I know I have God's love but I desire a helpmate so badly and it is now all I want in this life.
I solely joined this site to vent and cry out for advice because I can't stand to keep it in.
I am almost 23 years old and I have lived a Christian life so far that I would say few have, I say this with a humble heart.
I have NEVER drank, smoked, cussed, done drugs, and I'm a virgin waiting till I'm married to have sex. I was saved in 1st grade and went to christian schools from 1st-12th grade, raised in a christian family, go to church 3 times a week. I go on missions trips every now and then. I do my best to live my life for Christ and as Col. 3:23 says: "And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;"
Now before I get stereotyped as this guy that has no life and sits at home all the time, I am athletic, tall, funny, smart, attractive, mature christian guy, I am friends with everyone and I stand firm and strongly in front of my non christian friends that i wont drink with them or even go to parties, I have made so many sacrifices in my life to be able to say those things. I know it doesn't compare to what Christ gave for me. Again I say this with a humble heart, I just want you to know who I am as a person.
I feel like I would be an amazing bf/husband. I have never had a gf, never kissed a girl, never even been on a single date! I absolutely refuse to date a non-christian or even date a girl who i know that it wouldn't work out with in the long run. I will not settle for less than God has planned for me.
I want a girl who is just like me, I want her to be a strong christian, athletic, beautiful, smart, funny. I feel like I'm not asking for anything that I am not myself, I just want a girl as good as me in every way. I have prayed consistently for my future wife since i was in grade school. I desire and have this longing for a Godly wife that I can give my love to and that can love me back.
I don't know why God made me this way, why I can't settle for less in a girl, but He made me this way for a reason. I just don't know what to do, I'm to the point where I wish sometimes I could just go out to a bar and pick up a girl and feel loved even if for a night, but I know I would never do that, it just breaks my heart and brings me to tears as I type this, that I would even think of doing such a thing.
I have tried everything, online dating, random facebook friends lol, every single time I get it set up that a girl and I should meet for a date, something happens and she just quits texting/talking to me, this has happened recently with around 8 girls, and these were all christian girls.
Why do i have to go through this, everyone else I know my age and younger has made mistakes that I havent made and I would say all have at least been on a date! some are married and most are in relationships, why/what has caused me to have to be alone when it comes to girls, I have leaned on God my whole life, I just dont know what else to do, I basically cry every night as I pray to God asking Him to help me, to give me courage and to guide my life. I just need to know how I can go on and have this mask on, everyone knows me as always laughing and smiling and making jokes, but the loneliness I have consumes me, its a battle just to get out of bed each day knowing I will see people happy in relationships. I know I covet badly happy couples, I just don't know what to do.
I'm sorry that was so long, no one will probably even read it all, but maybe someone can tell me what to do...
I solely joined this site to vent and cry out for advice because I can't stand to keep it in.
I am almost 23 years old and I have lived a Christian life so far that I would say few have, I say this with a humble heart.
I have NEVER drank, smoked, cussed, done drugs, and I'm a virgin waiting till I'm married to have sex. I was saved in 1st grade and went to christian schools from 1st-12th grade, raised in a christian family, go to church 3 times a week. I go on missions trips every now and then. I do my best to live my life for Christ and as Col. 3:23 says: "And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;"
Now before I get stereotyped as this guy that has no life and sits at home all the time, I am athletic, tall, funny, smart, attractive, mature christian guy, I am friends with everyone and I stand firm and strongly in front of my non christian friends that i wont drink with them or even go to parties, I have made so many sacrifices in my life to be able to say those things. I know it doesn't compare to what Christ gave for me. Again I say this with a humble heart, I just want you to know who I am as a person.
I feel like I would be an amazing bf/husband. I have never had a gf, never kissed a girl, never even been on a single date! I absolutely refuse to date a non-christian or even date a girl who i know that it wouldn't work out with in the long run. I will not settle for less than God has planned for me.
I want a girl who is just like me, I want her to be a strong christian, athletic, beautiful, smart, funny. I feel like I'm not asking for anything that I am not myself, I just want a girl as good as me in every way. I have prayed consistently for my future wife since i was in grade school. I desire and have this longing for a Godly wife that I can give my love to and that can love me back.
I don't know why God made me this way, why I can't settle for less in a girl, but He made me this way for a reason. I just don't know what to do, I'm to the point where I wish sometimes I could just go out to a bar and pick up a girl and feel loved even if for a night, but I know I would never do that, it just breaks my heart and brings me to tears as I type this, that I would even think of doing such a thing.
I have tried everything, online dating, random facebook friends lol, every single time I get it set up that a girl and I should meet for a date, something happens and she just quits texting/talking to me, this has happened recently with around 8 girls, and these were all christian girls.
Why do i have to go through this, everyone else I know my age and younger has made mistakes that I havent made and I would say all have at least been on a date! some are married and most are in relationships, why/what has caused me to have to be alone when it comes to girls, I have leaned on God my whole life, I just dont know what else to do, I basically cry every night as I pray to God asking Him to help me, to give me courage and to guide my life. I just need to know how I can go on and have this mask on, everyone knows me as always laughing and smiling and making jokes, but the loneliness I have consumes me, its a battle just to get out of bed each day knowing I will see people happy in relationships. I know I covet badly happy couples, I just don't know what to do.
I'm sorry that was so long, no one will probably even read it all, but maybe someone can tell me what to do...