sort of bias in a sense, also they are very reliable for that kind of thing, it's partly why seem chill about this situation, we've dealt with demons countless times back at the church, as well as done exorcisms. But any church that is following the apostles doctrine and is led by the spirit will be fine.

I'll keep you in my prayers man keep pushing.


ANd remember the bible says "God is love" he doesn't hate you and he isn't against you. The spirit just wants to convince you that that's true, IK this is hte case becuase I went through some things and had a similar voice in my head, not to the extent of yours though. But still something was there that convinced me God didn't want me to be saved yet or was on my side.
 
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I've felt totally similar in my life.

I felt like God could never forgive me or love me for the many things I've done. I guess the difference is I love Him, so it hurt more to feel a lack of forgiveness.

In a way, that is Satan using your own sin to turn you away from God.

If you read the Bible, it even says All men sin and fall short of the glory of God. It is sadly in our nature. However, we can make the choice to be believers and do our best to be Christ-like.

God loves EVERYONE, even those who don't know Him. He created us all with a reason and purpose. It may seem harder to do, but I really suggest praying more. Ask God to meet with you in your broken state. I speak from experience that it is harder to do than simply saying it, but God loves you even at your ugliest moments.

Also, if you want to check the Bible on something, consider reading the book of Job. Sometimes God has a purpose to our suffering.

I will pray for you as well.
 
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I've talked to a lot of people who say God loves me, but I feel inside my heart that he hates me.
I have a similar feeling. Until both of us believe that God truly loves us, we are not going to make any progress.
Don't go past this step until it hits home. All the other stuff doesn't make sense until we believe it.
Unconditional love is hard to comprehend. I still don't quite get it. But if we are adventurous to take a "leap of faith", things just may start to make sense.
Prayers for both of us.
 
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I've talked to a lot of people who say God loves me, but I feel inside my heart that he hates me. No matter how many people I talk to I never feel any better. In my heart I have no love for God or Jesus and I feel like they have no love for me either.

The reason I feel this way is because I've been given magical signs and miracles that say I'm a terrible person.

I found a written list in my room of my worst sins, in my own handwriting. This list was an accusation. It made me feel like a terrible person.

There was also one time where I was handing out bibles to homeless people and I met a person who said he was an angel from God. He said his name was “Israel” and he wrote the bible. This person told me not to hand out bibles unless I read the bible avidly. I like the bible but I am not an avid reader. So he told me that I was like a hypocrite for handing out bibles when I don’t read it avidly.

So I feel like even though I tried to do good by handing out bibles they still hated me. I feel like no matter how many good deeds I do it will never be enough to make up for my sin.

I also found messages around the house telling me that I have to dig under the house where I live. There is a crawlspace under my house about 3 and 1/2 feet high. I hear a voice in my head that says I need to go into the crawlspace and dig underneath the house where I live, or else I will be buried alive there forever. He says that my “soul” or “resurrection body” is buried under the house where I live. However, I live with my parents and they have forbidden me to dig under the house. So I feel like I will be buried alive there forever.

The voice in my head tells me I’m going to be buried alive forever. He says God has no love for me and that is why Jesus is going to bury me. Sometimes the voice says that they will dig up my coffin and throw it into the lake of fire.

All in all I feel hopeless. My only hope was to dig under the house where I live and now my parents have forbidden me to dig there. So I feel like there is no hope for me and I will be buried alive forever in the afterlife.

Like I said I’ve talked with numerous people who have told me God loves me in spite of these things. But for some reason I can’t believe it. Maybe it’s because I hear a voice that is constantly accusing me of things. I’ve had multiple exorcisms though and the voice will never go away. I feel like the voice is a very powerful demon and no one but God himself can cure it. However, no matter how much I pray God won’t cure it. So I feel like God is on the demon’s side.

The voice says, "Let God cure you if he really loves you!" The voice mocks me and says that God is "paying him to torture me."
God doesn't hate you or anyone else. Your parents need to find an M.D. Psychiatrist, Christian, who can oversee your recovery.
 
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I've talked to a lot of people who say God loves me, but I feel inside my heart that he hates me. No matter how many people I talk to I never feel any better. In my heart I have no love for God or Jesus and I feel like they have no love for me either.

