Desolation and Affliction

[Kenny'sID]

I cannot go to a doctor..too far away, no insurance, and when they discharged me I would be stranded on the streets as they will not provide transportation without insurance. So, that one is in Gods hands.

Do you have or do you qualify for medicaid? They provide transportation to and from the doc's in my state.

 

[Starcrystal]

Do you have or do you qualify for medicaid? They provide transportation to and from the doc's in my state.

Nope.... I get a pension but does not include health coverage.. not enough to afford covereage and private coverage won't include transportation...and is too much income to qualify for medicaid.... I don't have to pay the evil fine Obamacare makes low wage workers pay if they cannot afford, so people like me slip through the cracks and are left without...

The other thing is for the longest time i ate mostly organic and healthy foods but cannot get to them now, so am very limited...it was a sudden shock change in diet

 

[Pamelav]

Prayers for God's will for life to be done. I'm sure He's got more for you than this. ?

 

[Starcrystal]

Prayers for God's will for life to be done. I'm sure He's got more for you than this. ?

Yes, I am too...but this is what Job went through..it is just a horrible nightmare..
Gods will WAS happening but if someone doesn't believe it or follow it and then leaves it entirely....

 

[Krissy Cakes]

Prayers being lifted above!

 

[hypostatic]

Praying.

 

[brinny]

Praying (((hug)))

 

[Starcrystal]

Ohh Lord..I just ate last bowl of organic cereal and milk..'


ooo..feels so good..body creaming for calcium and nutrients mmmm. so satisfied, but now I am out...wow..people do not know

Ohh that tasted good and my body is balanced..it was screaming and starving, reeling for these nutrients and i just ate the last of it..OOOhhh..so good..not on drugs, but like a drug..
I have to go through tomorrow without milk or cereal..I have bread and salmon.....

this struggle for survival is insanity...

as body reels and screams for nutrients to just live I carry on...

I will stand for the LORD Jesus Christ until i die...
my dreams have been very nice, my wife, so kind and so nice..I do not wish to wake up and hope soon God takes me.... I do not wish to wake from sleep any more..The Bible speaks of the sleep..i am starting to like it..I talk with mywife and it all glows, we kiss, we start to argue but do not..God is there..my late wife also is there, she just talks on her cell phone, she apologizes for what she did, and we are all friends..these dreams go back and forth, no monsters or demons i used to battle in dreams, just my beloved wife now and my late wife, and we all get along..I do not wish to wake from these dreams...
i am very depressed when i do...these dreams must become reality, for this is heaven, with the only ones i ever loved..there were no others..just Lisa and D, who left recently...
it's ok, i just ate cereal..and I also kinda solved a real serial killer case earlier but that is nothing compared to these dreams and who i truly love....and the one present, that kiss last night and the beautiful eyes with curly black hair, so innocent and fragile, i liked that..that was very cool..
Lord,
let me sleep, forever

and I love my wife

 

[Lulav]

Praying for you situation to improve. I know it's hard not being able to get organic foods when your body is so used to functioning on them. Since you obviously have electric and an internet connection, is it possible to order food online? I know Amazon has many organic foods and delivers to your door. This may be a way to go, they sell in bulk to which helps to save.

 

[Starcrystal]

Praying for you situation to improve. I know it's hard not being able to get organic foods when your body is so used to functioning on them. Since you obviously have electric and an internet connection, is it possible to order food online? I know Amazon has many organic foods and delivers to your door. This may be a way to go, they sell in bulk to which helps to save.

I could do that and even have a local supplier that is 100% organic but is very spendy and I am on a fixed income...
No way i could go a whole month ordering that, plus it still doesnt solve the animal problem, or loneliness and cabin fever

 

[Ash8676]

Continuing to keep you in prayer.

 

[EmmaCat]

Definitely praying for you, my friend!

All good things
Emmy

 

[Pamelav]

Prayers, hope things are still at least the same if not better.

 

[Starcrystal]

Prayers, hope things are still at least the same if not better.

Ok, what? hope things still the same???
wow, no..I reject and rebuke that..maybe you misunderstood.. a little better..some... but why on earth and in heaven would you hope things same?

I do not mean to be offensive but really? Why would you hope things same????? maybe misunderstanding...please pray but do NOT pray things stay the same!!! Ok?

Now I do have to walk over hill and dale in sweating hot sun, relying on some Samaritan to pick me up..Ironically I do not go out on Sundays..Lots of traffic and almost all church people but they are priests and Levites...tried that a couple times and I have a 15 - 17 mile round trip...

Well, let me just share what I sent my Dad

"Well, I got it done.... walked 3 miles and neighbor picked me up on way to work... on way back a big lady who had picked me up before picked me up 1/4 mile out of town, was going to drop me off 4 miles out but I offered her $5 to take me all the way so she did... it was nice because we had a good talk and her husband is a Russian immigrant who always wanted to go to Alaska, and we talked about me living in Alaska, Russian dolls and orthodox churches and such...
I guess any time she sees me she will pick me up.

