I've always been someone who has held in their tears. I didn't like crying. But as I've been building up my relationship with God, I've taught myself that crying isn't all that bad and that I shouldn't try so hard to hold it in. But for some reason, I've found I really have a hard time crying . . .
Sometimes, when listening to Christian music or hearing a great preacher, I feel a huge need to cry. I feel like a balloon that's about to pop any second but for some reason . . . just can't. My face gets red and it's very frustrating because I feel I need to cry! For sins! For Jesus! But I can't!! Something commonplace for me in Church as well is Dancing in the Spirit. Sometimes I can't even focus on dancing because I just want one tear to come out but nothing comes! Why is it that I can feel such pain, such sadness, such remorse for my sins, yet I can't shed a single tear for them??
Sometimes, when listening to Christian music or hearing a great preacher, I feel a huge need to cry. I feel like a balloon that's about to pop any second but for some reason . . . just can't. My face gets red and it's very frustrating because I feel I need to cry! For sins! For Jesus! But I can't!! Something commonplace for me in Church as well is Dancing in the Spirit. Sometimes I can't even focus on dancing because I just want one tear to come out but nothing comes! Why is it that I can feel such pain, such sadness, such remorse for my sins, yet I can't shed a single tear for them??