The reason I feel this way is because I've been given magical signs and miracles that say I'm a terrible person.

I found a written list in my room of my worst sins, in my own handwriting. This list was an accusation. It made me feel like a terrible person.

There was also one time where I was handing out bibles to homeless people and I met a person who said he was an angel from God. He said his name was “Israel” and he wrote the bible. This person told me not to hand out bibles unless I read the bible avidly. I like the bible but I am not an avid reader. So he told me that I was like a hypocrite for handing out bibles when I don’t read it avidly.

So I feel like even though I tried to do good by handing out bibles they still hated me. I feel like no matter how many good deeds I do it will never be enough to make up for my sin.

I also found messages around the house telling me that I have to dig under the house where I live. There is a crawlspace under my house about 3 and 1/2 feet high. I hear a voice in my head that says I need to go into the crawlspace and dig underneath the house where I live, or else I will be buried alive there forever. He says that my “soul” or “resurrection body” is buried under the house where I live. However, I live with my parents and they have forbidden me to dig under the house. So I feel like I will be buried alive there forever.

The voice in my head tells me I’m going to be buried alive forever. He says God has no love for me and that is why Jesus is going to bury me. Sometimes the voice says that they will dig up my coffin and throw it into the lake of fire.

All in all I feel hopeless. My only hope was to dig under the house where I live and now my parents have forbidden me to dig there. So I feel like there is no hope for me and I will be buried alive forever in the afterlife.

Like I said I’ve talked with numerous people who have told me God loves me in spite of these things. But for some reason I can’t believe it. Maybe it’s because I hear a voice that is constantly accusing me of things. I’ve had multiple exorcisms though and the voice will never go away. I feel like the voice is a very powerful demon and no one but God himself can cure it. However, no matter how much I pray God won’t cure it. So I feel like God is on the demon’s side.

The voice says, "Let God cure you if he really loves you!" The voice mocks me and says that God is "paying him to torture me."

You hate yourself so you do not believe anyone else would love you.. You look upon God as being just another human being with a human beings type of love.. But Gods thoughts are not like our own,, He is not just some human being in the sky.. He is God..

Romans 5: KJV

7 "For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. {8} But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. {9} Much more then, being now justified by his blood, we shall be saved from wrath through him."
 
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I've talked to a lot of people who say God loves me, but I feel inside my heart that he hates me. No matter how many people I talk to I never feel any better. In my heart I have no love for God or Jesus and I feel like they have no love for me either.

The reason I feel this way is because I've been given magical signs and miracles that say I'm a terrible person.

I found a written list in my room of my worst sins, in my own handwriting. This list was an accusation. It made me feel like a terrible person.

There was also one time where I was handing out bibles to homeless people and I met a person who said he was an angel from God. He said his name was “Israel” and he wrote the bible. This person told me not to hand out bibles unless I read the bible avidly. I like the bible but I am not an avid reader. So he told me that I was like a hypocrite for handing out bibles when I don’t read it avidly.

So I feel like even though I tried to do good by handing out bibles they still hated me. I feel like no matter how many good deeds I do it will never be enough to make up for my sin.

I also found messages around the house telling me that I have to dig under the house where I live. There is a crawlspace under my house about 3 and 1/2 feet high. I hear a voice in my head that says I need to go into the crawlspace and dig underneath the house where I live, or else I will be buried alive there forever. He says that my “soul” or “resurrection body” is buried under the house where I live. However, I live with my parents and they have forbidden me to dig under the house. So I feel like I will be buried alive there forever.

The voice in my head tells me I’m going to be buried alive forever. He says God has no love for me and that is why Jesus is going to bury me. Sometimes the voice says that they will dig up my coffin and throw it into the lake of fire.

All in all I feel hopeless. My only hope was to dig under the house where I live and now my parents have forbidden me to dig there. So I feel like there is no hope for me and I will be buried alive forever in the afterlife.

Like I said I’ve talked with numerous people who have told me God loves me in spite of these things. But for some reason I can’t believe it. Maybe it’s because I hear a voice that is constantly accusing me of things. I’ve had multiple exorcisms though and the voice will never go away. I feel like the voice is a very powerful demon and no one but God himself can cure it. However, no matter how much I pray God won’t cure it.

