I Enjoy My Depression

[child630]

Is it wrong that I am satisfied with being depressed? Is depression sin? Where in the Bible does it say I have to be happy? A lot of people dealing with depression wants to get out of it. But not me. I like feeling unloved by people. I like feeling like I am worthless. This doesn't make sense, I know. But I don't want to be worth anything to anyone. This relieves me of any responsibility. When people like me, they want to be around me all the time. I would be afraid of doing something that would make people hate me. Then I would be even more depressed. I am willing to help out people in need, but I hate it when they tell me that they love me. In fact, it makes me sick. I can express love by doing things for people, but the words "I love you," I hate. What is wrong with me? Why am I OK with depression? And, even though I practice charity, am I still not pleasing to God?

 

[Bella Vita]

The Bible is clear that we are not to worry and that we are to place our burdens with the Lord. It is also speaks of the joy and peace that God brings to our lives because of the fact that he takes care of us and we don't have to worry.

As for you not wanting to be bothered with other people or the repressibility of friendships and relationships with others that isn't christ like. Christ was always caring about and helping others. Being a Christian is about serving others and that means forming relationships with them some will come easy some you really have to work at. I honestly don't think you are happy with being depressed you content in it sure you feel comfortable. And getting out of your comfort zone it's something anyone likes. But being a Christian is all about getting out of our comfort zone. Most of the issues with Christianity today is people don't want to get out of their comfort zones.

Being a Christian is being selfless you have to serve others. Love Christ show Christ and then share Christ. You have to form relationships with others. Being a Christian is all about people Love God love and take care of his people.

 

[avemaria34]

I think you have a problem.

 

[CounselorForChrist]

In short. Pity party. For some they become so depressed that they like the attention, for others its the same except the don't realize they like the attention. Ask anyone about how I was years ago when I came here. I didn't realize all that much I loved the attention I got being severely depressed. After they told me it made me realize what I was doing.

All that aside maybe something in your past is why you hate being loved. Also fact is no matter how much you try to hide from it, there will always be someone who is not happy with you. We do that as humans, we sometimes find things to complain about someone so we feel better ourselves.

As far as God is concerned He is NOT happy with what you are doing. Let him control your worries.

 

[Sword of the Lord]

What light are you letting shine, exactly?

 

[child630]

In short. Pity party. For some they become so depressed that they like the attention, for others its the same except the don't realize they like the attention. Ask anyone about how I was years ago when I came here. I didn't realize all that much I loved the attention I got being severely depressed. After they told me it made me realize what I was doing.

All that aside maybe something in your past is why you hate being loved. Also fact is no matter how much you try to hide from it, there will always be someone who is not happy with you. We do that as humans, we sometimes find things to complain about someone so we feel better ourselves.

As far as God is concerned He is NOT happy with what you are doing. Let him control your worries.

Maybe you are right. I hope I am not trying to get attention. Then I know I am doing something wrong. I just don't want anyone to be responsible for how I feel. Being loved feels good. But I don't rely on how someone feels about me. I can love, but from a distance. It is depressing that people don't love you. But I feel like I don't need people, and that feels good.

 

[child630]

The Bible is clear that we are not to worry and that we are to place our burdens with the Lord. It is also speaks of the joy and peace that God brings to our lives because of the fact that he takes care of us and we don't have to worry.

As for you not wanting to be bothered with other people or the repressibility of friendships and relationships with others that isn't christ like. Christ was always caring about and helping others. Being a Christian is about serving others and that means forming relationships with them some will come easy some you really have to work at. I honestly don't think you are happy with being depressed you content in it sure you feel comfortable. And getting out of your comfort zone it's something anyone likes. But being a Christian is all about getting out of our comfort zone. Most of the issues with Christianity today is people don't want to get out of their comfort zones.

Being a Christian is being selfless you have to serve others. Love Christ show Christ and then share Christ. You have to form relationships with others. Being a Christian is all about people Love God love and take care of his people.

I can love people from a distance.

 

[silverrune]

Well then good on ya. If you are happy being sad you should make the most of it.

5 Ways To Make The Most of Being Depressed

 

[silverrune]

 

[child630]

I think you have a problem.

yes I do

 

[child630]

What light are you letting shine, exactly?

That's a good question. I don't know

 

[forGod1]

Is it wrong that I am satisfied with being depressed? Is depression sin? Where in the Bible does it say I have to be happy? A lot of people dealing with depression wants to get out of it. But not me. I like feeling unloved by people. I like feeling like I am worthless. This doesn't make sense, I know. But I don't want to be worth anything to anyone. This relieves me of any responsibility. When people like me, they want to be around me all the time. I would be afraid of doing something that would make people hate me. Then I would be even more depressed. I am willing to help out people in need, but I hate it when they tell me that they love me. In fact, it makes me sick. I can express love by doing things for people, but the words "I love you," I hate. What is wrong with me? Why am I OK with depression? And, even though I practice charity, am I still not pleasing to God?

you cant be depressed and satisfied.. you just need a doctor, or better medication. you need to be clear with your doctors.

your post is beyond odd. Not in an unfixable way.. I think you just have to go have a stay in a hospital and get yourself under control. i'm not a doctor.. but this is just what i think

 

[Bella Vita]

I can love people from a distance.

