The part in red?
Here's an unusual response that you probably don't hear very often, der alter. But your doubtfulness has no value, for either you, for me, or for this argument. Frankly, I think you make arguments based on what you have come to know, in exactly the same manner that I make arguments on what I have come to know.
For that reason, I ended the argument with the poster above you, since on that day I was one man, and today I'm another. I've come to realize that the person who posted believes what he believes and I was wrong to try to tell him that he's foolish. Instead, I take notice of the fact that the wheat is threshed in due time.
I'll be responsible for mine, and you be responsible for yours. There's no intertwining there. You cannot be responsible for mine. You can't judge their merits from your own inclinations and from your own perspective, since you have never had my perspective, never gathered what I came to gather and never viewed as I currently view.
You want to tell me my faith is wrong, because it is my faith, because you know better, Der Alter, because I can't possibly have thought like you could and ever imagined that I might actually be wrong. To you, I am ignorant. But you can't understand me because my perspective is so far removed from what you see that you simply don't see it.
I'll tell you the truth, I harbored more doubt than ever had I in my life when I had 'typical' christian views, and yet the only doubt you harbor is for me and mine. Should you be so sure that you're correct, then? Have you gazed in my mind, have you, and understood in the way that I understand?
To me, I am beyond what you currently perceive, because I have already perceived God in the manner you perceive him; the God of hell, the God of war, the God of destruction, chaos and inconsistency. Yet again, what you believe is up to you, Der Alter. I hope and believe in a promise that tells me that it does not inherently matter whether you see things that I do, now and here, or whether you do not. It is your heart that matters, not your professions or beliefs, and the same with mine.
and since I am saying something that I don't think you regularly hear, I have a proposition, Der Alter. For the both of us to simply accept that our views and perspectives differ entirely. That we sit here for five minutes, each of us and recognize each as the other. If I were you. Search yourself. How sure are you in your views? Thus, how can I ever persuade you anything contrary to them? Thus, what's the point of trying?
There is nothing real in doubt, Der Alter, but all the same, that doubt is yours, not mine.