The voice says, "Let God cure you if he really loves you!" The voice mocks me and says that God is "paying him to torture me."

There are two things I want to say:

1) The first is that it sounds to me like you need to see a medical professional because if you're hearing voices, or coming across notes in your own hand writing that you don't remember writing, then that indicates that you are unwell. There's no shame in that, if you contracted the flu, or some other disease going and getting medical treatment wouldn't be shameful, but the right decision.

2) The second is that yes, God does love you. There's no one who God doesn't love. There is little we can be absolutely confident of, but the love of God is one of those things we can: Jesus Christ is the evidence of the God who is love, and who loves you, and cares for you, and who pours Himself out for you.

Do get help, talk to someone, get the medical care and attention you need. If you belong to a church, talk to your pastor and see if they can point you in the right direction to seeing people trained in the field to give you the care, attention, and treatment you need. And God loves you, hold firm to that fact above all else.

The peace and love of God be with you, may the Spirit's comfort sustain you. In Christ's good and sweet name I pray.

-CryptoLutheran
 
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After we're saved, we need to renew our minds with His Word. (Rom 12:2)

Encourage you to think about Scriptures such as:

- Yahweh loves you with an everlasting love (John 3:16-17, Jer 31)
-"The spirit of God hath made me, and the breath of the Almighty hath given me life." Job 33:4
-'...even the very hairs of your head are all numbered." Luke 12:7 (that number is constantly changing)
- When we confess our sins, "...he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." I John 1:9
-"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end." Jer 29:11
-"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." Psa 46:1
- Psa 145

Agree to contact pastor and asks for help.
 
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If you feel that it is a very powerful demon then you need to not only pray but fast also to get rid of it.

Lord, have mercy on my son, for he is epileptic, and suffers grievously; for he often falls into the fire, and often into the water.16So I brought him to your disciples, and they could not cure him." 17Jesus answered, "Faithless and perverse generation! How long will I be with you? How long will I bear with you? Bring him here to me."18Jesus rebuked him, the demon went out of him, and the boy was cured from that hour.

19Then the disciples came to Jesus privately, and said, "Why weren't we able to cast it out?" 20He said to them, "Because of your unbelief. For most certainly I tell you, if you have faith as a grain of mustard seed, you will tell this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you. 21But this kind doesn't go out except by prayer and fasting."Matthew 17:15-21
 
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I've talked to a lot of people who say God loves me, but I feel inside my heart that he hates me. No matter how many people I talk to I never feel any better. In my heart I have no love for God or Jesus and I feel like they have no love for me either.

The reason I feel this way is because I've been given magical signs and miracles that say I'm a terrible person.

I found a written list in my room of my worst sins, in my own handwriting. This list was an accusation. It made me feel like a terrible person.

There was also one time where I was handing out bibles to homeless people and I met a person who said he was an angel from God. He said his name was “Israel” and he wrote the bible. This person told me not to hand out bibles unless I read the bible avidly. I like the bible but I am not an avid reader. So he told me that I was like a hypocrite for handing out bibles when I don’t read it avidly.

So I feel like even though I tried to do good by handing out bibles they still hated me. I feel like no matter how many good deeds I do it will never be enough to make up for my sin.

I also found messages around the house telling me that I have to dig under the house where I live. There is a crawlspace under my house about 3 and 1/2 feet high. I hear a voice in my head that says I need to go into the crawlspace and dig underneath the house where I live, or else I will be buried alive there forever. He says that my “soul” or “resurrection body” is buried under the house where I live. However, I live with my parents and they have forbidden me to dig under the house. So I feel like I will be buried alive there forever.

The voice in my head tells me I’m going to be buried alive forever. He says God has no love for me and that is why he is going to bury me. Sometimes the voice says that they will dig up my coffin and throw it into the lake of fire.

All in all I feel hopeless. My only hope was to dig under the house where I live and now my parents have forbidden me to dig there. So I feel like there is no hope for me and I will be buried alive forever in the afterlife.

Like I said I’ve talked with numerous people who have told me God loves me in spite of these things. But for some reason I can’t believe it. Maybe it’s because I hear a voice that is constantly accusing me of things. I’ve had multiple exorcisms though and the voice will never go away. I feel like the voice is a very powerful demon and no one but God himself can cure it. However, no matter how much I pray God won’t cure it.

