Hi folks, I am at a very, very critical point in my spiriual life. I am really worried about taking the wrong path, yet totally confused as to what the right path is. Before I start, I want to make it clear that I merely want advice, I am not trying to antagonise at all. Here's the deal;
I was born and raised Catholic (I'm 26), in fact I considered myself a very strong Catholic and would defend the Church and Pope to the hilt. However I was always strangely drawn to the Orthodox Church, which is quite inexplicable as I live in a country with no Orthodox heritage to speak of. Over the last couple years I began to believe that I would actually become Orthodox. Then, in the past year, everything changed- I came into contact with Jehovah's Witnessess and have come to see that they talk a lot of sense. I have had a Bible study, attended meetings and am becoming convinced this could be the truth. I know many of you will be thinking "cult!", but the JW's are very sincere, vey kind and very knowledgeable people. However there is something holding me back; Orthodoxy and the things I learned while studying the Church.
I guess I owe it to myself and to God to be absolutely sure before making any decisions. Obviously the JW's could not be further from the Orthodox, and they can't both be right. The JW's hold many unique beliefs (which they back up well with Scripture), but it is not these whch convince me. It is the many common sense arguments about how they fit the 'true faith' and others don't. These include;
- non-involvement in political issues. Jesus clearly commanded us to seperate ourselves from this world. Yet the Orthodox Church has been involved in many worldly conroversies.
- Jesus said you would know his followers by the love amongst them. If any of you have visited a Kingdom Hall or know any JW's you will know that they are so nice and the atmosphere is very welcoming. However, often the Orthodox Church can be bitterly divided by ethnic problems and politics.
- Jesus and the Apostles preached that after they had died, apostasy would occur. The true faith would be polluted. I am so worried that some of the beliefs I have held my whole life (such as the Trinity, immortality of the soul, veneration of the Virgin Mary and saints etc) are as a result of the leftovers or incorporation of paganism (something that really shocked me was how many pagan civilisations had a Mother figure, often with child, that are scarily similar to our icons of the Virgin Mary). It also appears that Greek philosophy polluted Christian thought.
- Jesus as God, or just God's Son. Jesus came as a 'ransom sacrifice' to make up for Adams's sin. Adam was the perfect man, and so God needed a perfect man to 'balance' things up. If Jesus was God then the balance would not be equal, it doesn't make sense.
These are just a few issues that really have hit home with me. However, the fact the JW's have only been around 150 years compared to 2000 years of Church history, worries me. The JW's say that is what was predicted, that the true faith wuld be lost and then restored as the end approaches. Their founder Russell and some of the 'false' predictions are also a worry. However, what is really striking is that the JW's admit their failings. They admit they used to celebrate Christmas and used the Cross, they admit they got stuff wrong but they were just trying to strip away things that had infected Christianity for so long, they are just honestly seeking the truth. The issue of Hell is also important. They don't believe in Hell but there seem to be many verses that show it is a reality.
I guess I am now totally and utterly confused. I know this is Satan's plan. This confusion and worry is distracting me from committing to the true faith, whatever it may be. I am so frightened of making the wrong choice and then when I die realising it and paying for it forever.
Any suggestions about what to do would be amazing. Is there anywhere I can look to properly refute the JW's accusations? I don't want to give up on the Church but that is the way I am heading.
Please help me if you can.
I was born and raised Catholic (I'm 26), in fact I considered myself a very strong Catholic and would defend the Church and Pope to the hilt. However I was always strangely drawn to the Orthodox Church, which is quite inexplicable as I live in a country with no Orthodox heritage to speak of. Over the last couple years I began to believe that I would actually become Orthodox. Then, in the past year, everything changed- I came into contact with Jehovah's Witnessess and have come to see that they talk a lot of sense. I have had a Bible study, attended meetings and am becoming convinced this could be the truth. I know many of you will be thinking "cult!", but the JW's are very sincere, vey kind and very knowledgeable people. However there is something holding me back; Orthodoxy and the things I learned while studying the Church.
I guess I owe it to myself and to God to be absolutely sure before making any decisions. Obviously the JW's could not be further from the Orthodox, and they can't both be right. The JW's hold many unique beliefs (which they back up well with Scripture), but it is not these whch convince me. It is the many common sense arguments about how they fit the 'true faith' and others don't. These include;
- non-involvement in political issues. Jesus clearly commanded us to seperate ourselves from this world. Yet the Orthodox Church has been involved in many worldly conroversies.
- Jesus said you would know his followers by the love amongst them. If any of you have visited a Kingdom Hall or know any JW's you will know that they are so nice and the atmosphere is very welcoming. However, often the Orthodox Church can be bitterly divided by ethnic problems and politics.
- Jesus and the Apostles preached that after they had died, apostasy would occur. The true faith would be polluted. I am so worried that some of the beliefs I have held my whole life (such as the Trinity, immortality of the soul, veneration of the Virgin Mary and saints etc) are as a result of the leftovers or incorporation of paganism (something that really shocked me was how many pagan civilisations had a Mother figure, often with child, that are scarily similar to our icons of the Virgin Mary). It also appears that Greek philosophy polluted Christian thought.
- Jesus as God, or just God's Son. Jesus came as a 'ransom sacrifice' to make up for Adams's sin. Adam was the perfect man, and so God needed a perfect man to 'balance' things up. If Jesus was God then the balance would not be equal, it doesn't make sense.
These are just a few issues that really have hit home with me. However, the fact the JW's have only been around 150 years compared to 2000 years of Church history, worries me. The JW's say that is what was predicted, that the true faith wuld be lost and then restored as the end approaches. Their founder Russell and some of the 'false' predictions are also a worry. However, what is really striking is that the JW's admit their failings. They admit they used to celebrate Christmas and used the Cross, they admit they got stuff wrong but they were just trying to strip away things that had infected Christianity for so long, they are just honestly seeking the truth. The issue of Hell is also important. They don't believe in Hell but there seem to be many verses that show it is a reality.
I guess I am now totally and utterly confused. I know this is Satan's plan. This confusion and worry is distracting me from committing to the true faith, whatever it may be. I am so frightened of making the wrong choice and then when I die realising it and paying for it forever.
Any suggestions about what to do would be amazing. Is there anywhere I can look to properly refute the JW's accusations? I don't want to give up on the Church but that is the way I am heading.
Please help me if you can.