Last night I prayed for an 'angel' to help me rides today so I guess that was answered...

 

[Starcrystal]

Definitely praying for you, my friend!

All good things
Emmy

Thank you.
Well, I just got back from being away for 6 days. I had to go 100 miles away for some business needed taken care of, and ended up stranded there a few extra days.
It was good though because I went to church 3 times to a spirit filled non denominational church that is well balanced and just so hard to find.
So, I have some more local peoples praying for this situation, and was able to get a ride home from one of the brothers.
It was nice to be able to walk to stores, library, church, etc, and also watch some old episodes of Bones on TV that I hadn't seen before, as well as some interesting new sci fi shows, though I find they tend to leave God out which ends up being a bit disturbing. I only watched a few hours of Tv though, as i found network TV commercials to be evil..big pharma pushing their expensive drugs everywhere, new age nonsense, and other disturbing stuff like "Viberzi" commericial that uses what appears to be a naked Artificial Intelligence or doppleganger girl to promote drugs, and Genentech which is a Biotech company that seemed to have some weird stuff going on in their commercial..Hadn't watched network TV since 2008 so this was far worse that what was on there 8 years ago.
The dogs ended up making it as I offered to pay a neighbor to go feed them while I away..more expenses and as it was over $650 on the whole trip the past week!
What was best is I found a church that actually preaches the Word, believes in breaking chains and setting the captive free, but without legalism or a bunch of rules, believes that Satan is the destroyer of families and the system is corrupt when it makes laws that go against Gods Word, as well as interfering with families because it is Satan who uses everything he can to destroy couples, families, and society...
Also for those who knew me here back in 2004 - 10 and remember my discussions about aliens and UFOs, of all things the motel manager is a UFO researcher and let me read his published booklets from the 1990s. I in turn was able to share about Jesus salvation with him and showed him one of my blogs that exposes the UFO/alien deception and preaches Jesus heavily..I also got to share Jesus with another man who had lost his son and wife..so obviously God had me in that town for a purpose.
Now am back to desolation and affliction, stranded again miles away from town, but I did stop at store and have a few days food.
Oh, I spoke to one of the church elders about the history of the hill I live on, the neighbors, and my family experience..he seemed to feel there was a need for a collective prayer to break the spiritual bondage that seems to be around here at times. I have had tried to take it on by myself and cannot, it is one of those situations where more than one person praying is needed...so it is possible some of them may come out sometimes and we will clean house..I do not mean with brooms... but to rebuke and bind the devils that afflict in the first place.

Anyways, that's what I have been doing the past week, for those on this thread who have posted and prayed.

 

[EmmaCat]

Good to hear from you! I understand the cleaning, so I'll keep praying for you!

All good things
Emmy

 

[Starcrystal]

Good to hear from you! I understand the cleaning, so I'll keep praying for you!

All good things
Emmy

Good, and thanks, because actually there is a thread here about spiritual cleansing of houses or places and some Christians do not believe in it. Daniel 10 says otherwise, especially verse 12 & 13 where the angel speaks of being resisted by the prince of Persia ( a principality), and Michael the archangel had to come and help him....

"Fear not, Daniel: for from the first day that thou didst set thine heart to understand, and to chasten thyself before thy God, thy words were heard, and I am come for thy words.

But the prince of the kingdom of Persia withstood me one and twenty days: but, lo, Michael, one of the chief princes, came to help me; and I remained there with the kings of Persia."

 

[EmmaCat]

Good, and thanks, because actually there is a thread here about spiritual cleansing of houses or places and some Christians do not believe in it. Daniel 10 says otherwise, especially verse 12 & 13 where the angel speaks of being resisted by the prince of Persia ( a principality), and Michael the archangel had to come and help him....

"Fear not, Daniel: for from the first day that thou didst set thine heart to understand, and to chasten thyself before thy God, thy words were heard, and I am come for thy words.

But the prince of the kingdom of Persia withstood me one and twenty days: but, lo, Michael, one of the chief princes, came to help me; and I remained there with the kings of Persia."

Some folks may be following my blog and although I don't mention the actual cleansing done by our pastor and certain very precious Godly men and women, both my home and Mom's home had to be cleansed when my horrid brother-in-law was gone forever.

I understand that different religions have different ways of cleansing homes or buildings or whatnot, but the outcomes are the same; the home returns to its original untouched and unowned state. It is a neutral place at that point. Then at that point as memories are made and laughter, love, and the Lord come home to roost, that is when the home becomes complete with joy this time.

The Lord makes it His home too. When you walk in the door and feel that relief, that joy -- even though you've been out shopping and spoiling yourself to death and you aren't tired -- of just being home floods all over you ... it's good!

All good things
Emmy

 

[Starcrystal]

Some folks may be following my blog and although I don't mention the actual cleansing done by our pastor and certain very precious Godly men and women, both my home and Mom's home had to be cleansed when my horrid brother-in-law was gone forever.

