Hi Lilly. I'm sorry to hear of your financial troubles, and I hope that all turns out well for you. But have you asked yourself this: does God really want to bless me financially? The truth is, He may not want to right now, or ever in this life. I know that's a hard thing to hear, and God is often very frustrating to us in the way that He answers prayer.
But at the same time, God does care for you, and He promises to take care of you. When I begin to worry about my life, I find it very helpful to turn to Matthew 6:25-34.
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
A couple things that I see in this passage that don't always immediately catch the eye: Jesus tells us that God, our father, knows what our needs are. He is not ignorant of our needs, but He gives to us according to what He wants us to have. Jesus also acknowledges that our troubles are real troubles. He does not minimize our problems, but says that each day has enough trouble of its own. He experienced the troubles of life on earth, and He sympathizes with our plights.
At the same time, Jesus tells us that we are to seek the kingdom of God first, not our own kingdoms. We are called to live for what God is building, instead of trying to build up our own treasures, such as a nice house, a nice car, good education for our children, etc. All of these are good things! But we must seek first God's kingdom. All that we truly need, God will give to us.
We also must keep in mind that our life here on Earth in this age is passing away. It is but a moment in the eye of eternity. Therefore should we store up treasures for a moment, or for eternity?
Lilly, I hope that it doesn't seem like I am minimizing your troubles. Your troubles are real, and God is concerned about them and about you. I truly hope that God will bless you financially, but I don't know God's plan for you, or for me. May God bless you in all good things, according to His mercy and love.
-your brother in Christ