He only thing I have become sure of in the last couple of years in my relationship with God is that He loves and accepts me unconditionally, which is something I cannot say about those who knew me and those who know me still. I have heard the common advice of several wise friends who say, "if so you know, then it really does not matter...how people feel or think." But is that simple? I am afraid not...or at least, in my life I haven't always find it so simple to disregard what others think and feel about me. Where I come from, if you are not married before 30, then you most probably are a spinster and a failure in your social life. Also, where I come from, people care a lot about appearances, career, degree.... And doctors are the most respected and most valued. Most of my family members are doctors but I was never really into medicine so I took a different path...Engineering. Even though I have thanks to The Lord glorified His name in my academic career thus far having earned my Master's of Science, to my father, this never seemed to be good enough so with my family I often feel like a failure. Of course being 30 and single makes my life even harder.... In less than a year, I am supposed to attend three weddings for three of my cousins. Perhaps that makes me the only Unmarried girl in my family and makes me feel even the more terrible about myself...
but I still feel like I'm 'behind' because I'm still single.