I understand that different religions have different ways of cleansing homes or buildings or whatnot, but the outcomes are the same; the home returns to its original untouched and unowned state. It is a neutral place at that point. Then at that point as memories are made and laughter, love, and the Lord come home to roost, that is when the home becomes complete with joy this time.

The Lord makes it His home too. When you walk in the door and feel that relief, that joy -- even though you've been out shopping and spoiling yourself to death and you aren't tired -- of just being home floods all over you ... it's good!

All good things
Emmy

Awesome, and so true. To be honest, Lisa, my late wife who used to be a member here had gone secretly into the occult for a couple of years..I think she did it mainly to get finances and maybe certain 'powers' but it was all in vain.. in fact the finances got worse and worse the more she tried to call up demons to help.
I sensed something was amiss, kids having nightmares, me feeling a dark heaviness around here, and me also having dreams of very dark things, accosted by monsters, mutants and ungodly things i will not even mention...I learned how to defeat most of these unholy creatures in the dreams by using the Word and Jesus name, or just plain outsmarting the foul beasts.
After my wife died in 2013 i found all her emails showing an extensive history of doing secret rituals in her room and outside, summoning demons and even summoning Lucifer which she said filled the entire room. She did repent of this sin about 6 weeks before she committed suicide.
That is on top of the local darkness that was already here before we built the house..
I built the house so it was never not lived in. But the house and land itself is innocent.. as you say, it can be cleansed..the land was created by God and because godless people have lived here (the whole hill, not just my land) and because oppression and vice has been here the devil had an open door.. and at times I have failed too and sinned, but God always calls me back...it is the darkness that was invited here over the years that has to go.

Strange you bring up about being not tired after a long day, because one thing that can happen here is getting tired or losing motivation..happens a lot..But other times I can be full of energy and joy, or have been in the past..not so much now..its like the devil saps strength, makes you lazy, steals your motivation and you just want to lay down or sleep... that too has to go... in Jesus name. I am not the only one who has been victim of the tiredness phenomenon, several have.

 

[EmmaCat]

Awesome, and so true. To be honest, Lisa, my late wife who used to be a member here had gone secretly into the occult for a couple of years..I think she did it mainly to get finances and maybe certain 'powers' but it was all in vain.. in fact the finances got worse and worse the more she tried to call up demons to help.
I sensed something was amiss, kids having nightmares, me feeling a dark heaviness around here, and me also having dreams of very dark things, accosted by monsters, mutants and ungodly things i will not even mention...I learned how to defeat most of these unholy creatures in the dreams by using the Word and Jesus name, or just plain outsmarting the foul beasts.
After my wife died in 2013 i found all her emails showing an extensive history of doing secret rituals in her room and outside, summoning demons and even summoning Lucifer which she said filled the entire room. She did repent of this sin about 6 weeks before she committed suicide.
That is on top of the local darkness that was already here before we built the house..
I built the house so it was never not lived in. But the house and land itself is innocent.. as you say, it can be cleansed..the land was created by God and because godless people have lived here (the whole hill, not just my land) and because oppression and vice has been here the devil had an open door.. and at times I have failed too and sinned, but God always calls me back...it is the darkness that was invited here over the years that has to go.

Strange you bring up about being not tired after a long day, because one thing that can happen here is getting tired or losing motivation..happens a lot..But other times I can be full of energy and joy, or have been in the past..not so much now..its like the devil saps strength, makes you lazy, steals your motivation and you just want to lay down or sleep... that too has to go... in Jesus name. I am not the only one who has been victim of the tiredness phenomenon, several have.

Oh my brother, your situation is much worse than I had envisioned. I'm so sorry ... I'll be ramping up those prayers for you. Would you mind if I let the other Angels and folks-in-charge know you need some serious help? And can I call in some big guns on my side of the street who are Godly and true? Dang, I should have seen this one coming.

You've got some kind of pretty strong spiritual warfare going on over there. That's worse than just a weak little takeover like we had. This has been going on for years, escalating, diminishing, escalating, diminishing ... on and on, right? Tell me if I'm right or wrong. Lately it's worse and it's affecting your physical body to an extent, right? But it's worse -- it's starting to get into your mind. That darkness has developed itself into what we Fundies call an "element of evil." Elements of evil are periods of darkness which actually take on a persona of some kind and it makes them hard to battle. The reason they're hard to battle is because they look like everything around you and they are everything around you but they really aren't the physical things around you. Does any of that sound familiar or resonate with you?

I'm not trying to scare you, but you've got a problem there that's grown roots. Let's turn this over to some serious prayer people, okay? The Angels and Ambassadors and higher-ups are all excellent, and if you don't mind a few Fundies in the mix, I have six Brothers who will be more than happy to get down and get the evil out too. And try to get that cleansing as soon as possible. We can start by making the groundwork of prayer and we can be praying for you to get your strength together too. If you know folks who understand cleansings and can pray about these things there, please call them too. Get everyone you can. With stuff like this, sometimes there really is strength in numbers.

What do you say? I say you've suffered enough, brother.

With love and prayers,
Emmy