The voice says, "Let God cure you if he really loves you!" The voice mocks me and says that God is "paying him to torture me."
Tell the silly voice to get lost. Really, what a bunch of lies! Satan is so dumb. Hes not THAT powerful. Put on loud worship music and everytime that voice tries to sneak a criticism of you just say 'I belong to God and the battle with enemy is already won. Jesus died for me and paid for my sin. Even if I die, I will be resurrected. satan and his demons will go to hell! It says in the Bible and you cant twist that around.

You are doing alright and God loves you. Satan is the accuser of the brethren. Just tell him you dont believe his lies and you believe in Jesus. Then he will go away. Confess with your mouth and believe in your heart that Jesus is Lord.

I reckon if you say it enough and write it down Jesus is Lord, it will declare to the demons theyve lost.
 
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I've talked to a lot of people who say God loves me, but I feel inside my heart that he hates me. No matter how many people I talk to I never feel any better. In my heart I have no love for God or Jesus and I feel like they have no love for me either.

The reason I feel this way is because I've been given magical signs and miracles that say I'm a terrible person.

I found a written list in my room of my worst sins, in my own handwriting. This list was an accusation. It made me feel like a terrible person.

There was also one time where I was handing out bibles to homeless people and I met a person who said he was an angel from God. He said his name was “Israel” and he wrote the bible. This person told me not to hand out bibles unless I read the bible avidly. I like the bible but I am not an avid reader. So he told me that I was like a hypocrite for handing out bibles when I don’t read it avidly.

So I feel like even though I tried to do good by handing out bibles they still hated me. I feel like no matter how many good deeds I do it will never be enough to make up for my sin.

I also found messages around the house telling me that I have to dig under the house where I live. There is a crawlspace under my house about 3 and 1/2 feet high. I hear a voice in my head that says I need to go into the crawlspace and dig underneath the house where I live, or else I will be buried alive there forever. He says that my “soul” or “resurrection body” is buried under the house where I live. However, I live with my parents and they have forbidden me to dig under the house. So I feel like I will be buried alive there forever.

The voice in my head tells me I’m going to be buried alive forever. He says God has no love for me and that is why he is going to bury me. Sometimes the voice says that they will dig up my coffin and throw it into the lake of fire.

All in all I feel hopeless. My only hope was to dig under the house where I live and now my parents have forbidden me to dig there. So I feel like there is no hope for me and I will be buried alive forever in the afterlife.

Like I said I’ve talked with numerous people who have told me God loves me in spite of these things. But for some reason I can’t believe it. Maybe it’s because I hear a voice that is constantly accusing me of things. I’ve had multiple exorcisms though and the voice will never go away. I feel like the voice is a very powerful demon and no one but God himself can cure it. However, no matter how much I pray God won’t cure it.

The voice says, "Let God cure you if he really loves you!" The voice mocks me and says that God is "paying him to torture me."

Sounds like you are in serious need of some Biblical counseling. Make an appointment with your Pastor today and if he does not do the counseling himself, ask him to share with you the name of a Biblical counselor local to you.
 
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If you're hearing legitimate voices, you need to see someone quick. There's nothing wrong with you and took me till just now to full get that God isn't out to get me,you or ybody...

In this world things just happen.
 
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God never created you in his image, in order to hate you. How can he hate you? He gave the most precious he ever had, and will have, Jesus his son, for your and my sins, because he loves us. And, most important, God is Love. He loves us not because of how holly lives we live, and how is our spiritual performance before him, but because of who he is. And he is Love.
 
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Hi All.
Please don't take this the wrong way but I Know for Certain that God hates me. All my life I have done the right thing, helped people, never disrespected people, never asked for any thing. Worked for everything I have, Paid my taxes paid other peoples bills not expecting anything in return and still I get kicked in the teeth every day, I'm sick of helping people and doing the right thing. From now on its all about me, I'm going to get my share and I'm not going to help any one any more, no more volunteering no more giving to charities no helping needy families they can get on with it by themselves.
I'm not asking for any help or anything, just please GOD stop kicking me in the teeth and leave me alone.
 
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