Your right you can but that isn't Christ like. Christ was up front and personal with people he was eating dinner with thieves and prostitutes. He was out in the streets preaching/teaching and sitting with people. Our God is a hands on in your face God and I am thankful for that. He loves me intimately and up close. How would you feel if our God loved you from a distance? Things would be a lot different that is for sure.

You can do what you want but that doesn't mean it is what you are called to in the image of Christ.

 

[child630]

you cant be depressed and satisfied.. you just need a doctor, or better medication. you need to be clear with your doctors.

Maybe you're right. Let me explain. I am a loner. I am depressed about being a loner. But when people try to get me to hang out with them, I refuse. I am afraid of getting hurt. I enjoy staying in my comfort zone alone, but I am depressed that people don't like me. Satisfied, because I don't have to worry about people hurting me; sad, because no one is there for me when I need them; satisfied, because I can say I don't need people, even when I actually need people, because eventually I solve my own problems and I don't feel like I owe anybody anything; sad because when I practice the act of charity, I don't get honored for it, like some people I know. So I believe it is possible to be satisfied in my depression. I am depressed cause I don't have people in my life, but satisfied cause no one can hurt me.

 

[Bella Vita]

Maybe you're right. Let me explain. I am a loner. I am depressed about being a loner. But when people try to get me to hang out with them, I refuse. I am afraid of getting hurt. I enjoy staying in my comfort zone alone, but I am depressed and satified that people don't like me. Satisfied, because I don't have to worry about people hurting me; sad, because no one is there for me when I need them; satisfied, because I can say I don't need people, even when I actually need people, because eventually I solve my own problems and I don't feel like I owe anybody anything; sad because when I practice the act of charity, I don't get honored for it, like some people I know. So I believe it is possible to be satisfied in my depression. I am depressed cause I don't have people in my life, but satisfied cause no one can hurt me.

You need to find some good Christian counseling and go regularly until you get this stuff sorted out. This is not how God wants you to live life. Maybe you had some trauma in your past or something. But you should start seeking professional help for these feelings and thoughts don't just be content in it. Your life can get better if you start dealing with these issues.

Prayers =]

 

[child630]

You need to find some good Christian counseling and go regularly until you get this stuff sorted out. This is not how God wants you to live life. Maybe you had some trauma in your past or something. But you should start seeking professional help for these feelings and thoughts don't just be content in it. Your life can get better if you start dealing with these issues.

Prayers =]

You are probably right. I want to be pleasing to God. And if I am not pleasing to him. Then I need to change.

 

[Bella Vita]

You are probably right. I want to be pleasing to God. And if I am not pleasing to him. Then I need to change.

Therapy is great and you need it for communication and people skills. But God will give you strength. Start a daily devotional of scripture and prayer just find some quiet time in the morning or evening. The more on track your relationship with God is the better you are going to start to feel. Just pour your heart out to him that is all he wants you to do. It doesn't have to be pretty or organized he just wants you to talk him.

Just getting your prayer life and daily time in the word on track will help a lot.

 

[joey_downunder]

Bella Vita is giving you good advice there. If you need personal counselling to help you work through your issues you really should go as soon as possible.

Your typing reminded me of my thinking a few years back:

Proverbs 14:12 There is a way that seems right to a man,
but its end is the way to death.

You already know that no (long-term) good will come of it but you've been lying to yourself that this short-term comfort strategy is OK for you.

Your own reasoning is distorted at the moment. Have you considered going to God (via bible) to gain real understanding of your situation? Proverbs 14 Sermons - SermonAudio.com

 

[child630]

Bella Vita is giving you good advice there. If you need personal counselling to help you work through your issues you really should go as soon as possible.

Your typing reminded me of my thinking a few years back:

Proverbs 14:12 There is a way that seems right to a man,
but its end is the way to death.

You already know that no (long-term) good will come of it but you've been lying to yourself that this short-term comfort strategy is OK for you.

Your own reasoning is distorted at the moment. Have you considered going to God (via bible) to gain real understanding of your situation? Proverbs 14 Sermons - SermonAudio.com

No, but I am willing to consider it.

 

[manitouscott]

Maybe you're right. Let me explain. I am a loner. I am depressed about being a loner. But when people try to get me to hang out with them, I refuse. I am afraid of getting hurt. I enjoy staying in my comfort zone alone, but I am depressed that people don't like me. Satisfied, because I don't have to worry about people hurting me; sad, because no one is there for me when I need them; satisfied, because I can say I don't need people, even when I actually need people, because eventually I solve my own problems and I don't feel like I owe anybody anything; sad because when I practice the act of charity, I don't get honored for it, like some people I know. So I believe it is possible to be satisfied in my depression. I am depressed cause I don't have people in my life, but satisfied cause no one can hurt me.

Wow, do I ever relate to this, I mean 100% relate. It is amazing though, through regular prayer and meditation on the word, I have gained the desire to be around other christians, knowing that I need mature christians around me in order to grow. That led me to take small steps, like going to service even though I didn't look at or talk to anyone, then bigger steps, like introducing myself to people and remembering their names for next time, then where I am at now, going regularly, forming some relationships with other believers and even attending a small size bible study class where we get to know each other intimately and pray for one another.

My point. At some point the Holy Spirit may convict you truly to be with other believers. For now, though, why worry about it? Just stay in the word and prayer. God will move you to act when it is right.