The first couple times I was baptized, well...
The first was as a kid in elementary or middle school at church camp, so I don't think i was mature enough to make such an important decision.
The second time, I dunno. I can't remember too many details, but I don't know if I was actually a Christian or not at the time, either. There's just too many unknowns...
Lately, I've been wanting to be baptized mostly because I've been feeling I should, though the more important part of it is that I want to be baptized because, well, I dunno. I'm starting to think maybe I really wasn't a Christian for all these years, and that now finally I 'got it'. It's hard to explain.
It kind of started to happen after I attended this baptist church we have in town a couple weeks ago. They haven't been talking about it at all, it's just that I felt like I needed to go to church, so I went, and afterwards, bleh.
So I want to be baptized again this third and last time, I hope, not because I feel I have to or need to, but because I actually want to.
I'll probably talk a bit more about what it actually means in it's entirety though...
So there's also the option of doubt and rededication to add to the list of possible reasons.
Oi, usually I'm so good at expressing myself using a keyboard, but for some reason I'm having difficulties in this post properly explaining my thought process.