This website has done irreparable damage to my desire for fellowship. When i first came here i was hungry for fellowship, learning, and to overcome things like depression, anxiety, fear, and other things. I since then have learned to endure suffering after reading scripture, and seeing how David endured difficult things, as well as Paul too. I found that following their example diminished my anxiety and depression, and that endurance, and waiting on the Lord in times of trouble was my strength. I grew in grace after fear wearied me so much that i decided to just trust God with my soul. If i live i live, and if i die i die, and worrying about it wont help me escape my fate. I let go of fear and let God be in control of my soul. Now if i fear, i pray and wait on God.
Anyway, after learning those things i found sound doctrine. I also found that i dislike division very much. So much in fact that i dont desire fellowship anymore. I have enough mental distress without adding to it. I want no more politics, no more preachers, no more denominational theology, no more Church, no more anything but Christ and Him alone. With Jesus i have hope and peace, but with denominations i have only sorrow and stumbling blocks. I suppose im different than most people here, and thats because i dont have a denomination to fight for, all i have are Pauls instructions and he says that division and contention are carnal and unspiritual. I would gladly like to break free from this place, and never again seek fellowship with another Christian. All the posts about "not forsaking the assembly" mean nothing to me anymore, because no one takes that seriously anyway. THey love political, economical and denominational division. Thats not exhorting each other to do anything but be carnal. So in these last days, im happy to be a one man denomination.