People tend to give me weak hand shakes because of my gross hands. Also, i can't even imagine holding hands with a woman or touching one because of this illness.
Really, I think you've let this problem with your hands grow out of proportion. This is what happens when we focus overmuch on such things. We think they are totally gross when the other person hardly even notices. I was this way with the acne from which I suffered when I was a teenager. I was always obsessing over it and thinking the only thing a person could see when they looked at me were my many pimples. Occasionally, I would fuss out loud about this and people would look at me with surprise and say, "What are you talking about? You have some zits. Big deal. Most teenagers have them. I hadn't even noticed." Perhaps you're a bit like I was, stewing over a physical issue that most others don't consider important at all and are quite willing to ignore.
I might appear gloomy and depressed to them, but I don't try to undress them with my eyes. If i do check them out, it is a quick glance.
I have yet to meet a guy who makes a steady diet of inappropriate content who doesn't undress women with his eyes. And the awful thing is they don't realize they are doing it. The women they are looking at sure do, though!
God is real to me but my faith in him is extremely weak. I only decided to believe in Jesus again after a christian tour group trip to israel that was only possible because my aunt sponsored me and my family.
I feel like god does not care about me or understand me. I dont know how i am going to strengthen my faith. I do think that he uses my aunt to try to reach me.
Um, your concept of God seems rather...small. If there is anything God does not understand, He cannot be God. Being God, by definition, means that one knows and understands
everything. Really, the problem isn't that God doesn't understand you but that you don't know Him.
Does God care about you? Of course He does. He died on a cross for you. Doesn't that count? It ought to - a lot. Have you given time for careful thought about what Jesus did for you at Calvary? Have you ever thanked God for the things He has given you? How about your Aunt, for instance? Or eyesight? Or your hearing? How about beautiful sunsets? Or the warm sunshine on your skin? What about chocolate, or your favorite food? If you take the time to think about it, there are quite a great many things with which God has blessed you. Thanking Him for these things is a powerful way to counter unhappiness and discontentment, and to find new love for Him.
Faith is only strengthened by the exercise of it. If you want a stronger faith in God, then you must step out in faith with God. Begin to live on the basis of what God says rather than on what you feel or what the world tells you is true.
That is my struggle. Building a relationship with God.
No relationship exists without communication and investment in the relationship. The simplest, best way to build a relationship with God is to begin to speak to Him in prayer and to let Him speak to you through His Word, the Bible. This is how communication between you and Him occurs. The more time you spend in these things - prayer and Bible study - the greater your relationship to God will be.
I can't seem to follow simple directions and usually do a terrible job at work. I even got fired at a lousy dish washing job because I was not efficient. Also, I failed a couple of classes at college and could not major in anything useful. I definitely have limited intellect, otherwise i would not be in my current situation.
Nah. I don't think you have an intellect problem. You might have a
motivation problem, but you don't seem intellectually deficient to me. Never forget:
the me I see is the me I'll be. Telling yourself that you're stupid is a sure way to begin to act like you are. I have found nothing in what you've communicated to me to suggest that you're stupid at all. As I said, your problem may be more one of motivation.
I want God in my life but I feel like i am in a constant struggle with my physical body. Even if my heart wants to do the right thing, my decrepit body just reminds me that i am a loser and I end up giving in.
Well, the beginning of the process of changing in this regard is telling yourself the truth about who you are as God's child. You are not a weak-willed loser. You are, if you are a born-again follower of Christ, a "new creation," you have "put on Christ" and God's Holy Spirit resides within you. If you're genuinely saved, you have all you need right now to live the way God has called you to live. I think you're a little too busy moping and telling yourself lies to see this, however.
I keep on asking myself why was I born but cannot figure it out. I was even born in 7 months prematurely, with a permanent bald spot on the top of my head thanks to the stupid doctor attaching a hot thermometer there. I wish i knew if god even has plans for me.
This is an easy question to answer! God's plans for you are fundamentally the same as they are for all whom He has created: to live like Christ that we may bring glory to Him. It is no surpise that when we live this way, in accord with the fundamental purpose for which we were made, we find the greatest fulfillment possible in life.
Selah.
